My First Real Binge in Over Three Years

So, I binged last night.

I hadn't been keeping track of how long it had been since my last binge, but I knew it had been sometime in early 2017. That was the year I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and started on mood stabilizing medications.

I felt great after starting the meds! And 2017 was the year I decided that I was going to work on living my "happiest life"--doing whatever made me happy and NOT doing whatever didn't make me happy (other than my obligations, of course, like being a chauffeur to the kids and cleaning my house and grocery shopping, etc.).

Living my happiest life seemed to turn off the binge eating disorder. It was like a switch just flipped and I stopped binge eating. Just like that.

Sure, over the last three years I've overeaten. I've eaten for emotional reasons. I've eaten when I wasn't hungry. But those times weren't true binge eating episodes (loss of control). Here is a post about the difference between binge eating and overeating.

Yesterday, I felt... different. I had gotten up at 4:30 AM with Jerry, because I've been trying to regulate my sleep routine. (I had gone to bed before 9:00 the night before!). I felt fine during the morning. Even though I said I wasn't going to, I worked a little on the drywall in the garage. (Even though I was sore, I just couldn't help myself!)

I noticed that at around noon, my energy level just dropped like a giant rock off a cliff. I came in the house and sat down to chill for a little while (watching an old episode of Oprah!) and playing Best Fiends on my phone.

While I was playing, I literally fell asleep. My phone dropped in my lap, startling me awake. A few days ago, I wrote about how I NEVER nap because my body just doesn't fall asleep during the day. Even after only sleeping for a few hours at night, I just cannot nap. A few hours of sleep keeps me wide awake all day.

Well, after my phone dropped, I decided to lie down on the couch for "just a minute" to finish the Oprah episode. I woke up over an hour later when the stupid Honeywell Instant Alert System (an automated message system from my kids' schools) called three times in a row. I was SO TIRED that I just couldn't even move.

I knew I need to get up and make dinner. But I just laid on the couch trying to muster up the will to get up. I'd been planning to make chicken thighs--with skin and bone, something I'd never bought before--pan searing them and then finishing them in the oven; along with steamed broccoli on the side.

Jerry has been interested in intermittent fasting and he watched some film (called FAT on Amazon Prime) about cutting back on carbs. While I love carbs, I wanted to be supportive, so I said I'd try it with him for just a week. (I didn't plan on doing this myself for longer, but I wanted to at least help him get started.)

Side note: Jerry and the kids LOVED the chicken. It was like eating the crispy skin on chicken was a huge treat for them, haha). Again, I felt bad for not cooking things like that before! End side note.

You can see where I'm going here...

I love carbs. My body loves carbs. Giving up carbs is NOT realistic for me to do for the rest of my life, so I shouldn't do it now. Remember my "Golden Rule" for weight loss?). The reason I didn't even write about the plan yet is because I wasn't sure if I could actually do it for a week. I just wanted to make things easier on Jerry.

Well, I knew I was dragging ass yesterday due to lack of carbs for two days. I'd only gotten carbs from vegetables and some berries. My body felt so deprived. And, as has always been the case for me, binge eating follows deprivation.

So, for the first time in over three years, I binged. I went to the party store (corner store a couple of blocks away) and bought ice cream, chips, and Oreos. I hadn't had ice cream in months (for some reason, I've been craving saltier foods like chips rather than sweets for a few months now).

I've been letting my kids have a few Oreos at night for a bedtime treat, and I've stayed away from them. But yesterday, I was on a mission to binge--so I bought my own at the store. (Thankfully, they only had the six-pack of Oreos; if they'd had the larger pack, I would've bought that.)

I came home and ate it all. I ate the ice cream first, and I started feeling better (physically) already. I still felt ashamed to be eating like that. It was humiliating not to be in control. I was still extremely tired, but nothing like I had been earlier.

I ended up staying up until about 11:30 and I woke up at 6:00. I feel fine now, other than the fact that I binged last night. I really didn't want to write about it here, because like I said--I feel ashamed and humiliated that I did that. But I feel like it's an important thing to mention. I broke my own rule.

THAT "rule" is how I lost 125 pounds. I had tried all the diets (including low carb) back in the day and I couldn't stick with anything long enough to lose weight. It was after I decided not to do anything I wasn't willing to do forever that I finally lost the weight. Fourteen months after that decision nearly 11 years ago, I'd lost 125 pounds, and I was eating things I loved. I hadn't given up anything I didn't want to.

Where will I go from here?

Well, I'm going to follow my own goddamn advice. I'm going to eat how I can sustain to eat for the rest of my life. I'm going to start my morning with tea and whatever I feel like having--breakfast has been all over the place lately. I've been wanting sourdough toast, but I can't get my beloved sourdough at the store, because they are always out of it since the quarantine.

