January 27, 2020

RECIPE: Buffalo Chicken Lettuce Wraps


I came across this post in my blog somehow (sometimes I'll do a search for something, and then an old post pops up and I can't help but click on it!). I had forgotten about these lettuce wraps that I made in 2015, and they were so good!

I'd had a craving for buffalo chicken wings, but I made this much healthier version of buffalo chicken that killed the craving--and it was super easy to make. I actually cooked the chicken in the slow cooker, so once that was cooked, I threw in the other few ingredients and it was done.

The kids had theirs in tortillas, but Jerry and I used lettuce to wrap the chicken. Normally I'm not a "lettuce wrap" type of person, but it goes really well in this recipe (kind of like having celery with chicken wings).

Here is a printer-friendly version!

Ingredients:

2 lbs. boneless, skinless chicken breasts
3 Tbsp. ranch dressing mix
1/2 cup Frank's Red Hot sauce
ranch or blue cheese dressing for serving
iceberg lettuce for serving

Directions:

Put the chicken in the slow cooker and cover with water. Cook on high for 3-4 hours until the chicken is cooked through. Discard the water and shred the chicken (I took a tip from Pinterest to shred chicken in a Kitchen Aid mixer--and it worked really well! Much less work than shredding with forks. Just put the cooked chicken in the mixer and mix on low for about 30 seconds until the chicken is shredded).

Alternatively to the slower cooker, you can just use leftover cooked chicken breasts or even shred a rotisserie chicken. You just need shredded chicken.

Add 1/2 cup water, ranch dressing mix, and Frank's Red Hot sauce to the chicken and stir until mixed well. Then just top lettuce leaves with the chicken and dressing.


January 26, 2020

Can it be spring now?

January.

Ugh, I'm glad it's almost over. It's been a super rough month! There are things I wish I could write about sometimes, but when it's something about my kids, I like to keep it private for their sake. Everything is okay!... there has just been a lot going on this month.

I wrote recently that I was wondering if I might have Seasonal Affective Disorder, because it seems that over the last few years, I've had bouts of depression in the winter months. This month has been no different. I've been super tired, unmotivated, emotional, uninterested in everything, and just plain unhappy lately.

Last month, when I asked on Facebook for blog post suggestions, one person said: "How about an honest approach to parenting, meal prep, marriage and still have your own identity. Instagram and Facebook are filled with perfect pictures of family and kids. Nobody wants to sound imperfect."

I love this. Because it's true! If you were to judge someone's life based on their social media posts, it would seem like nobody has any problems at all.

After reading that Facebook comment, it reminded me of a status post I wrote last February:


Having written this in February, I again wonder if the season had anything to do with it. I know I felt better at some point after that, but I don't remember when.

The timing of that post is actually pretty funny, because coincidentally, I literally cried at Lowe's on Friday. I was going to stop on my way home from dropping Noah off at school and pick up the materials to make new nightstands for my bedroom. I'd picked out the building plans online and had a list of the wood and cuts I would need.

Having a Jeep Renegade, there isn't exactly a lot of space to bring building materials home. Through trial and error, I've learned what sizes of things will and will not fit in my car. It's the plywood that is the toughest to work out.

Plywood is a 4-ft by 8-ft sheet. That will obviously not fit in my car, so I always have a Lowe's employee make a couple of cuts for me so I can at least get them home. Anyway, on Friday, I pulled into Lowe's and got a notepad from my purse to write down the cuts I would need.

To do this, I had to basically draw a rectangle on the notepad and try to "Tetris" all the cuts into that rectangle, with the fewest amount of actual cuts from Lowe's (I can't ask the Lowe's employees to cut out dozens of smaller pieces--I try to keep it to three cuts per sheet, just to get it home, and then I make the rest of the cuts myself).

Since I'd be making two nightstands, I had to double everything, too. This didn't help.

My mind just didn't seem to be working on Friday. I can't even tell you how many times I started over, trying to figure out how I could get the plywood cut and in the car, while keeping the pieces at the sizes that I need. I'm embarrassed to say how long I sat in the parking lot (ahem, 90 minutes!) before I just gave up.

