Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Goal weight

I woke up to a very unexpected, but pleasant, surprise on the scale this morning for my Wednesday Weigh-In:
MY GOAL WEIGHT!!

I've never reached my goal weight in all my years of dieting. I did see 133 a couple of years ago, but my goal was 126 at the time, so I never actually reached goal. I later revised my goal to 133, and I've been trying to get there ever since.

It's kind of strange though, that I don't really feel any different than I did yesterday. Technically, I can switch over to "maintenance" mode, where I get to add more PointsPlus to my day; but I'm scared to. It's not that I'm afraid of gaining weight, because I'm not. I've just never, ever been to this point where I can stop trying to lose weight. It's so strange!

I don't know what I was expecting from Weight Watchers when I logged my weight, but it wasn't very exciting ;)

I decided to take my measurements, just to see how they compare to August 2009, when I was my heaviest. It's kind of amazing how many inches I've lost:
I think the most shocking is my neck. I can't believe I lost 4.5 inches in my neck! I never even thought of my neck as being fat, but looking back at the pictures, it definitely was.

Some snippets from my blog from 2006 about my goal weight:

"My goal weight is 150. I'd LOVE to get to 135, but I've never weighed less than 152 in my adult life, so I'm being realistic."


"I can't even describe the hatred I feel right now for myself. I hate that I screw everything up. I hate being fat. I hate that I can't just stick to WW for long enough to reach my goal weight. I hate that I love food more than anything else."

And here are some from 2009:

"I wanted to binge today SO BADLY. I made the mistake of weighing myself and got really discouraged at the not-so-big number. I was expecting to have lost a lot so far, and I haven't, and it made me want to binge because I felt like all this effort wasn't paying off. But, I stuck to it and try to keep my mind off of it, and I chose not to binge. I want to see this through to the end--to finally reach my goal weight."


"I can't believe I've gone 29 days now without bingeing. It's been a LONG time since that happened--probably over 2 years. I would much rather eat whatever I want, whenever I want, however much I want; but I'm hoping that reaching my GOAL weight will make it worth it. I don't know if it will, because I've never been at goal. The only reason I keep doing this is to reach my goal."

It's so interesting to see how my mindset has changed, even since 2009. I went from feeling 100% hopeless to actually believing that I would reach my goal--not IF, but WHEN.

I would really like to get some great goal weight photos (Stephanie?? I'll pay you with lots of wine!) but for now, here is a picture from today vs. my before picture. I chose that before picture because it looks like I'm laughing at the "new me".  The new pic is a little blurry, because Noah took it. ;)
(race photo used with permission from Brightroom Photography)
 

75 comments:

  1. CONGRATULATIONS! What an accomplishment. I can't wait until I am in your position! ;) I've said it before, but thanks for sharing all that you do... it really helps folks like me. Enjoy your success!

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  2. Congrats girl! That's awesome! I love looking back on old journal entries. It can really give you a fresh perspective on things.

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  3. Congrats Katie! All your hard work, and sticking with it even when it felt hopeless has paid off. So proud of you and the hope you give to us who are still trying to get there.

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  4. Congrats! That is awesome! Can't wait for this day!

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  5. Wooooooo Hoooooooo! So happy for you! Truly an inspiration!

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  6. Congratulations! You should be extremely proud of yourself! Well done!,,,,,

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  7. Congratulations!!! You look amazing!! You're a wonderful inspiration to so many of us. :)

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  8. wow, you really look different. it's a true inspiration!

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  9. Congratulations!!!! You really keep me motivated in my weight loss!

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  10. I've been following your blog for awhile now and just wanted to say "CONGRATULATIONS ON GETTING ALL THE WAY TO GOAL!!!!!" I've lost about 70lbs, kept it off for over 7 years, and recently put about 15 back on. I've never actually gotten "all the way to goal", but I've been within a pound - times 3!! - just before 2 beach vacations and after I had my wisdom teeth removed. I'm ready to do what you did and tackle the gain, plus the last 5 lbs, and FINALLY make it all the way this time! Thanks for such an inspiring blog!! :)

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    1. Dear Anonymous, I had kept a weight loss off for 5 years but over the last 2 years have gained 15 lbs while in college full time. I don't know about you but even though it is "only" 15 lbs, I can't stand how I look in pictures now. That was the motivation that got me to get serious about taking it back off. I'm down 6 lbs and already my jeans are beginning to fit again. I really want to encourage you to work on it before it becomes more; it happens so easily and we don't even realize it. I am hoping the best for you!!