I'll eat a small lunch, because I've never been a big lunch person anyway. Always with fruit. I love fruit.

I'll eat dinner that I cook myself (or that I assign the boys to cook, or help them cook). I'll include the vegetables that I like--and I do like a lot of veggies! I'll eat the healthy foods I enjoy--including carbs. I'll skip the foods I don't like.

And I'll eat a treat at night--whether it's salty or sweet, as long as I like it. Something to end the day with something I can look forward to.

That is a sustainable and enjoyable way for me to eat, and it will help me to get back to staying binge-free. I will also try to help Jerry with his eating plan by cooking things that he enjoys as well. I can continue to cook the meat separate from other things, and I can have carbs on the side--so we both can eat what works for us.

And there you have it. The raw, honest, vulnerable, humiliating truth.

On a positive note, Jerry's has the day off from work today, so I think we're going to try to finish drywalling the final wall of the garage. Then we'll need to rent a drywall lift to work on the ceiling! I can't WAIT to get it done :)

I'd also like to go to JoAnn Fabric's in Toledo to get some more fabric for masks. I've had so many requests!

Finally, I'm going to set my goals for the next three days:

*Cook a healthy meal for dinner for the family each day.
*Eat three meals and one "treat" or snack in the evening.
*Get and stay hydrated (I know I haven't been drinking enough water for the amount of work I've been doing in the garage--I can always feel when I'm dehydrated)
*Bonus: Write in my journal each evening, even if it's just a single sentence.

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Day One of Trying to Work Out a Schedule

Oh. My. Gosh.

I cannot even begin to describe how sore I am today! As I wrote yesterday morning, I got up at 4:30 in the morning with Jerry before he left for work. (I'm trying to get in the habit of a good sleep schedule--going to bed at 9:00 and getting up at 4:30.)

After he left, I wrote my blog post and then went out to the garage to work on the drywall. I know you are probably totally sick of hearing about my drywalling the garage, but with this quarantine, there isn't a whole lot to write about!

My days are filled with working on projects--like the face masks, insulating the garage, and now drywalling the garage. I've even been knitting and crocheting.

I really enjoy the drywalling--the day flies by!--and I actually consider that "me time". I gave the kids chores to do because they are out of school for the year. They have been doing some of the things I normally would do--wash and put away their own laundry, poop scoop the yard, clean out the litter box, and stuff like that. Nothing grueling! And when I need to lift a piece of drywall so it butts up to the ceiling, I make them come help me (it's SO hard to lift without help).

I made some serious progress yesterday! I finished an entire wall, so now I have three full walls done. I highly doubt I'll be able to work on it today because I'm so sore. Wall #3:

I'd LIKE to say that I'll spend the day catching up on email (which will likely take 6-8 hours--I've gotten so far behind!). But I have a feeling I'm going to want to head out to the garage again ;)

True to my word, I followed the plan for an evening routine. Once I came inside from drywalling at 3:30, I spent about an hour playing a game on my phone--I'm addicted to Best Fiends!--before starting on dinner.

I planned to make steak and asparagus, along with a small salad. Well, I bought way too much asparagus, so we skipped the salad. My family LOVES asparagus. I honestly cannot even remember the last time that I cooked steak. I really don't like eating plain pieces of meat (I like it to be mixed into things like in a stir-fry or some sort of skillet meal, soup, or casserole).

I feel terrible for not cooking meat for the family like that, and I thought steak would be a treat. It was so sad when I told the kids what we were eating--when I said steak, Eli replied, "You mean like a real steak?!" and Noah said, "Do we each get our own?! YES!" Hahaha, I am going to make it a mission to cook meat like that more often.

This week, when I went to the store, I bought salmon, shrimp, and pork chops; I'm going to plan to make those things as separate items alone with side dishes instead of a skillet meal or casserole or something.

I marinated the steak in this marinade (this site is really difficult to find the recipe and there are a trillion ads, so it was hard to find the recipe--I almost gave up--but I'm glad I didn't). I also added mushrooms to the marinade, because I love mushrooms.

Because I never cook steak, I had no clue how to cook it! I ended up deciding to sear it on the stove and then finish it in the oven with the marinade. I added some olive oil, salt, and pepper to the asparagus and threw that in the oven as well.

The whole meal turned out delicious! I was shocked that I cooked the steak to a perfect medium-rare, and the boys (including Jerry) all loved it. Even though steak isn't a favorite food of mine, I really liked the marinade and the mushrooms. And of course I loved the asparagus! (Clearly, because I had a ton of it on my plate, haha)

It felt good to cook a good meal (with fresh veggies!) yesterday. And especially good to cook something that my kids were thrilled with. Today, I'll probably make the pork chops with Brussels sprouts (my kids actually love Brussels sprouts--I quarter them and then sauté them in coconut oil). I also have little baby potatoes (SO tiny--they are adorable!) so I'll roast those.