I cried out of frustration because I couldn't figure out something that I'd done so many times before. I'm an expert at how to piece cuts on plywood to fit them all in. When I got close to home, it dawned on me that I'd been making a HUGE mistake while I sat in the parking lot (it's okay to laugh at this):

I was writing the width of the plywood as 36 inches and not 48 inches (as I said, the plywood is 4x8 feet--48 inches by 96 inches). When I was trying to fit all the cuts into the rectangle I drew, I was counting that shorter side as 36 inches for some stupid reason (I hate the term "brain fart" but that's basically what it was). If I hadn't been so frustrated, I would have thought the mistake was hilarious!

Most of the time, life is pretty good. Things go pretty smoothly. But sometimes I get so stressed out and overwhelmed that I have a week (or two or a month) like the one I shared in the Facebook post above.

The stress seems to come in spurts--one week might be so jam-packed full of things on my "to do" list, but another week might have an empty schedule. This month, it's been super busy; and having all of it on top of feeling depressed has been extra rough.

I have not been sleeping well at all, and twice last week I shut off my alarm only to have the kids wake me up, yelling, "Mama! It's 6:50!" (We normally wake up at 6:00.) I swear I only closed my eyes for a second...

Lack of sleep makes me unable to focus on anything. Or I'll start a task and then forget to finish it. If my kids tell me something that I'm supposed to remember, they might as well just not have even told me at all. My memory is horrible when I'm tired.

To get to the actual question from Facebook--about an honest approach to parenting, meal prep, and marriage while still having my own identity... it's hard!

Parenting feels harder now than it was when my kids were little. I like to keep their lives pretty private here on the blog, but in general, I have more to worry about because they aren't in my sight all the time. Also, I worry about their feelings SO much. I just want them to be happy.

You would think that as a stay-at-home mom, I would wake up and pack their lunches for school and make them a nice hearty breakfast of bacon and eggs and toast. Well, I stopped packing lunches a couple of years ago. And breakfast? That's what cereal is for! At 14 and 15 years old, my kids are old enough to pack their own lunches. And I don't say this out of laziness--they really need to learn to do things for themselves.

I wake up when they do (at 6:00), but I use that as my "me time" while they get ready for school. I usually do my "Peak" or "Lumosity" apps or read a book on my Kindle while I have tea or decaf coffee in the morning. Since Jerry is on straight day shift now, I am the sole chauffeur--I drive them to school in the mornings (it's an hour round trip for Noah, and I drop Eli off on the way).

I get done what I can before they get out of school (Noah gets out at 1:30 now, which doesn't leave me with much time)--writing a blog post (I need the quiet to write), working on laundry, dishes, house chores, grocery shopping, budgeting/finance stuff, errands, etc.

Meal prep/planning - I'm terrible about "prepping". I KNOW I should prep things like meat and vegetables right when I get home from grocery shopping so that it'll be less work throughout the week when I cook. However, grocery shopping is exhausting in itself!

I always use the self-checkout, so after putting everything into the cart, I have to remove it one by one, scan and bag it all, unload everything into the car, then carry everything into the house and put everything away. By that time, the last thing I want to do is prep food.

(I know some of you have mentioned grocery shopping online and either picking it up or having it delivered... I wish I could let go of my "control freak" side to do that, but I don't think I could let someone else pick out my groceries--especially meats and produce. I'm very picky about those things!)

I do write a meal plan every week before I go grocery shopping; but unfortunately, I rarely stick to it. Either the kids make other plans or I am exhausted and don't want to cook or I forgot to thaw out the meat or something like that. More than a few times, I've put food in the slower cooker only to realize later that I forgot to plug it in (seriously).

I cook as often as I can, even if it's something as simple as grilled cheese. But for the days where I am super short on time or I don't have a plan and the kids are starving, I usually have a pizza in the freezer. Thankfully, my kids love them ;)  Something I underutilize is my slow cooker--I need to plan more meals around that. And make sure I remember to plug it in!


Marriage - This year, Jerry and I will have been married 17 years (!) and thankfully, we are still super close. We love spending time together, even if it's just reading our own books while sitting in the same room. We have literally NOTHING in common, but somehow, we still enjoy each other's company.

