Auction

I actually woke up excited to workout this morning... because it was my last day of the Wii Active 30-Day Challenge! I was super excited to finish it, just for that sense of accomplishment.

The rest of the family was sleeping, so I quietly turned on the Wii Active, and was greeted with this:

It said I had only completed 18/20 workouts. It took me a second to realize what had happened. The stupid game didn't save yesterday's workout! It was as if I had never done #19. I was pissed, and there was no way to override it. The only way for it to register that workout was for me to do it again.

I was so looking forward to finishing the challenge today, so I made up my mind to do BOTH workouts today and get it done. So I re-did #19, and then it wouldn't let me do #20. Luckily, today is day 29 of the 30-Day Challenge, so I can still finish it tomorrow (assuming that today's workout was saved). Anyway, here is my proof that I'm done with #19 (again):

I think once I'm done with the challenge, I'll do a full-body strength training workout two times a week. I may end up buying the Active 2 and do that challenge as well.

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In 2003, just before Jerry and I got married, we bought an empty lot in our neighborhood and put up our house. There were actually two lots for sale, right next to each other, and we only could afford to buy one of them (the asking price was $30,000 on each lot, and we offered $25,000, which they accepted). The next door neighbors ended up buying the lot that was between ours and theirs.

For years, we begged our neighbor to consider selling it to us. We don't have a garage, and Jerry wants a garage really badly. But our lot isn't big enough as it is, so we really wanted to buy the extra property. Our neighbor refused, saying that it added value to his property when he was going to sell it.

Well, the neighbor ended up dying, and his sister let the house (and the lot) go into foreclosure. The house was purchased, and Jerry and I assumed that the empty lot went along with the house. Then a couple of months ago, we got a notice in the mail saying that the lot was going up for auction. We were shocked.

We called to find out how much was owed in taxes, and discovered that the taxes owed on it were $2,500--which was also the opening bid on the property! So the property we would have bought for $25,000 from our neighbor was going up for auction for a tenth of that price.

We tried really hard not to get our hopes up about buying it, but we've been talking about it ever since we got the notice about the auction. The auction was today.

Jerry took the day off of work so that we could both go. We were nervous as hell, because we'd never done anything like this before. But we wanted that property sooo badly! It was at a hotel, and we had to take the kids with us, which didn't make it easy. I had to sit in the hallway with the kids, because there was no way they would hold still and be quiet during the whole thing.

Our property was #30, so it took a while to get to it. I was listening to the other auctions, and I kept getting more nervous. Some of them were starting out at $1,200 and then it would end up selling for $40,000! Finally, I heard our property being called out with the opening bid of $2,500, and Jerry bid on it. I was praying nobody else would bid, but some random guy in the back bid on it. (I have no idea why anyone other than US or our next door neighbors would want this lot).

Anyway, the guy bid up to $3,400, and we ended up winning with a $3,500 bid. Not the $2,500 we were hoping, but still one hell of a deal! We would have paid our neighbor $25,000 back in the day for that same lot, and he said no. We had to borrow the money to be able to buy this lot, which definitely doesn't help with paying off our debt, but this is one debt that I don't feel bad about--it's a good investment in the long run.

We won't be able to put up a garage for at least a few years, but at least it's something to look forward to. Jerry is thrilled. Our ninth wedding anniversary is on Thursday, so I guess this is how we're celebrating ;)

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From Fat to Finish Line Documentary

Last night, before bed, I told Jerry I wasn't feeling "right". I wasn't feeling really sick, but just kind of "off". I don't really know how to describe it. And then when I woke up this morning, it was even worse. I really didn't want to run (do I ever?!) so I was lazy making my way to the treadmill this morning.

I had a bunch of ice water (I was feeling hot) and read my e-mail before finally getting on the treadmill. I was bummed when I saw that today's run was supposed to be 20 minutes easy running, then 6 repeats of (3 minutes hard, 3 minutes easy), and finishing with a 10-minute easy run... 68 minutes total. I'm not used to running over an hour on my weekday runs.