So after cooking and eating dinner, we went for a family walk (with Joey, of course) around the neighborhood. After that, I felt kind of rushed. Since I was supposed to be in bed at 8:30 to read my book for an hour before going to bed at 9:00, we had just enough time to watch a TV show together with a snack. I chose to have strawberries and blackberries (I've been craving fresh fruits and veggies SO much lately).

We watched an episode of House. My kids hadn't seen it, and I thought they might like it. We need a show to watch an episode of together in the evenings, so I've been trying to come with something they'll like. They can watch "adult" shows--for example, we watched Breaking Bad together--but I'm at a loss of another show that will keep them interested. If you have suggestions for a 14 and 15 year old, please let me know!

After our show, I felt kind of rushed to get in bed by 8:30 to read my book and then go to bed by 9:00. Just as predicted, I was falling asleep while reading in bed by 8:45! There is something about reading in bed that makes me SO tired.

I slept terribly, unfortunately. My carpal tunnel has been acting up since making the face masks and since I started knitting again. I know it's not from the drywall, because the motions aren't constantly repetitive like they are in cutting fabric or knitting/crocheting.

However, I'd like to make another batch of face masks if I can get a hold of some more fabric. I ordered a special presser foot for my sewing machine that should make it easier and take up less time. Sewing the elastic hair ties to the mask is such a pain! The new presser foot should make that easier. I can always have Jerry or the kids help me cut out the fabric and I can do the sewing to lessen the irritation to my carpal tunnel.

Waking up this morning was much harder than yesterday morning--but I did it! I was up at 4:30. Jerry and I had coffee/tea before he headed off to work. I'm going to work on some emails right now, and then either go look for fabric somewhere (I don't even know if JoAnn's is open).

Wow, this post is much longer than I thought it'd be. And so boring--I literally just recapped my day from yesterday! But like I said, there isn't much to write about during this quarantine, so this is it ;)

I hope everyone is safe and healthy!

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What a Night! (And Other Stuff)

I don't have any good photos for this post, so I'll share a couple of random ones that have no relation to the post! Haha

Well, true to my word last night, I woke up at 4:30 AM with Jerry today! I'm surprised, actually, at how wide awake I felt when I got up. Maybe because I went to bed by midnight instead of 2:00-3:00. I think it helped that even though I wrote my blog post pretty late, I still read a few pages of a book while in bed, and that made me tired.

And my new sheets... they are AMAZING. Holy cow, I had no idea that there are sheets that feel that good. Since I don't use a flat sheet (with the duvet, we don't need one), I'm going to fold it in half and turn it into a throw blanket. I always have a throw blanket when I'm on the couch, and I would love one made of that fabric!

Tonight, I'm supposed to go to bed by 9:00. I feel like this is going to be so difficult! My kids are going to be up later than Jerry and me. But hopefully developing the bedtime routine I described yesterday will help.

I'm sure my body will be exhausted today. I'm going to work on the garage as long as I can physically manage. It's raining today, so it'll be a perfect day to get stuff done in there. I'm loving how it's turning out! I have two full walls done, and I've prepped the third wall to hang the drywall today. I may be able to get the whole third wall done today.

Noah wants to build a desk and I think it'll be a fun project for us to work on together. But my garage is a disaster right now! I have to keep moving things around and squishing them together in order to make room to drywall. I can't wait to have the use of my garage again!

Once the walls are done, we have to do the ceiling--I'm dreading that, because it seems so intimidating. However, we're going to rent a drywall lift, so it lifts the piece of drywall to the ceiling and holds it in place while I screw it in. Let's hope it's as easy at it sounds ;)

Here is a photo of my boys from yesterday. My dad restored a little row boat he had, and the kids are able to put it in the water right across the street from my house. It's perfect!

Yesterday, I went grocery shopping for the week, and I bought a load of healthy food. Jerry and I are both really unhappy with our weight gain and we want to get serious about losing the weight. Also, with the kids being home all day, they've been snacking way too much. I want them to at least have some healthy things to snack on.

I especially want to drop some weight before summer! Summer is so uncomfortable while overweight. I know I'm still over 70 pounds less than I was when I started losing weight, but the way I feel now seems the same as it did then: feeling heavy, out of breath, super self-conscious of how I look, and not fitting into my old clothes sucks. Thankfully, I can still wear my size 10 jeans that I bought when I finally accepted my weight gain. But in another five pounds or so, I don't know if I will be able to!

If this week goes well, I'd like to start Wednesday Weigh-Ins again. I know I'm always saying that, but I never stick with anything for long enough to see progress! I'm still continuing with the 3-3-1 goals (three goals for three days (twice in a row) and then one day off each week. (I don't mean a "cheat day"--I just mean that I won't have specific goals to meet.)