We rarely do "date nights" and that's something we've been wanting to do more of this year. I just feel so old! Now, when I think of date nights, I think of how expensive it is to go out to dinner or even just a movie, so that kind of ruins the fun of it. We'll need to come up with some cheaper ideas.

One of the most fun things I can remember us doing together that didn't cost us anything was actually a long bike ride. We were having a "staycation" while the kids were away at camp, so we spent a lot of time together that week. We rode 26.5 miles when Jerry got out of work one day (we did an out and back ride on the Metropark trails, going through THREE parks). On the way back, we had to outride a storm that was coming in behind us, and we had so much fun!

I think what makes us have such a great marriage (I'm definitely not saying it's perfect, though!) is that we laugh a lot. Usually at the stupidest things. Just today, we were looking at memes on Pinterest and laughing until we wheezed about memes that reminded us of each other.


Last night, we were watching a show and I had my feet up on Jerry's lap. My feet are SO dry that when I shifted positions, it sounded like sandpaper rubbing against his pajama pants, and I was so sure that my dry skin was going to snag the threads 😂 We started laughing about that, and then Jerry made some joke about it that I can't remember now, but we were laughing so hard we couldn't breathe.

It felt really good to laugh like that, because like I said, it's been an emotional month for me and the laughter has been rare. The thing I've always loved most about Jerry is his sense of humor--and even when I'm not feeling good, he can usually get at least a smile out of me.

As the Facebook comment suggested, it's hard to be a spouse and mom and still have your own identity. I wrote recently about my hyperempathy and how I am always tuned in to others' feelings. I do everything I can to make other people happy and consequently, I don't do much for myself.

Quite often, just writing on my blog actually helps me "remember" who I am. It helps me to think about what's been going on lately and how I've been feeling.

My favorite thing to do for myself is actually working on some sort of project--either organizing a closet or painting furniture or building something new out of wood. I didn't realize how much I loved this until I remodeled the entire house!

When I'm working on a project, I listen to podcasts that I enjoy and I love seeing the progress I'm making on whatever it happens to be at the moment. A couple of days ago, I had a couple of spare hours before I had an appointment at the Secretary of State to renew my driver's license (ugh) so I decided to use the time for a "fun" project (others may think of it as dreadful, haha).

When I painted my cabinets, I lined most of them with contact paper on the inside, and I loved the way it looked. There were a couple of very large cabinets that I hadn't done, however, so I decided to tackle the largest one.

It took me FOREVER to get the shelf out (actually, that's why I didn't do this cabinet last year--because the shelf seemed to have been put in there before the cabinet faces were attached. I tried twisting and turning it every which way, removing the doors from the cabinets to make room for it, and still--it just wouldn't fit.

A couple of days ago, I decided to try again. I thought there was no way that someone would put the shelf in there before finishing the cabinets, so there HAD to be a way to get it out. After about 15 minutes of different maneuvers, I was able to remove it! I have no idea how that was possible, and I was sure there was no way I'd be able to get it back in when I was done, but I'd worry about it later.

I wasn't able to finish the whole thing in the two hours I had, but I was able to finish it up when I got home. And I was even able to get the shelf back in! It looks so much better. Of course, I forgot to take a "before" photo, but I'm sure I can find one from when the kitchen was in progress...





Anyway, projects are my happy place :)  Next weekend, I'm going to finish my brother's bathroom for him, which has been "in progress" for probably six years now, haha--he needs the grout sealed in the shower and I'm going to build shelves for the closet. I'm actually looking forward it. And hopefully it'll help with my mood!


January 25, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #8: My Most Popular Posts (and a little about blogging)

Most Popular Posts


This is the final post in my series of "Favorite Posts", I promise ;)  This one is a little different, because it's not about MY favorite posts. These are the most popular posts I've had since starting Runs for Cookies in 2011.

Sometimes I'm surprised by what people choose to read and sometimes I'm surprised by what people choose *not* to read. Either way, it's interesting! Sometimes, I'll crank out a post in two hours and it gets more page views than any post I've written in over a year; other times, I'll spend 16+ HOURS on a post (over a period of days, not all at once), and not many people read it. I guess it all balances out in the end!

A little about blogging...