I knew I wasn't going to be pushing it very hard today. I did the 20 minutes easy at my usual 6.0, and then my plan was to do the hard intervals at 8.0--but I changed my mind once it was time to do it! I ended up starting with a 7.5 interval, and it felt pretty tough. The next one, I lowered it to 7.0, and I still felt crappy. The third and fourth were 6.5.

I drank a few sips of water while I was running, and immediately felt really nauseous. I was really tempted to call it quits early, but I remember how mad I was at myself when I stopped my 14-miler a couple of weeks ago after 10 miles. I felt like a quitter. So I just decided to keep at it, unless I actually vomited or something.

I did the last two intervals at 7.0 and then 7.5. I was actually pissed after the last interval, because I knew I still had 13 minutes to go (which felt like forever!). Finally, I hit 68 minutes. I was so grateful it was over.

I still don't really know what was wrong with me and why I was feeling so crappy. After my run, I actually started feeling a little better. But not much, because I still had to do my Wii Active workout. Today's workout was #19 of 20!! That means tomorrow is going to be the last day of my 30-Day Challenge--woo hoo!

Today's was mostly upper body strengthening and a ton of running on the track. The track part is always super boring (running in place while looking at a track on the TV... yup, as exciting as it sounds), so I continued to watch The Biggest Loser on my computer during that part.

I can't wait to finish the challenge tomorrow. I think after that, I'll continue to do the workouts, but only 2-3 days per week.

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You may have already seen this on Facebook, but the documentary I'm taking part in finally has a website! You can check it out at www.fattofinish.com. I've already introduced you to all of our team, but on the site, you can read shortened versions of our stories, see more pictures, see a sneak preview of what the film is going to be about, and all that good stuff. I can't watch the video without crying, and I've seen it dozens of times ;)

We also have a Kickstarter page. If you're not familiar with Kickstarter (I had no clue what it was until recently), it's a site where people with ideas can set up a page to try and get the funds to make their ideas become a reality. So if you'd like, you could go to our Kickstarter, and pledge a certain amount of money (that goes to the film company to hopefully make this documentary happen!). There are prizes for the different amounts you can pledge--for example, if you pledge $25, you can get a DVD of the film (with special features!) when it's released.

Media Meld Studios has to raise $50,000 in pledges in the next 31 days. If they don't get enough pledges, then your credit card is never charged. So, for example, I pledged $25. If there are $50,000 worth of pledges by Sept. 13th, then my credit card is charged the $25 and I get a copy of the DVD when it's released. If the pledges don't reach $50,000, then I don't pay anything (but the film won't get funded). I'm explaining it the best I can, but it's still hard to describe, sorry!

Anyway, if you'd like to help support the film, the Kickstarter page can be found here: From Fat to Finish Line Kickstarter. I'm praying that we get enough pledges to make the film!

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Well, I have to clean my house (at least a little...) Renee is coming over for wine tonight :)

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Reader Questions & Answers #23

On Sundays, I will answer some readers' questions in a post. If you have a question that you would like me to answer here on the blog, just send me an e-mail with the subject "Q&A", and I may include them in a future Q&A post. They don't have to be about weight loss or running--anything is game!  (Remember, I'm not a doctor or dietician, or any sort of medical professional--I can only answer questions from my own experience).

Q. What is your favorite kind/brand of peanut butter? I am surprised that you have natural and Jif. I used to eat Jif, but now that I get natural (or make my own), I find that Jif is WAY too sweet, plus I don't want the added oil. Have you tried all the other kind of nut and seed butters? I LOVE sunflower seed butter, but I can't keep out of it, so I try to avoid it!

A. I don't think I've ever come across a peanut butter brand that I didn't like! I do have favorites, though. My absolute favorite is the Smucker's Natural Creamy peanut butter. I use this on toast, on oatmeal, and by itself. I buy the Jif (or, more likely, the store brand) peanut butter to always have on hand for making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches or for baking. There is a natural brand called Krema that is also really good (my second favorite)--this kind has the same texture as Jif, so if you're new to natural peanut butter, it may be the way to go. (If cost was no issue, I would buy the Krema over the Jif).