As I said a couple of days ago, I got all of the face masks mailed out. If you didn't receive an email from me, I'm so sorry, but I didn't send you a mask. I had a HUGE response for them, and I feel bad that I wasn't able to send them to everyone.

If I get the urge, I may buy some more fabric and make more.  But I'm not sure how much longer it'll be recommended to wear them... so we'll see! If I do make another batch, I will definitely post it again. (And I think I'll do a random drawing instead of first come first serve.)

Okay, I'm going to head out to the garage now and listen to my podcasts while I work. I know it sounds strange, but working in the garage with my podcasts is my favorite place to be :)

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Developing a "Normal" Sleep Routine

For my entire life, I've had problems with sleep. Either I am dead tired and I toss and turn all night long, feeling so frustrated that I can't fall asleep; or, I am wide awake and I never feel tired at all. I can go to bed at 2:30 AM and wake up at 5:30 AM and feel totally fine!

A lot of times, it has to do with my bipolar--when I'm hypomanic, I can easily feel great on 2-3 hours of sleep. When I have depression, I tend to toss and turn, feeling SO tired but unable to sleep--and then I am just dragging all day from being tired.

I've never been a napper--even when I've tried, I simply CANNOT fall asleep during the day. I could be dead tired and still won't be able to take a nap.

In setting small goals lately, and trying to make positive healthy changes, I would really like to work on my sleeping patterns. I'll probably have to really force it at first, but I have a plan for how I'd like to make it work out.

Since Jerry works the day shift now, he wakes up at 4:45 AM. He really should be going to bed early--like 9:00 PM--but he stays up until about 10:30. Lately, I've been staying up until 2:30 or 3:30 AM, so he wakes up shortly after I go to bed! And then I wake up at 7:00 or so. It's been all over the place.

Ideally, I'd like Jerry and I to have the same schedule, so that we can go to bed at the same time and wake up at the same time. I really wish that we were able to do it on MY schedule (night owl), but obviously we'll have to so what works with his schedule.

So, here is my plan:

Jerry gets home at 6:30 PM, so we'll eat dinner right when he gets home. After dinner, we will go for our family walk. Then we'll either play a game or watch a show with the kids while we have a bedtime snack.

At 8:30 PM, instead of watching TV before bed (right now, Jerry and I will usually watch TV and eat snacks--something that has become a really bad habit), I will read a book until 9:00 PM. Reading in bed always makes me SO tired... to the point where I'll even fall asleep for a split second and drop my Kindle on my face sometimes, haha. I think that by reading instead of watching TV before bed, I'll be tired enough to fall asleep early.

Then, I will wake up with Jerry in the mornings at 4:30 (kill me now!). We can have coffee/tea together before he leaves for work. I'll write a blog post after he leaves (usually I write posts after he goes to bed), so it'll be nice to have time to get that done early in the day.

I'm really hoping that making this a routine will help me develop a real sleep schedule--and that I'll get more sleep in general. I've been wanting to work on reducing stress and anxiety so that I'll stop gaining weight from emotional eating! Also, going to bed early just means less time for snacking in general.

I'm super excited, too, because coincidentally, our new Brooklinen sheets arrived today! As you know, I am obsessed with Brooklinen bedding. I've had the same set for a few years now, and I've been eyeballing their new Linen collection. We had the Luxe Sateen (and it's amazing), but when I saw that they came out with a Linen collection, I was in lust.

So, I bit the bullet and ordered the Brooklinen Linen collection (sheets, duvet cover, and pillow cases). They are AMAZING. I'm sitting up in bed typing this right now, and I just love the feeling of this bedding. They were expensive--I'm not going to lie--but considering I'm going to start spending one-third of my day in bed, I might as well be as comfy as possible!

(By the way, if you use this link and order anything from Brooklinen, you will get $25 off of an order over $100; and it gives ME a credit for $25. So, if you end up wanting new amazing sheets (or other items they sell--I haven't tried anything else), pretty please use that link. I am not affiliated with Brooklinen in any way, other than to say that I'm obsessed with their bedding!)

Okay, well, I'm going to go to sleep now because I have to get up at 4:30 AM! Let's hope that I can get some restful sleep. Good night :)

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Cat Hair is Both a Condiment and a Fashion Accessory

I cannot even begin to describe how sore my body has been for the last few days! Hanging drywall in the garage has been killer on every single muscle in my body. I literally feel as sore as if I'd run a marathon.

I never imagined that hanging drywall would be as difficult as it is! I thought you just held a sheet of drywall in place and then screwed it into the studs and moved onto the next sheet. But it's so much more than that. Drywall is HEAVY.

I have to hang a 2x4 on the wall before placing the sheet of drywall up (I use the 2x4 to set the sheet on, because I obviously can't hold the ridiculously heavy drywall in place). I don't know how much each sheet of drywall weighs, but it feels like a ton!