The part that takes the most time (for me) is actually adding photos. When I first started blogging, I would just take a photo and upload it, which didn't take much time at all. Then people started stealing pics of me (before and after photos) and using them for selling weight loss pills or other things, so I started watermarking them.

Then a few years ago, I learned that I should have been resizing the photos before posting; when I post the high resolution original, it takes much longer to load and takes up more storage. I also learned I should have been "optimizing" them--I'm still not sure what this does, but I guess it makes it a little better for page loading or something?

So now, I spend time choosing photos to use on posts; then cropping and resizing them; adding watermarks on photos with people in them; optimizing them; and then adding them to the post. There is a way to do this as a batch, but I don't like to do that because I like to crop each photo differently or put the watermark in different spots. And sometimes, like in this series, I'll add a title photo. In other words, it takes a while!

As you know if you've been reading a while, my posts are usually (well, pretty much always) lengthy. Once I start writing, I tend to get off on tangents and I basically write the same way that I think. As I think about something, I write it.

Before I click the "publish" button, I always read the post once or twice to check for errors (and I'm sure I miss a lot anyway!). I'm a slow reader, so reading my lengthy posts takes time, too.

For those of you that continue to read, thank you! My blog has gone in a thousand directions over the years, so for whatever reason you read, I appreciate it very much.

When I started blogging, it wasn't for an "audience"--it was basically just an online journal so that I could keep tabs on my weight loss/maintenance. But over the years, I've gotten to know so many readers online and/or in person that I feel like I'm writing to share things with friends. It's great!

I was planning to include photos and descriptions of each of the following posts, but today is my birthday and I decided I want to just watch movies and play board games today with the family. So, I'm just posting the list. Here are the ten most popular posts over the last (almost) nine years...


My Most Popular Posts (for Whatever Reason):


January 24, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #7: Fun Posts!



For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...



Fun Posts


14 of my Favorite Memories with Jerry (for Our 14th Wedding Anniversary)

This is pretty self-explanatory. But I have happy, sad, and funny memories that I've shared in this post after being married for 14 years at the time.




Mother's Intuition

One day, Noah got a splinter. One Urgent Care Visit, three emergency rooms, two x-rays, an ultrasound, a boot, and crutches later... I finally demanded someone listen to me and do something about it. And you won't believe what we found!




A Little of My History

Here, I basically share "my story" in a nutshell: growing up overweight and binge eating to help with depression, how pregnancy affected my weight, and what made me finally lose the weight. If you're curious how "I" came to be who I am today, here is a little of my history.





January 23, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #6: Travel



For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...


Travel


The Evolution of a First Time Bikini Wearer

Until 2014, I'd never worn a bikini in my life. And when I went to Punta Cana with my family in August 2014, I decided to bring a bikini because what were the odds I'd run into anyone I knew? I wanted to at least pretend to be one of those confident overweight women. I was (I think) about 150 pounds at at the time--so I wasn't even at a thin weight! But each day felt a little different as I wore it, and I wrote about the changes in this post.




Getting Over My Fear of Flying: The Hard Way

This is actually just the intro to my "Travel" page. From the time I was 15 until I was 28, I didn't fly on an airplane. I was terrified of flying, even though I'd done it a few times before. The irony is that my brother is a pilot! But I would have panic attacks even in the flight simulator when he took me in (a training simulator for NorthWest--now Delta). One day, after losing 100 pounds, I forced myself to face my fear--in the most unimaginable way possible!




Family Trip Through Six States in One Day!

This was memorable for SO many reasons, but the biggest one is something really silly, actually. Years ago, we used to watch the Food Network channel once in a while, and the kids and I liked a show about food challenges (I forget what it was called). On one episode, they featured "The Vermonster" at the Ben & Jerry's headquarters factory in Waterbury, Vermont. Eli and I share the same sweet tooth, and we said, "Someday we're going to go to Vermont and order a Vermonster!"

Well, we made it happen in 2018. We took a trip out east, mainly for Boston, MA, Salem, MA, and Portland, ME. To hit up some extra states, we drove through several others since we were so close. It was a fun trip--Jerry and I had a blast with the kids!