I really love the flavored peanut butters, but I have to be really careful about what I have in the house, because I will binge on them. Peanut Butter & Co. makes a White Chocolate Wonderful pb, and it's AMAZING. Hands-down, my favorite flavored pb. I love to top oat bran with it! Their chocolate one is good, and their Cinnamon Raisin one is awesome on Ezekiel Cinnamon Raisin bread.

I love almond butter almost as much as peanut butter. My favorite brand of almond butter is Kettle creamy. Maranatha makes a dark chocolate almond spread that is SO GOOD (too good!). I tried Barney Butter, too--you can read about the difference between Barney Butter and Kettle on a post I wrote.

I've also tried cashew butter (yum, but super expensive); sunflower seed butter; Cookie Butter; coconut butter; some sort of peanut butter spread from the Amish; hazelnut butter; and walnut butter. I don't think I've ever disliked one! :)

These were all in my house at one time ;)

Q. I'm a coffee drinker, mostly because I am a busy mom. I work full-time outside the home on top of being a mom. I need my coffee in the morning because I feel like its the only thing that can give me the jolt I need! I used to drink tea and that was fine, but now I guess I need something stronger? What are your reasons for quitting coffee and how did you do it?

A. I quit drinking coffee at the end of October 2011. I had no intentions of quitting it altogether at the time, however. It was a week before I went to NYC to be a guest on The Dr. Oz Show. I was SO NERVOUS about the show. I realized that drinking coffee made me feel even more anxiety, so I decided to quit drinking it until after the show. I wasn't a huge coffee drinker in the first place--I would drink two cups every morning, but I didn't feel like I "needed" it. It was a habit.

But I had a horrible headache for about three days when I stopped drinking it--I didn't realize it at first, but I'm sure it was the caffeine withdrawal that caused the headache. That headache was so bad that I realized I had been addicted to coffee, and I decided that I wasn't going to resume drinking it after the show. I felt a million times better without the coffee (and once my headache went away). My anxiety (on a daily basis, something I struggle with) was much better. 

Ty (a reader) recently sent me a link to an blog post about coffee that I found really interesting. It basically says that your body adapts to the caffeine--so if I was to drink a cup of coffee right now, I would get tons of energy, because my body isn't used to it. But for you, that coffee wouldn't have the same effect. For people that have coffee on a daily basis, it becomes "the norm" in their bodies. But drinking coffee only very occasionally (when you really need a little pick-me-up), that coffee is going to give you more than "normal" energy. Very hard to explain, but here is the link to the post. 

I also read a very creative way to give up coffee, and it almost made me wish I was still drinking coffee so that I could do it ;)  You can read about that on this blog post. But if you're happy drinking coffee, and it's not negatively impacting your health in any way (like it was with my anxiety) then there probably isn't a reason to quit drinking it, as far as I can see.

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Q. I come from a family of over weight people, and then Atkins came out and they all lost a bunch of weight (and most gained it back). My question is this, do you worry about your carb count on a daily basis or just calorie intake? I have had success with low calorie diets in the past, but I think my family has brainwashed me because I keep counting carbs too! 

One of my favorite "carb" meals:
pasta, peas, olive oil, garlic, and parmesan cheese.

A. I always say that it totally depends on the person, and you should experiment to see how your body is happiest. But that said, I don't give carbs a second thought! I love carbs, and the majority of my calories come from carbs. I had success (obviously) losing weight while eating a lot of carbs. I counted calories and I tried to eat a variety of foods. I also gradually switched over to whole grain carbs--brown rice, whole grain pasta, etc. I've never been a huge fan of meat, so my protein comes from carb sources as well--beans and lentils.

The reason for this is that from the very beginning, I KNEW I would not be happy eating a low-carb diet. I decided this time around to make changes that I was willing to live with forever--and counting carbs, or worrying about carbs, was not a change I was willing to make. So I focused on calories, and foods that made me happy and my body feel good. I knew if I wasn't happy with what I was eating, I was never going to stick it out long enough to lose the weight.