Today was such a gorgeous day outside--I spent all morning and half the afternoon working in the garage, and I got the second wall done. It was very meticulous because I had to work around the garage door and all the gadgets that make it work.

I LOVE the way the garage is looking though--even though the drywall hasn't been taped and mudded or painted, it still looks a million times better than the bare studs.

While I was working on the garage, Jerry did some yard work (cutting the grass) and he washed our cars. I realized today that my car has half a tank of gas... and I haven't filled the tank in over a month! I actually ran an errand today and I forgot what it was like to drive for 10 minutes straight. I love that my car still has the "new car" smell ;)

Yesterday, I spent a couple of hours addressing envelopes and stuffing them with face masks. I haven't addressed that many envelopes since my wedding, haha! Today, I took them to the post office. I put the masks into business sized envelopes instead of the larger ones I used before, hoping that the postage would be cheaper.

I had about 50 envelopes, and I was really hoping that I could just put stamps on them instead of having the postal employee weigh each envelope for individual postage. Thankfully, I was able to ship them for $1.10! (I had to put two stamps on each envelope.) Previously, it'd been almost $4 per envelope.

(I haven't yet emailed everyone who is getting a mask... I will try to do that tomorrow!)

When I got home, I saw that Jerry had brought in the mail from the mailbox, and I got a package. Surprise packages are the best! It was from a blog reader--remember when I did a giveaway for the two Anne Taintor mugs? Well, the package I got today was a "thank you" package. I admit, when I read the card, I felt horrible--I thought that she'd confused me with someone else, because I couldn't remember sending anyone a "crazy cat lady" mug!

Hahaha, then I remembered the giveaway. Anyway, she sent me the sweetest card and this hilarious towel!

I legit laughed out loud when I saw it. When I was packaging the face masks, I was so worried about the masks having a cat (or dog) hair on them--I inspected them way too thoroughly. And then I even thought about including a note with the masks that read something about how you will always find pet hair on your clothes or in your food at my house.

It's inevitable!

There are even a couple of pet hairs forever embedded in my epoxy countertop, hahaha.

This afternoon, Becky stopped by with Luke and Riley (I made her a face mask, so she came to pick it up). We got to spend some time with the kids (from a distance) and it was great! I've missed them so much--and I can't believe how much they've grown. Riley is crazy smart and Luke is a chatterbox (as he always has been).

Eli and I made dinner together. My mom gave him some money to buy ingredients for a dinner that he wanted to make--and he chose to make some sort of Asian dumplings. While I was at the post office, Jerry took Eli to buy the ingredients at the store.

The prep for dinner was a lot of work, but it was nice to spend quality time with Eli. We stuffed wonton wrappers for what felt like forever! But they turned out to be really good. This is the recipe we used. We laughed a lot because we were horrible at shaping the dumplings, and every dumpling was shaped differently as we tried to make them look better.

It's been a long day! And I haven't been following my goals for the three-day challenge I made for myself. But you know what? I don't feel bad about it. I think going up and down the ladder in the garage and hanging drywall for hours burned WAY more calories than a three-mile run. And I literally can't even describe how sore I am (not to mention the bruises on my legs!).

I know I need to get to running so that I can train for the Detroit Half (I really will... soon!), but I really enjoy working on the garage, and it's serious exercise.

I also learned today that we are getting our kittens on Sunday! I am SO EXCITED. Jerry and the boys are, too. I can't wait to post pictures of them. The last time I had a kitten was nearly 20 years ago, when we got Chandler. This is going to be so much fun :)

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RECIPE: Moroccan Meatballs over Orzo

This is one of my VERY favorite meals!

The thought of putting cinnamon in a savory dish seemed so odd to me, so I don't know what possessed me to try this. When I first made it, I was tempted to leave the cinnamon out, but chose to try it... and I'm so glad I did!  The combination of the cinnamon and the jalapeño really "make" this dish.

(Also, I have a memory of making this dish one time and getting jalapeño juice in my eye! My eye wouldn't stop burning, and Jerry was searching home remedies online while I panicked, doing all the remedies he could read. I tried EVERYTHING and the trick that finally worked was a paste of baking soda and water. Who knew?!)

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Moroccan Meatballs


Ingredients:

2 (14 oz) bags of frozen meatballs
1 Tbsp olive oil
1 onion, chopped
2 cloves garlic, minced
2 fresh jalapeños, minced
1 (15 oz) can diced tomatoes
1 (15 oz) can crushed tomatoes
1-1/2 tsp sugar
1-1/2 tsp ground cumin
1-1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
1/2 tsp ground ginger
6 servings of cooked orzo

Directions:

Put the meatballs into a bowl and microwave for about 3-4 minutes to thaw them out.