Tomorrow's favorite posts topic will be "Fun Posts"--hopefully interesting ;)


January 22, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #5: Budgeting/Debt



For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...


Budgeting/Debt


How My Family Paid Off $14,000 of Credit Debt in 14 Months on a Varied Income

Jerry and I don't make a predictable income; his income is based on how much overtime he picks up and mine is based on all sorts of things (like how much advertisers are paying at certain times of the year). We were $14,000 in credit debt in 2017, and once I felt stable on my bipolar meds, I decided to write a budget and stick to it.

I was very strict in sticking to it (and it was unlike any other budget I'd done before, but it worked! We paid off our debt and we are still following the budget. It takes off a TON of stress from worrying about money. This post explains ALL the details of how we did it, including our own budget.



Why I Became A Stay-At-Home Mom

This subject is, by far, the one I get the most flack about from "haters". I can't count the number of times I've read, "Why don't you get a real job?" Well, this post explains it all (not that I feel I owe an explanation). I'm very happy with being a stay-at-home mom and it works well for our family. Before asking that question, I'd suggest reading this post.



Salvation Army Finds

I happen to LOVE secondhand stores like the Salvation Army (although, they are very expensive now compared to what they used to be!). But you can still snag lots of good deals if you take the time to look through the bazillion clothing items that aren't in any particular size order. On this post, I reveal some clothes that I picked up at Salvation Army that day... spending about the same on ALL of them as I would on a new pair of jeans from Kohl's.



I hope that you are enjoying this series and it's not too redundant! It's been fun going through old posts :)


January 22, 2020

Karma--And a Couple of Funny Stories



I have to say, it's been nice having my posts scheduled ahead of time the last few days so I haven't had to worry about making sure to fit in time to write a blog post. I spent all day on Friday working on the "favorite posts" series.

At first, I was going to put them all on one post, but I figured that if people were actually interested in following the links to read the favorite posts, it would be way too much to have in one day. Since my posts are always long, it would read like a novel!

Anyway, a couple of funny things happened recently and I just thought I'd share here. These stories aren't exactly laugh-out-loud hilarious, but I thought they were notable ;)

My sister was in town for the weekend, and she mentioned a book that I should read called "A Curve in the Road". She said it was super fast-paced, easy reading, about $5 on Amazon Kindle, and that I would probably read it in one sitting. Sounded perfect for me right now!

When I go home, I had to do a couple of searches to find it... I couldn't remember if it was "bend" "curve" "corner" or something else. All she told me was that it was about a woman living an ideal life with a husband and teen son, and she gets into a car accident at the beginning of the book. Jeanie didn't tell me anything more than that so as not to spoil it.

After some searches, I downloaded the book (I had some credits from choosing the "no-rush shipping" when ordering things, and it only ended up costing $1, which was cool. So, I started reading it that night when I got home, and again in the morning.

I was about a quarter of the way through the book, and I texted my sister about it. I told her that I liked it so far--that my prediction was that the woman's husband had switched places with her in the car before the first responders got there, because he'd been drinking before driving and wanted to make it look like she was driving. After the accident, people seem to treat her badly, but the book never mentions who was at fault or drunk driving or anything, so I was just speculating. I told Jeanie that I was at the part where the woman faints during yoga class.

My sister responded, "Are you reading 'A Curve in the Road'?"

I looked at the title of the book I was reading, and it was called "Around the Bend"! I burst out laughing (literally out loud) because I'd been reading the wrong book. I hadn't remembered the exact name of it, but I was pretty close. And the book started with a car accident, just like she said. And then Jeanie texted, "The girl faints, but it's not during yoga!" BAHAHA

I was dying.

I got about halfway into the book I started with, and it was getting weird, so I just switched over to what she told me to read, and I like it much better (also, it's a free Kindle loaner!). So, if you're interested in the book my sister described, it's called, "A Curve in the Road", FYI.



Monday evening, I had to get some groceries, so I went to Kroger and rushed through my grocery list. It was 10 degrees outside and I was freezing--I just wanted to get home and put on warm, comfy pajamas. I went through the self check-out, scanning everything and putting it into two paper bags. I was kind of impressed that it's all I bought for the week--we have enough stuff at home for several meals, so I only bought the things we really needed for the dinners I'd planned.

