I've never reached my goal weight in all my years of dieting. I did see 133 a couple of years ago, but my goal was 126 at the time, so I never actually reached goal. I later revised my goal to 133, and I've been trying to get there ever since.
It's kind of strange though, that I don't really feel any different than I did yesterday. Technically, I can switch over to "maintenance" mode, where I get to add more PointsPlus to my day; but I'm scared to. It's not that I'm afraid of gaining weight, because I'm not. I've just never, ever been to this point where I can stop trying to lose weight. It's so strange!
I don't know what I was expecting from Weight Watchers when I logged my weight, but it wasn't very exciting ;)
I decided to take my measurements, just to see how they compare to August 2009, when I was my heaviest. It's kind of amazing how many inches I've lost:
Some snippets from my blog from 2006 about my goal weight:
"My goal weight is 150. I'd LOVE to get to 135, but I've never weighed less than 152 in my adult life, so I'm being realistic."
"I can't even describe the hatred I feel right now for myself. I hate that I screw everything up. I hate being fat. I hate that I can't just stick to WW for long enough to reach my goal weight. I hate that I love food more than anything else."
And here are some from 2009:
"I wanted to binge today SO BADLY. I made the mistake of weighing myself and got really discouraged at the not-so-big number. I was expecting to have lost a lot so far, and I haven't, and it made me want to binge because I felt like all this effort wasn't paying off. But, I stuck to it and try to keep my mind off of it, and I chose not to binge. I want to see this through to the end--to finally reach my goal weight."
"I can't believe I've gone 29 days now without bingeing. It's been a LONG time since that happened--probably over 2 years. I would much rather eat whatever I want, whenever I want, however much I want; but I'm hoping that reaching my GOAL weight will make it worth it. I don't know if it will, because I've never been at goal. The only reason I keep doing this is to reach my goal."
It's so interesting to see how my mindset has changed, even since 2009. I went from feeling 100% hopeless to actually believing that I would reach my goal--not IF, but WHEN.
I would really like to get some great goal weight photos (Stephanie?? I'll pay you with lots of wine!) but for now, here is a picture from today vs. my before picture. I chose that before picture because it looks like I'm laughing at the "new me". The new pic is a little blurry, because Noah took it. ;)
|(race photo used with permission from Brightroom Photography)|