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  11. That is awesome! You look fantastic! I wanted to be at goal at the end of this year but I know it isn't a question of if I get there but when. Reading your posts like this, give me so much hope that it will actually happen as long as I keep at it!

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  12. Congrats! What a HUGE accomplishment!

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  13. I am so happy for you! Congratulations!

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  14. wohoo...way to go-- Cannnt wait for this day. I knw it meabs lots of hard work and for me it also means to ditch the scales.

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  15. Congratulations!! That is a wonderful achievement. Love the curly hair too :)

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  16. Congratulations Katie!! You look and are amazing!

    It is cool that you have all those journals to look back at. I do think one of the hardest times in weight loss is when you have started changing habits but haven't lost much weight....working so hard and still feeling fat sucks.

    It seems like weight watchers should show up at your door with a prize or something. :)

    Michelle Christine

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  17. Your post today had me in tears. I am so happy for you!! You have worked hard, and inspired so many people! Your journals are very transparent and your writing enables others to feel what you feel! I look forward to reading your blog EVERY day.

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  18. I think this is freakin' amazing! You look awesome and I am in awe how you (and others) can hang in the battle of achieving your goal(s). That takes pure determination. The determination part of my brain has to be defected because I am found wanting in that department. Again, you look awesome! WOW!

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  19. Congratulations Katie! I think WW owes you fireworks and a marching band! You earned it!

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  20. Congrats Katie! You look amazing. I hope you are proud of yourself because your community of readers is definitely proud of you! You are inspiring to people like me who have made progress but still have a long way to go. Thank you for paving the way for women like me!

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  21. Congrats Katie! What an accomplishment! You are an inspiration.

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  22. Congrats on making your goal!! You are such an inspiration; I can't wait to one day meet my goal weight!

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  23. Congratulations, Katie!! You are amazing and your story is an inspiration. I have many similar diary entries from years past. It's weird to see how you felt the same way. Anyway, you are awesome and beautiful and thanks for your blog!

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  24. YAY!! And a million congratulations!! The difference between the photos is astounding! You don't even look like the same person anymore! You rock so much!

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  25. Congrats Katie! I look forward to your blog everyday & you are a great inspiration to me!

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  26. amazing!!!!!!!! so proud of you!!!!

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  27. Wow Katie, that's amazing. You're fabulous! I showed my partner Paul and he was so impressed and amazed.

    You must feel fab. Well done. I'm tearing up! Lol

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  28. Katie, I'm so happy for you! What a great accomplishment! I have been off track all week with everything, but this puts everything back in perspective and will help me get back on track. My goal rigt now is just to get to "one"derland, and I'm so close, yet it feels so far away. I can't wait for the day to set a real goal weight and meet it. Thank you again for inspiring me! Go celebrate with a run of course!

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  29. Congrats Katie! You look beautiful. Hitting goal is a great feeling I am happy for you. Keep us posted on how you are doing in maintenance. Take care! Heather

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  30. Congratulations Slim Katie! You definitely need an after shot with a pose or top that shows just how small your waist is now! I loved how you let all your readers continuously know that you don't have to starve or feel deprived to lose weight. In fact, eating what you love, in moderation, will lead you to success! Three more weeks!

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  31. So awesome. Congratulations Katie. Right in the middle of the holidays too. You are amazing with your will power and motivation. Love it!

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  32. Congratulations!! Such a HUGE accomplishment! Your journey has been a pleasure to read and I wish you all the success in maintenance for the future!!!

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  33. Congrats - YOu look amazing and are a true inspiration!

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  34. You have so very much to be proud of! What an amazing transformation, both physical and mental. So proud for you and your family! Hot Dog - You Did It!

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  35. I just started following your blog not too long ago and you are so encouraging! Congratulations on reaching your goal weight!! That is amazing and you look fantastic!!

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  36. Add the points. You'll lose a few more pounds, I guarantee it. I did.

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  37. GOAL! Katie--you amaze me--every single day! I LOVE reading about your running, your eating, your family and Jerry has got to be the single most wonderful guy ever! I never did comment on that last fantabulous note he left for you on the bathroom mirror! He knows he can beat you at Words and Scramble, but he also recognizes how special and wonderful everything you have accomplished and everything you do every single day is--so much better than winning at Words or Scramble on your iPhone!!!