A lot of people have told me "You eat too many carbs", "You don't eat enough protein", "You don't eat enough vegetables" and all the other things they believe are "wrong" about my diet. I'm not perfect! But I eat in a way that makes me happy, and my body feel good. Some people actually feel better eating a lot of protein and few carbs, but I am not one of them. So I think it's best to experiment to see how you feel best, and what works best for you as an individual.

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Wood Duck Dash race report

Today was a first for me. I combined my long run with a race, to make the run a little more interesting!

I woke up early, with the plan of getting to the race location (the metropark that I always run) and to start running by 7:00 (the 10K race was scheduled to start at 9:00 a.m.). I had oatmeal with milk, dates, and brown sugar, and a cup of tea before heading out. I brought along a chocolate Gu and Gatorade.

It was raining the whole way there, and I was bummed. The temp was fantastic--59 degrees! But I really didn't want to get soaked before the race even started. When I got to the park, it wasn't pouring rain, but it was a steady drizzle. Better than a downpour, at least!

I decided to do two out-and-back routes from the car (a 3-miler and a 5-miler, in different directions). As soon as I started running, I realized that it was going to be MUCH better than last week's long run! I felt fantastic. Last week, I was so sluggish and tired--due entirely from a week at my sister's of eating restaurant food, lots of junk food and beer. Today, however, I could feel was different.

After my first mile, I looked at my Garmin and saw I was running a 9:54/mi pace--too fast. I knew I couldn't maintain that pace for the whole 14 miles, so I deliberately tried to slow down (but not TOO much). However, after a mile, I stopped feeling so fantastic. I can't really pinpoint what was wrong, but I just wasn't feeling nearly as good as the first mile.

But, I kept going, running in the rain. At about mile 3.5, I saw a doe and her fawn! It was adorable. They just froze and looked at me, and I was terrified to be close to them (my dad and brother were attacked by a buck one time, so deer scare me). I stopped to at least take a picture:

(I didn't say a GOOD picture)

After they crossed, about a half-mile down the trail I came across another doe. I scared her and she took off into the woods. And I saw a fourth deer on my way back from the out-and-back! I'm used to seeing a thousand rabbits when I run, but not many deer.

I planned the last part of 8th mile to end right at the packet pick-up. There were a ton of people there when I showed up. So I went in and picked up my race shirt and bib. I saw Jessica in there (she decided just yesterday to run the race as well). She thought the race shirts were hideously ugly, but I kind of like them. Unfortunately, they are cotton shirts and not tech shirts, so I don't know that I'll ever wear it. Actually, never mind--I'm wearing it right now ;)

I went back to my car to put the shirt in there, take off my hydration belt, and change my shoes. My only regret is that I didn't bring a change of socks--my socks were wet. I only decided to change my shoes because my feet were really sore last week after my long run in my new Brooks Adrenaline's. I'm hoping it wasn't the shoes that made my feet hurt, but I didn't want to risk it happening in the middle of a race.

I saw my friend Stephanie, and said hello to her. Her two boys were running the "Ducking Dash" (and Jessica's boys were all running it as well). I stood around (freezing cold, because I was soaked from head to toe and I had stopped running 20 minutes prior). After the kids' run, we lined up at the starting line. I went to the back, knowing I was going to run a slower pace today. I started the race with Stephanie, and figured I would try and keep about the same pace as her, since she said she was aiming for "under 11:00/mi pace".

When the race started, she was going much faster than 11:00/mi! It was actually more like 10:00/mi, so I didn't try and keep up with her. After a half-mile or so, she ran ahead. I couldn't believe that I was literally one of the last people in the race. My pace wasn't SNAIL-like or anything--I was running just over a 10:00/mi, and there were only about 10 people behind me.

There was a short out-and-back first, and I saw Jessica on the way back while I was going out. She seemed to be running really well. I was keeping pace with a girl for a while, and we were the only two people around. The rest of the crowd was a quarter mile ahead, and the very last people were behind us quite a ways. So I finally decided to pass her, but I was careful not to push my pace too hard.

At around mile 2, I saw Stephanie ahead of me by a quarter mile or so. I really just wanted the race to be over already, and I had a long ways to go. So I decided to see if I could "catch" Stephanie. She was doing REALLY well--she had hopes of beating her last (and only) 10K time, which was 1:10:xx. I had a very hard time catching up to her, because my legs were feeling pretty dead!