Heat oil in a large skillet over medium heat. Add onion, garlic, and pepper, and cook gently until the onion is soft. Add the meatballs to the skillet, along with the sugar, cumin, cinnamon, ginger, and tomatoes. Bring the sauce to a simmer, then cover and cook over low heat for about 10 minutes, until meatballs are hot. Serve over orzo.

In the crock pot: Combine all but the orzo in a slow cooker and cook on low for 4-6 hours. Serve over cooked orzo.

Makes 6 servings.

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I'm actually doing it! (Drywalling the garage)

This photo is what I looked like AFTER coming inside from working hard in the garage and then taking a shower. I was cold and felt gross (for lack of a better word) and put on my cat onesie pajamas! (I was so cold for some reason, and I really felt the need to wear the onesie today)

My whole body ACHES but in a good way. It's kind of ridiculous to see my shins--I have bruises in all states of healing, and it kind of cracks me up. I don't have any medical conditions that cause bruising... I just happen to be extremely clumsy when working on home projects.

Mainly, I use the ladder to brace myself when working--and the rung above the one I'm standing on presses into my shins and leaves bruises. I have no idea how I get the bruises that are on my upper thighs, though!

For the past few days, I've been working in the garage on the drywall. I finished the insulation and moved onto installing drywall--I'd never actually hung drywall before, so this is totally new to me. I've been terrified of screwing the whole thing up, but I keep reminding myself that I'm a pro at using drywall compound to fix problems with the walls, hahaha.

The drywall job I'm doing in the garage is "good practice" as my brother, Brian, told me. This was after he looked at it, so clearly he thinks I should be a professional contractor by now--BAHAHA. He meant that doing it on my garage is better than practicing on a house ;)

Technically, you're "supposed" to hang drywall horizontally (although people do it both ways), but since our walls are exactly 8 feet tall, the drywall fits perfectly (it's 8 ft x 4 ft) when we hang it vertically. I did that for a couple of sheets, and then realized that the studs of the walls were just not even close to perfect. Hanging it horizontally made more sense to cover the defects of the studs.

So, I hung a couple of them vertically before switching to horizontal, so if you know at all about drywall, please don't point out all the flaws. Like I said, this is good practice! And once I tape and mud everything, it shouldn't be too noticeable, anyway. (Hopefully not at all noticeable).

Today, I finished the first wall--so now I just have three more walls and the ceiling to go! Hahaha, I feel like I'll be done in six years at this rate. Drywall is HEAVY, and I have such a hard time getting it in place. This morning, I made Noah and Eli come out to the garage to help me hoist a piece up and it helped so much! I'm going to use their help from now on when I have to do the top pieces.

This piece on the top right was super heavy and it helped so much to have the boys come out and help. Here is a before and after of that part of the wall:

Anyway, despite running into several problems with with the studs, with the drywall itself (I actually broke the first piece that I lifted!) and my own inexperience, the wall certainly doesn't look perfect. But I think it looks much better than before and I can't wait to tape and mud it so that I can paint it and it'll look finished!

The hardest part of all of this is trying to maneuver around the garage. We have a huge garage, so you wouldn't think it'd be a problem, but we have junk everywhere and it's hard to push things out of the way... bicycles, a huge lawnmower, a snowblower, a push lawnmower, the kids baseball equipment, Noah's punching bag, all of my tools, etc. It's amazing how much space it all takes up!

The wall that I finished today was one of the tougher ones (lots of space for drywall); the wall I plan on working on tomorrow is the one with the two-car garage door (on the right in the photo below), so there isn't a lot of wall space. I should be able to finish the entire thing tomorrow.

Here is a before and after of the entire wall... keep in mind, this is just the drywall part. I still have to tape and mud it, and then sand and paint it. I can't wait to get it done!

Even thought it's a lot of work, I really enjoy doing it! I open the back garage door so my squirrels can come visit (to beg for walnuts--I keep a jar there for them) and I listen to podcasts while I work.

I'll share more progress as I keep going on it :)

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A little something to look forward to!

Gosh, I had no idea how many people would request a mask! I feel really bad that I don't have enough for everyone. I decided that instead of sending up to two per person, I'll just send one--that way more people can get them. I apologize if you requested two.

Tomorrow, I will email everyone that I will be sending a mask. I'm going to try to sort them out by color and hopefully, give you the choice that you asked for. I just have to buy some more envelopes and then I will get them in the mail (hopefully on Monday!). If you don't get an email from me by this weekend, it means I just didn't have enough masks--I'm so sorry! If I should get the urge to make another batch, I will let you know!

We just got word that Michigan is going to be under lockdown until May 15th. And we are "strongly encouraged to wear homemade, non-medical grade masks when leaving the house".

I haven't written about this yet, because I don't want to jinx anything, but I am REALLY hoping that the lockdown gets lifted soon because of a very selfish reason... we are adopting kittens!