I paid for the groceries, set the bags in my cart, and walked to the car in the 10 degree weather. It was SO COLD. When I put the groceries in the back of the car, I noticed a single jalapeño pepper that I missed and didn't pay for. Ugh.

I wrestled with the idea of just leaving anyways (surely Kroger has overcharged me several times and I haven't noticed, or I've bought enough horrible watermelon--their watermelon is never good--from them that a single pepper wasn't a big deal. Heck, the last time I was there, Kroger short-changed me by a penny, but I didn't say anything because it was only a penny.

It would have weighed on my conscience if I didn't go back in and pay, however, and I believe in karma, so I decided to take the tiny pepper back in and pay for it.

I went back through the self-checkout and you know how much it cost? Eight cents! Luckily I had some loose change in my purse so I didn't have to put it on my credit card. But I'd done the right thing and felt good about it. Because karma.

Normally, I don't post on social media or my blog about when I do something randomly nice for others, because it drives me crazy when people post things like that just so they can get "likes" instead of doing it just to be kind. But for the sake of this story, I'll share something here that I did last week:

I was picking up a couple of things from Meijer (basically a grocery store but also with clothes and other things). I was in the self-checkout when I noticed a young girl (maybe 18?) next to me digging through a backpack, obviously distraught (and maybe a little high?). She was mumbling to herself, "Where is it?" and I assumed she was looking for money to pay for her items.

I saw that she only had two things--panty liners and a pair of joggers that were on clearance. She called the cashier over and said she couldn't find her money, so she asked if the cashier could just void out the items.

I quickly said to the cashier,  "I'll pay for it, just a sec". So, I finished paying for my own stuff and then I swiped my card to pay for her stuff, which was only like $17. She was super grateful and said she was trying to get to Detroit and that she was trying to turn her life around (not sure what she meant by that).

I didn't want to turn it into a big deal, but the cashier kept saying how nice it was of me. I quickly grabbed my stuff and left. All the way home, I was wishing I'd offered to take the girl to breakfast and at least ask her about "turning her life around" and how she planned to get to Detroit. Maybe I could've done more.

Anyways, even though I hadn't thought quickly enough to offer her breakfast, I did a good deed. Because stuff like that happens to all of us sometimes, and it's good to do something nice for others.

But so much for karma! Yesterday, when I was going through bank and credit card statements online to work on our budget, I noticed that someone had used my debit card number in Modesto, California to purchase $25 worth of something at Starbucks (probably the current going rate for a latte there) and $100 worth of stuff at Kohl's! (The odd thing was, the transactions were six days apart, so it wasn't like they were going on a shopping spree.)

I was SO FURIOUS. This has happened to me before, but I feel like I am a decent human being and I didn't deserve that! I was just so mad that there are people in this world that do shit like steal other people's money and use it for themselves. I really hope it catches up to them someday. My anxiety is bad enough already--I can't imagine having identity theft on my conscience!

What was very odd is that I haven't used my debit card in probably three years. I honestly don't even know my pin number, and I don't carry my card with me. Since we started our budgeting, I only use credit cards (or a dime, in the case of the jalapeño).

So, how could the transactions in California come from my bank account? I use a local credit union. Today, I have to go to the credit union to fill out forms and hopefully get the $125 back. Meanwhile, I had them cancel my debit card (which I didn't even know was still activated).



Okay, I guess that wasn't exactly a funny story--I just thought I'd share about the jalapeño.

Here's one more recent story:

You know the vacuum I just bought, "the best $50 I've ever spent"? Well, I was using it to vacuum the house really well, including using the hose to vacuum along all the baseboards and under furniture. I was vacuuming Eli's bedroom, when the suction on the hose stopped.

I had no idea what happened. The hose appeared to be unobstructed. I emptied out the canister of dust and dog hair, cleaning it out really well. Put it back in the vacuum. Still, the hose had no suction. I stretched out the hose as far as I could, shaking it, sliding my hand along it, hoping to find the problem. I wondered if there was a hole in it somewhere, but didn't see one.