We turned into a path lined with wood chips in the woods. Stephanie was less than a tenth of a mile ahead, so I was trying HARD to close the gap. Eventually, I called out to her, and we started running together. I wasn't sure if I should have done that or not, because I didn't want to step in if I wasn't wanted--she had a goal for the race, and I was only doing it as part of a training run. I told her to go at her own pace, regardless of what mine was, but we ended up sticking together.

The last two miles were tough. Running on the wood chips was difficult--my legs felt heavy. We also had to run on wooden bridges, which were slippery from the rain; and a gravel path. The last mile, I really felt like I wanted to just lie down and die quit. I was tired, and just wanted to be done!

When my Garmin beeped at 14 miles, I realized I could just walk the rest of the way if I wanted, but since I was so close to the finish, I decided to run it in. I told Steph to go ahead of me for the finish, so I didn't ruin her finish line picture ;)

My race results:
Chip time: 1:05:02 (10:29/mi pace)
Overall place: 84 out of 106
Female 30-34 place: 8 out of 11

My splits for the entire 14 miler:

I'm thrilled to have redeemed my last week's long run! Doing the 8-mile run before the race was a good idea. I'm not sure I could have done it if I waited until after the race.

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Swimming

Today was supposed to be a rest day, but as I was lying in bed this morning, I thought about how that would mean tomorrow I'd have to come home after running 14 miles and do the Wii Active workout. I know I'm not going to want to do that, so I did the Wii workout this morning.

It was mostly arm and upper body work, so I won't be sore for my long run tomorrow. I actually finished before the kids woke up! They've been sleeping in until about 8:00 lately. Figures, they only have three more weeks of summer vacation and now they start sleeping in.

Workout 17 of 20, done.

I had promised Noah that I would take him to the pool to do a swim test. When we were at the pool in Illinois, he was too scared to go down a slide that went into 5-feet deep water. And then when we went to the beach a couple of days ago, he wanted to take off his life jacket--I told him no, that he had to prove to me that he was a strong swimmer first.

He was really mad at me at the beach, and said that he feels like a baby wearing a life jacket. So I told him that I'd take him to the pool and he would have to swim across the deep end to show me that he was a strong swimmer. I could tell he was scared to do it, and he kept asking if he could just swim where it was "a little bit deep". I said no, that he could do the 12-feet deep part.

So anyway, today was the big day. We went to the pool, and even though I hate to swim, I got in with them. I took them to the deep end, and Noah held on to the side until I told him to let go and swim across. I swam along with him, and he did great (as I knew he would). I knew it would give him a lot more confidence in himself, and I was right.

Eli then did the same thing (he's fearless, though, and was excited to try it). Then Eli asked if he could jump in off the side. I explained that he wouldn't be able to push off the bottom to get to the surface, because it was too deep, but he still wanted to do it, so I said sure. He did awesome! And after he did it, Noah was feeling brave enough to do it too. They did that for a while, and then Eli asked if he could jump off the diving board.

I was nervous about that, because I knew jumping off the diving board would mean he'd go down a lot deeper than he was used to. But his swimming teacher was there with a student (they were the only other people in the pool), and I asked her if she thought he was ready. She said absolutely, so I let him go.

Eli jumped off the diving board, swam up to the surface and to the ladder by himself. Noah watched him do it a couple more times, and then decided he wanted to do it, too. He did great! I was so surprised that he went from not wanting to go down a slide into 5 feet of water last week to jumping off a diving board into 12 feet of water this week. I told him that next time we go to the beach, he won't have to wear his life jacket as long as an adult is in the water with him.

The kids spent two hours jumping and swimming. I spent most of the time treading water for exercise (which is pretty tiring!)

The kids are staying the night with my parents tonight. In the morning, I have my 14-miler and Jerry has a softball tournament. After my run is over, I'm going to come home and shower and get the kids, and then we'll go to Jerry's tournament. I think it's supposed to be an all-day thing.