Now, I have to say... I have always been against adopting kittens because kittens are usually the first to be adopted. Older cats have a much smaller chance of being adopted. After we (tried to) adopt the two kitties last month and it didn't work out, the woman who runs the cat rescue said that kittens are very easy to adapt to a new environment.

Considering we have two older cats at home (Estelle is about 10 and Phoebe is about 11, I think), I thought about adopting kittens (so that Estelle and Phoebe will have an easier time adjusting). The woman who runs the cat rescue has something like 10 kittens that need a home! She said that they have four black kittens, which are very hard to find homes for--everybody wants the ones who have cute colors.

Of course, I love the cute colors as well, but if I'm going to come up with a compromise, I decided that we could go ahead and adopt two black kittens. They were taken from their mother when they were just days old and have been hand-raised by this woman and her husband. We've already been approved to adopt them, so as soon as they are ready, they will come home with us!

Unfortunately, due to the lock down, the kittens aren't able to be neutered or vaccinated to prepare to go to a new home. So, we have to wait. It's been torture! The whole family is so excited to get them. However, we are willing to wait until they are ready.

In the meantime, here are a couple of pictures. How could anyone not want to adopt these little guys?!

They are currently named June Bug and Lennie, respectively, but we will change those, of course--have to stick with our Friends theme! (They are both male.) I love the black hair and green eyes, but of course I must be biased ;)

We just hope we can get them soon. It will make this quarantine period go by so much faster. Or least be more fun!

From what I've learned, kittens adapt more easily to a new environment, so I hope that they'll be happy here. I'm curious to see how Phoebe and Estelle will react. I have a feeling that Phoebe will have some sort of maternal instinct and Estelle will be a brat.

When we first took Phoebe in, we got her from someone who said she was a stray. I knew a woman from a Mom's Club that I was in, and she said her sister had taken in a stray cat and she'd had it spayed and gotten its shots. She was looking for a home.

Jerry convinced me that we just "needed" another cat, so we picked her up. She was missing half of her tail (I believe it was slammed in a door, based on the way the end of it feels) and she had a bb (from a bb gun) embedded under her skin--the poor cat had been shot! She was very skittish, but she was so sweet. I am SO GLAD that we took her in, as she is now my favorite pet (shh!).

Anyway, I saw on her vet paperwork that she had been in her second trimester of pregnancy when they spayed her, and it made me so sad! She obviously never had her kittens, and it always makes me wonder if she knew that she was expecting kittens but they were gone. 

So, our new kittens have an appointment on May 1st to be neutered, and we should get them shortly thereafter, but with this lockdown, it may take longer. I'm excited, though! It'll be fun to have kittens to play with.

Meanwhile, I've gotten totally addicted to a stupid game on my phone called Best Fiends. I heard the ad for it several times on various podcasts I listen to, and one day I decided to try it. Of course, I got addicted right away, so I've been playing that way too much.

Today, however, I spent most of the day working on the garage. The insulation is done, and now I'm working on the drywall. It's much more difficult than I thought! Drywall is SUPER heavy and awkward to move. I even broke the very first piece I picked up!

I've only gotten about 2/3 of a wall done over the last three days, but I'm starting to get the hang of it more. I'm totally dreading the mudding/taping part! But even thought it's not perfect (not even close!) it's looking better than it did before I started working on it, so there's that.

I did pretty good with my three goals for three days, but it's kind of a blur now--so I won't recap. Today is my day "off" before I start the three day cycle again. My goals for the next three days:

1) Run 3 miles on Sunday within 30 minutes of waking up and run 2.75 miles on Monday within 30 minutes of waking up. Walk Joey daily, a minimum of one mile. (My kids each walk him daily, too--it's a mandatory chore--so he's getting plenty of exercise!)

2) Spend (most) of my free time doing something productive--working on the garage, mainly. However, I'm not going to feel bad about doing unproductive things that I enjoy, like playing stupid games on my phone.

3) Get in a good eating pattern. Eat breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack daily. Preferably at the same times each day. Right now, I might eat nothing at all until dinner time or I might snack all day long. It just depends on what I have going on. I really want to get into a routine. Bonus points if I count calories!

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If anyone needs a face mask...

It's so odd to even ask this question: Does anyone need a face mask?

I never would have dreamed that we'd come to a day in this country where we are wearing face masks when going to the grocery store or other necessary places. I notice about 75% of the people at the store are wearing masks, and it makes me curious about the other 25%.

Do they just not care to wear them? Or do they not have access to one?

I realized that not everybody has access to a mask or to someone they know that can make one for them. Once I posted photos of the ones that I made for my family, I got a lot of interest on Instagram about selling them.