I disconnected all the parts that I could from the vacuum, cleaned everything well. STILL, no suction from the hose! I grabbed a flashlight and pulled the hose taut, looking all the way to the end of it near the base. There, I could see a circular gray piece that was the perfect fit for the hose, so I assumed that something had broken loose and obstructed the base of the hose.

This is what it looked like once I was able to pull it to the top, but at the time, it was WAY at the other end of the hose, so I could barely see it:



I didn't want to break the vacuum, but since I was already in a predicament, I spent the next 20 minutes working the gray piece from the base of the vacuum to the top of the hose. It was a perfect fit, so it was very difficult to do. I wondered if it was some sort of filter or something. It was just a round plastic disk with an indentation in the center, and I decided that once I got it out, I'd figure out where it was supposed to be.

Finally, FINALLY... I was able to grab it with my fingernails and carefully pull it out.




And in that moment, I was ready to strangle Eli. Look what it was!



It was some sort of candy that comes in a container that is a nightmare to get out of a vacuum hose. When I was vacuuming under his furniture, the hose must have picked that up--and it just so happened to be the EXACT same size as the hose.


The color of the end of it made it look like part of the vacuum, too. I was mad at the waste of time, but relieved that the vacuum wasn't broken. After that, the vacuum worked its magic.

I told Eli if I ever find one of those things again, I really will strangle him ;)



So anyway, that's what's been going on here lately. My sister and her friend are going to Vegas on Friday and asked if I wanted to join them. Jerry said he had the weekend off, and it would work out well. I could use a buddy pass to fly stand-by (cheaper than buying a ticket). AND, it just so happens that Saturday is my birthday!

I was pretty sure that I was going to go. It would be nice to go someplace warm(er) for a couple of days. However, it's not in the budget right now. Eli's baseball hitting lesson really helped him with hitting, and after talking to the coach again of the team he really wants to play for, the coach said he could practice with them all winter.

After buying his turf shoes, jersey, sweatshirt, hat, and practice fees, it was pretty expensive. But totally worth it for Eli to get to practice with the team all winter--and if he's good enough in the spring, he may get to play in some tournaments. The exercise will be good for him, and this is great for his confidence, too.

Meanwhile, I'm going through some bad anxiety and depression right now. Not as bad as it's been in the past, but I just can't seem to feel happy about anything. I'm starting to wonder if I have Seasonal Affective Disorder (depression that tends to happen in the fall and winter months). I did some reading about it and for people with bipolar especially, mania or hypomania tends to happen in the spring/summer while depression tends to happen in the fall/winter.

I used to feel really good in the fall until about 4-5 years ago or so. Since then, it seems like December/January/February are my worst months. The cold makes me miserable and not want to go outside. I haven't run since the first week of January, and I don't want to undo any progress I made in my fitness from three months of running. I really want to get back to it, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to do it.

I'd made a plan for January as far as doing the two-month carbohydrate intolerance test and more MAF training, but when the test didn't work out for me, I failed to have a back-up plan in place. I wish I'd thought of that ahead of time! With my birthday being Saturday, I want to think of it as a "fresh start" (I love fresh starts when they fall on a significant day!). I may have to force myself to run, but hopefully as the weather changes in the spring, I'll start feeling better.

I want a wood project to work on, but I can't make up my mind what I want to make! I'm thinking I might make either shelves around Jerry's and my bed or a couple of nightstands (the ones we have currently are a few inches too wide, making space very tight on either side of the bed).

Whatever I decide, woodworking is something I enjoy so much that I think it'll help with these feelings of depression.

Anyway, a couple more days of my "favorite posts" series, and then back to the usual. Whatever "the usual" is, haha ;)


January 21, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #4: DIY Projects



For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...


DIY

Our Epoxy Nightmare!

This is a funny story about the horrible experience of using epoxy to make our own island countertop. Nothing went as planned! It was so comical, it really should have been part of a sitcom. I wish it was on video.