    Now I have a question--is it worth it? You asked yourself in 2009 if reaching your goal would be worth it, worth giving up a lot of the food you loved to eat in the massive quantities you (we all) ate it in?

    I think I know the answer.

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  38. Congrats and job well done! You are so inspiring!

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  39. Great job!!! yay for goal weight!!! I'm 35lbs away, but I won't give up. Thanks for the inspiration!!

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  40. The measurements are amazing! Congrats!!!!

    I can't believe how much younger you look in your pictures now compared to then :)

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  41. Amazing! You are such an inspiration. I love how sincere and down to earth you are.

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  42. This is such an amazing moment! You have such amazing discipline to get to that weight TWICE! You're unstoppable :D

    And yeah, I would expect WW Fireworks at least :P

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  43. WOW you have inspired me today! I have been sick and haven't been on the treadmill for a few days - so I have put on a couple of pounds ugh!! I love your before and after picture - now I need to work on mine some more!!

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  44. Congratulations Katie, you are truly an inspiration. Great job.

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  45. Congrats girl! Been friends with you on Spark for a minute. You should do a va va voom modeling pose because you are too cute!

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  46. I love the "old" you looking and laughing with joy at the "new" you!

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  47. I am so amazed at the before and after photos of you.

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  48. Add me to those congratulating you on an achievement a lot of us wish will come for us one day.

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  49. Congrats! Just starting out it is so much work, it hurts! But you did it! Just think, there are very few people that can say they made it to their goal weight.

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  50. Congratulations!!! I am so thrilled for you!

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  51. Great job..especially to hit your goal weight during the holiday season!!

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  52. Oh WOW! You inspire me so much. I am just starting back on the journey to a healthier, stronger and thinner me. You give me so much hope that I too can reach my goal. You look amazing! I am so impresses with all you have done. Congratulations! Hugs, Bobbi Jo -AZ

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  53. Congrats on reaching goal!! :)

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  54. I read your blog every day but rarely say anything, but I had to today!! Congrats, Katie, so proud of you. :)

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  55. AHHH-MAY-ZING!! Love this blog!! Congrats! Thank you for posting snippets from the past - It's a great reminder of where we've come from. :-)

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  56. I'm adding to the litany of congratulations you're getting, but I so love reading your blog that I thought I should. Well done girl!

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  57. I accomplished something a couple of years ago that took a lot of hard work and felt the same way. It's like I should have had confetti falling down on me like I won a new car or something!

    That's a great feat. Congratulations!!!! You deserve it.

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  58. Congratulations!! This is HUGE!! When you logged that in WW, confetti should have exploded out of your computer or something, right?!;) You're such an inspiration to so many!

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  59. You are such an inspiration. I really liked seeing your 2006 vs. 2009 posts. It proves to me that it CAN be done. This is a process, and some days will be harder than others. But, one must never stop working towards that goal. CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!

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  60. CONGRATS!

    I dream of the moment you experienced and I'm so happy for you! You are an inspiration!

    BRAVA!

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  61. Congrats! This is exactly what I needed to read today! With a break room full of sugar cookies, I needed some motivation to stay on track. I started at 232.5 and am currently at 184. My goal is 132.5. You are simply amazing! Thank you for being such an inspiration to me!

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  62. I am so ridiculously happy for you!!! {happy dance} You look absolutely STUNNING!!

    Although you know I'll do just about anything for wine ;), I would consider it an honor and a pleasure to do another photo shoot with you, no payment necessary. I can't wait--it will be so fun! Although I will say I think Noah did a darn good job. ;)

    I did have to laugh, because I TOTALLY get your reservations and hesitations...that's where I was earlier this year, and still am to some extent. When you spend your whole life in "weight loss" mode, either actively or passively, it's hard to get used to the idea of not HAVING to lose weight. But you've earned that privilege, so enjoy it! :)

    Congratulations!!

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  63. Congratulations- you look amazing and I'm so proud of you!!! So impressive and inspirational! :)

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  64. I began visiting your blog over the past few days hoping to glean motivation, (it's working :)). Your beginning sentiments about yourself could EASILY be me talking. I have 60+ lbs to lose and I fail at everything I set out to do. I feel like an embarrassment and ashamed of myself. I am drowning in this fat body. I definitely am NOT trying to sound "victim-y", this i sjust how I feel. I hope I can do this, but won't get my hope up too much. I am thankful for finding your blog, Katie. You are awesome! (I wrote a post earlier but realized I hadn't signed in so it won't probably show up)

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