Since Jerry and I don't have the boys tonight, we have a "date night". But we're trying reeeally hard to save some money, so instead of going to the movies like we would have liked to do, we ended up going to the state park for a three-mile walk. (Besides, it would be so hard to go to the mall for the movie and NOT get a cookie from Mrs. Fields!)

I weighed myself this morning, and it was not good at all. I knew I had gained weight while in Illinois (I always gain when I eat out, and we did a lot of eating out). But now, a week later, I'm still 4 pounds up from where I was before we left (148).

I've been doing really well with counting calories, and not binge eating. It's been super hard to get back on track, but I keep reminding myself that I was already over my maintenance weight range before vacation, so I MUST get back down. I'm just going to keep doing what I've been doing all week, and hopefully, I'll be back to normal soon.

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Racing plans

When I woke up this morning, I practically dove into my workout clothes to do my Wii Active workout. Not because I was excited to do it, but because I was excited to get it done.

If that makes sense.

Today was workout #16 of 20, and it was a tough one! Lots of squats, jump squats, inline skating (more squatting and jumping), and the infamous squat hold. Again, I had to do two squat holds (where you squat and hold it for 60 seconds). I made it through both squat holds for the entire 60 seconds! I was literally dripping sweat during today's workout.

Tomorrow is a rest day to prepare for my 14-miler on Saturday. I'm nervous about the race. My plan is to get there at around 7:15, run 8 miles, and then pick up my packet just before the 10K starts (starting time is 9:00). I really wish I could try to PR--I'm dying to know if my race times have improved--but I have to stick with my marathon training plan, and there was no way to fit that in easily.

When my marathon is over, I am retiring that distance (for real this time!). I can't wait to get back to training for 10K's and half-marathons. I like trying to run hard to improve my time, and I can't remember the last time I actually raced hard. I think it was in October 2011, at a 10K. I have a half-marathon on September 1st, have I haven't yet decided if I'm going to race hard or just treat it as a training run.

I think I might try and find a half-marathon in November to do. I'll be in good running shape from having just done the marathon in mid-October, so I won't have much training to do. My next big race after the marathon is Ragnar Florida Keys, and you know I can't wait for that!!

After my workout this morning, I took Noah to his dentist appointment. I sat in the waiting room with Eli while Noah got his teeth cleaned, and Eli started running laps around the coffee table in the waiting room. Literally, running laps. After about 20 laps, he stopped and asked me, "Mama, did I run a mile yet?" I told him no, that it would take a LOT of laps to run a mile.

And he kept going. Nobody else was in the waiting room, otherwise I would have made him stop. But I'll embrace any opportunity for him to get out some energy! About 20 more laps, and I told him he probably did about a quarter mile. He kept going. He actually probably ended up running a half-mile total, all around the coffee table. And I thought it was boring to run on a treadmill?

When Noah came out, the hygienist told me that he has FIVE cavities!! I was stunned. I'm 30 years old, and I've only had 3 cavities in my life. I let the kids brush their own teeth, but I'm terrible about making them floss, so I'm going to change that starting today. The hygienist said the cavities were probably because his teeth are pretty tight together, and he's not flossing. So now he has three appointments to get the cavities filled (they do separate appointments so that they only have to numb a little of his mouth at a time).

I have a couple of anniversaries coming up--my nine-year wedding anniversary is August 16th (next Thursday), and the three-year anniversary of when I started losing weight is on August 19th (next Sunday). I haven't decided what to do for either of the anniversaries yet. Jerry and I usually don't really celebrate our wedding anniversary, so I don't know if we'll do anything. But I kind of want to do something to celebrate my weight loss anniversary!

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A Day at the Beach (and a treadmill workout)

I reeeeally didn't want to run today.

But strangely, the treadmill was calling to me more-so than running outside. I chugged some water and then grudgingly got on the treadmill. On the schedule today was a tempo run--20 minutes easy, then 20 minutes at tempo pace, then 10 minutes easy, for a total of 50 minutes.

About a minute in, I started thinking about going outside instead. I was debating in my head which would go by faster; I decided to give the treadmill 10 minutes and then decide. I got caught up in an episode of The Biggest Loser, so then I decided to stay on the treadmill. I always have to do little mind games to make myself get a workout in!