For years, people have told me that I should sell items that I make, or open an Etsy shop. I would really love to do that (I love crafting, and it'd be great to make money doing it!) but I don't do it for a couple of reasons:

1) My time is worth a lot to me. I would probably charge much more than other people do for the same item, simply because I would look at it like a "job" rather than a hobby. The amount I would charge would have to be worth the amount of time I am spending on it--and I wouldn't blame someone for not wanting to spend that much money! ;)

2) I worry that people won't be happy with what they are paying for. Nothing I make is perfect, and being a perfectionist, I notice all of the little flaws. I would feel really bad if someone paid for something that then wasn't happy with how it turned out. (And these masks are no different--they aren't perfect!)

(This is the same reason I don't typically take on running clients--I would feel bad if I made a plan for them and then they didn't reach their goals, or they got injured, etc.)

Anyway, I really wanted to give people access to masks, but I don't want to "sell" them for those reasons. So, I came up with a compromise...

I will give away masks to those who would like them (while my supply lasts--I won't be sewing more). And then when you receive them, you can pay me whatever you think they are worth to you. (For reference, the cost of shipping + materials is about $5-6; and each masks takes me roughly an hour to make). And I'm so sorry, but I cannot ship them internationally. I'll be paying for shipping myself, so I'm just hoping to get back the money spent on shipping.

I have about 45 masks, so I'll give them on a first-come-first-serve basis (to request one, it must be on this form below only--not comments here, not Instagram messages, etc.) I'm also going to set a limit of two per person.

A little about the masks themselves... I used two types of fabrics. For some of the masks, I used three layers of cotton fabric; for others, I used one layer of cotton with one layer of 600-thread count cotton bedding (an unused flat sheet--my kids don't like flat sheets, so I always save the ones that come in sets to use for fabric).

These are not hospital-grade masks, and they don't have a pocket for a filter. These are great for just going to the grocery store or being out in public when necessary. I cannot make any guarantees about their effectiveness, but I did research online, and they should work pretty well.

(The bedding fabric is actually highly recommended because it's woven tighter--that's why I only used two layers on those masks.) Here is a photo of the back of the mask with the sheet fabric (the zigzag stitch is from where I stitched the pipe cleaner in place).

The masks are made in only one size (adult). And since we are all shaped different, I cannot guarantee that it will fit will. It has two elastic hair ties that go over your ears, so there is a chance it could be too tight or too loose. In that case, you can cut out the hair ties and thread other elastic through or use shoelaces to use to tie it in the back of your head. But so far, these seem to fit well to those I've given them to!

I also included a pipe cleaner in the top to pinch against your nose to form it closer to your face (the more coverage you get, the better).

Finally, I have very limited choices in fabric. If I had been making these for profit, I would have bought a large diverse selection, but I had to use what was in my stash. And unfortunately, that's not much! So, I may or may not be able to give you the one you want. When you fill out the form, just select your favorite choices and I'll see what I can do.

I'll try to figure out how to post a "donate" button on my blog, so when you get them, you can decide what they are worth and donate that way. For now, though, my PayPal address is the same as my email address: katie (at) runsforcookies (dot) com. Please don't donate until you get your masks and are happy with them!


I will email you to let you know if I'll be sending a mask (I have no idea how many people will want these, so it'll just depend on that). If I run out, then I'll close responses on the form.

And just as a reminder, I posted a tutorial for how to make the face masks, which you can find here!

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So many masks!

I'm not going to write a "real" post tonight--I'm exhausted and Jerry and I are watching Gilmore Girls (no, I'm not joking! haha).

I spent almost all day long working on sewing face masks. Last week, I mailed out a lot of them after people on Instagram asked if they could buy them. I didn't feel right taking money for them, so I just shipped them off without checking how much it would cost.

I've gotten requests for a ton more, so over the last two days, I've made about 50 of them(!). I'm not going to "sell" them, because it just doesn't feel right, but the shipping cost was insane last week. It costs about $4 for a first class envelope!

So, when I'm done with these, I'm going to offer them to whoever would like one for a donation--whatever you think is fair. I'm not looking to make a profit, so I would suggest $5 per mask (to cover shipping plus envelope and materials), but if you can't afford that, then I'd be happy to ship one at no charge.

I will post more details once I finish sewing them (likely tomorrow). I don't have a lot of different fabrics to choose from (just what I had in my "stash" at home) and they certainly aren't perfect, but for anyone who needs a mask, I have several to give.

I will post the details tomorrow or Friday. For right now, I'm super exhausted from working on them all day! I was only going to make a few for some friends, but I figured that since I was going to be making those, I might as well make a bunch more.

This is what my table has looked like for the last few days...

If you haven't seen the photo of what they look like on an actual face, here it is:

Jerry's "bank robber" look ;)

Anyway, that's what I've been up to the last couple of days! Once I'm done with this batch, I won't be making any more. I'm totally burnt out.

And if you want to make your own, I did write a tutorial for it--you can find that tutorial for making your own mask here.

G'night!

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