Runs for Cookies Is My Mom

This is actually a race report, but there is a very sweet story behind it. It warms my heart every time I think about it (although I'm sure it would probably embarrass Eli if I brought it up now). I've mentioned he is the sweetest kid EVER, and this is just one of those sweet moments. And shows the things we do for the love of our kids :)




Our DIY Kitchen Makeover Reveal

I cannot tell you how much blood, sweat, and tears went into this project. I did about 90% of the work with my own two hands (Jerry did the other 10%) and it took nearly a year! The biggest difference was the kitchen (although it connects to the living room and dining room in a very open concept. We live in a "trailer" (a.k.a. manufactured home, double wide, etc.) and I love the changes that I made to de-trailerize it, haha. This post is the big reveal, done in four parts (because there are SO many pictures).



More to come tomorrow! My Favorite Posts #5 topic is Budget/Finance.


January 20, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #3: Running

Favorite posts about running


For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...


Running

The Importance of the Easy Run

If there is ONE running post that you read on my blog, it should be this one. It's SO important! As a certified running coach, I can't stress enough how important it is to take your easy runs at a super easy effort. This post explains the hows and whys. I got SO MUCH FASTER when I started doing my easy runs at a super easy pace (11:00+ per mile, when I was training for a 7:55/mi pace for an upcoming 10K).



5 Things I Miss About Running

I wrote this post not too long ago, when I still wasn't running but was really missing it. It was writing this post and really thinking about the things I missed about running that inspired me to start again. It wasn't until a month later, but I did it--I ran three days a week for 13 weeks straight! I have since taken a couple of weeks off, but Monday starts a new plan. I'll write about that soon. And I can honestly say that I'm looking forward to it! When I need a little boost of why I choose to "torture" myself by running, I remember this post and why I actually do love the sport.



Shamrock 'n' Roll 10K Race Report

Normally, I wouldn't include a race report on this list, but this was the most shocked I've ever been during a race and I was stunned for days afterward! I don't want to spoil it if you haven't read it, but this is a fun post to read.



January 19, 2020

A Blog Series of Favorite Posts #2: Mental Health/Illness

Favorite posts about mental illness


For the next week or so, I'm going to do a series of posts--I will share my favorite "oldies but goodies" from the past.

As you know, I LOVE writing lists. This is one I've been wanting to write for a long time, but it requires so much thought that I just have such a hard time deciding what to include on it! I have a lot of favorite posts over the years (as well as very cringey ones--maybe I'll do a list of those soon). I'd have to wear a paper bag over my head out of embarrassment ;)

As of the last few years, there have been lots of different categories on my blog: weight loss/gain/loss/gain; running; DIY/home improvement; mental health/illness; crafts; and just daily life in general. So, I think I'll separate these into categories to avoid having too many "favorite" posts in just one category.

I'll post just a few per day, so if you choose, you'll have time to read the posts. If I post them all at once, it would be way too overwhelming!

At the end, I will also include my most popular posts (which will likely be entirely different from my favorite posts) in case anyone is curious about those. First, though, my favorites...


Mental Health/Illness


Freeing Myself of the Anxiety of Social Media

I love love love this post. This is one of the most vulnerable posts I've ever written, spilling more about myself than ever before. And not giving a shit what others think of me! This post explains exactly how social media destroyed my life for a while and how I started taking back control. I still feel some of the feelings I wrote about here, but nothing like I used to. If you worry about what others think of you, definitely read this post!




7 Life Changes I've Made in Pursuit of Happiness

Once I was diagnosed with bipolar in 2017 and I started the correct medication for the first time in my life, I started a pursuit to my happiest life. I have so much to be grateful for! I tried to stop focusing on the negative and I pushed myself out of my comfort zone in order to pursue happiness. I'm a happier person today because of it. If you're struggling with depression, or just not feeling happy in general, I suggest reading this and trying out anything that jumps out at you.

Changes I've made in pursuit of happiness


A "Crazy" New Chapter in My Life

This is a doozy of a post, and I was terrified to write it. However, I got so many answers for the mental illness issues I was having, and I hoped that by writing it, I'd possibly help others who were going through something similar. I felt extremely vulnerable posting it (as I always do with mental illness) but I got SO much support that it remains one of my favorite posts to date.


Mental health/illness is a passion of mine, because it's something I've dealt with for my entire life. I am always open to talking/writing about it, so please feel free to ask me questions. I have other posts about it on my Mental Health page.

Tomorrows topic: Running! I hope you are enjoying reading these oldie but good posts.


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