I was planning on my tempo speed being 7.0, but after about 5 minutes, I thought, "I really don't know if I can maintain this for 20 minutes today!" and I decided to take it down to 6.6. Then at the end, I went back up to 7.0 for the last 5 minutes.

The chart doesn't look nearly as fun as it does when I do sprints.

After my run, I still had to do my Wii Active workout (#15 of 20). It was mostly shoulders and arms today, which was good because my legs were pretty sore from yesterday's squats.

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My older brother Brian came in for the day from Minnesota. We ended up going to the beach at the state park. I don't like to swim, but I love to sit in the shade and feel the breeze off the lake. It felt great! The boys had a blast playing in the sand.

Noah got up after that photo, but Eli just laid there for the longest time. I thought he might actually fall asleep.

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Check out this awesome Manager's Special that I spotted at Kroger:

Yes, that reads $0.09 per bar. I don't know if that was a typo when they made the stickers, but I was pretty impressed with that! Usually the "manager's special" items mean that it's going to expire soon, but these don't expire for about six months. So I have no idea why they were so cheap. But I bought all they had (7 bars).

I wasn't completely WOW'ed by the taste of the bars, and I probably wouldn't buy them if they weren't so cheap, but I couldn't resist when I saw that price.

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I was going over my 30-in-30 list, and I got a little overwhelmed with all the goals I haven't crossed off yet. I think when I wrote the list, I underestimated the amount of time training for a marathon would take up... let alone TWO marathons in the same year! I think tomorrow I may narrow it down to a list of monthly goals, so I don't feel so overwhelmed. And some of the goals I had included on the list don't really seem that important anymore, so I may change them up. Or get rid of them altogether.

I think what I'm saying is that I'm done working on that 30-in-30 list because I probably won't be able to get it all done, and I'm going to make another goal list ;) I think sticking to monthly goals will be much easier for me to keep track of.

I can't believe it's the second week of August already!

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Anatomy lesson

My legs are going to be SO sore tomorrow.

My Wii Active workout today was really tough! When I first looked at it, it was the typical stuff... but then I noticed this:

When I first started this challenge, there were just alternating lunges--which I thought were hard enough. Then they introduced jump lunges, which are much harder. And then most recently, I had to do squat holds--squat to where your thighs are parallel to the floor and hold for 60 seconds.

The first time that came up, I was at my sister's house. I made it about 40 seconds on the first try before having to take a break. Then the next time, I could barely squeeze out 30 seconds before a break. Today, I spent the first 11 exercises dreading that squat hold! When it was time to do it, I started the squat and then tried to distract myself--I was asking Eli a bunch of questions. I actually made it through the whole 60 seconds without taking a break!

My legs felt so tired, but I had to go right into three sets of lunges--good grief. And then I had to follow those with another squat hold, which I was SURE I wasn't going to be able to get through. I made a goal to get through 30 seconds of it. Again, I tried to distract myself. Eli was counting down the seconds, but that was making it go so slowly. At 30 seconds, I said "Just 10 more, then you can take a break". Then at 40, I said, "You're more than halfway, you can do 10 more". At 50, I said, "You can do ANYTHING for 10 seconds"... and I did it! Two squat holds for 60 seconds. Maybe that's a piece of cake for some of you, but it was very tough for me!

Finished up the workout, and noticed that I only have six left until I complete the 30-Day Challenge:

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I watched a movie with the kids today called Gifted Hands: The Ben Carson Story. I liked that the kids wanted to watch it with me, because I thought it had a lot of good lessons in it--about bullying, working hard for what you want, doing well in school, and stuff like that. What I was NOT expecting, however, was to have the conversation that followed a woman's miscarriage.

Noah: "Can the mom and dad have more babies?"
Me: "Yes, they can."
Noah: "How?"
Me: (Starting to get nervous) "Well, when they decide they're ready, they can choose to have more."
Noah: "But how does the baby get in there?"
Me: (Heart starting to race) "Well, remember in your anatomy books, about the sperm and the egg? The man has a sperm, and the woman has an egg, and when the two come together, it makes a baby. Then the baby grows in the mom's belly for a long time until it's ready to come out." (Praying that the conversation is over).
Noah: "How do the sperm and the egg come together?"
Me: (Dies)

I really didn't want to make a huge deal out of it, because then he might think it's shameful or something. My parents NEVER told me what sex was. So I did what I always planned on doing--gave him the facts, using proper terms. I hope that I didn't come across as embarrassed or anything--I was just totally taken by surprise by the whole thing!

I asked Noah if he understood, and he had me explain it one more time. Then, the only thing he said was, "Oh, I remember in my book it said that the first sperm to get to the egg makes the baby! What if there is a tie?"  Hahaha, so I don't think he's scarred for life. ;)

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It's gone!

First, I just want to thank you all so much for the overwhelmingly kind comments on yesterday's post! I was really nervous to post it, but after reading the all the positive feedback, I am glad that I did.

When I woke up this morning, I was going to get ready to run on the treadmill when I noticed our internet was out. Which meant I couldn't watch a show on Netflix while on I was running (a MUST if I'm going to be running on the treadmill. Jerry said it was only 60 degrees outside, so I decided to run outside instead.

I got dressed and ready to head out, when I noticed that my Garmin was dead. I put it on the charger, and I was just going to charge it long enough to last through my run. While I waited, I decided to take my iPod with me (I usually run without it). That was dead, too, so I plugged it in to charge.

After about 15 minutes, I grabbed my Garmin and was about to head outside when Eli woke up and asked "Is it 'up time'?" Jerry had just gone to bed (he worked nights), so I didn't want to wake him up to take care of the kids. I decided that for some reason, God just didn't want me to run outside today, and I resorted to the treadmill.

Thankfully, by that time, the internet was back up, so I was able to watch an episode of The Biggest Loser while I ran. On the schedule was a 60 minute easy run, with 8 pick-ups (30 second sprints). So I set my Garmin for intervals--7 minutes easy, 30 seconds fast.

Running at 10.0 mph is scary-fast! It blows my mind that people run that speed for miles and miles. I really felt like I was going to fly off the back of the treadmill.

I felt really good after that run, and I needed that after Friday's disaster. I was feeling really down yesterday about cutting my run short on Friday.

To ensure that it won't happen again this week, I've come up with a plan: I'm going to run a 10K race AFTER I run 8 miles. There is a 10K race this Saturday, and it happens to be on my favorite running path--the same path I do my long runs. So I'm going to get there early, and run four miles out from the starting area, then turn around and run back (8 miles); then I will run the 10K race (not trying to go fast--just at my normal training pace). There is no way I will stop mid-race!

I'm definitely going to prepare better on Friday, also. I will eat really well, not have any alcohol, get plenty of sleep, etc. I was totally unprepared going into Friday's run, and I know that if I had been better prepared, I would have finished it.

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So this happened today:

Remember when I hoarded all that peanut butter for the shortage? Well, we finished off the last jar of it today. We went through a LOT of peanut butter in the last 10 months.

This is probably about HALF of what I had stocked

So if you double all of what you see in the picture, that is what we ate (I say "we" meaning my family, but you know I just mean "me"). That's not even including the flavored peanut butters! I really should keep track of how many jars I go through in a year. Now that I think about, maybe I'm contributing to the peanut shortage...

I really should have titled my blog "Runs for Peanut Butter".

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I've gotten a lot of questions lately about the Wii Active 30-Day Challenge that I'm doing. It's not part of the Wii Fit, and you don't need the Wii Fit to do it. It's a totally separate game. It's called EA Sports Active.
The Amazon price listed is $24.92, and that includes the accessories you need to play. You CAN use a balance board with it, but it isn't necessary. There is also an Active 2 game, but I don't have that one. I think I'm going to buy it when I'm done with this challenge.

Anyway, the 30-Day Challenge is just part of the game... you can do the challenge or just do the workouts whenever you feel like. I've had a goal to finish the challenge ever since I got the game, and I'm determined to finish it this time! I actually really like it--as much as I grumble about the lunges, and inline skating, and all that, I've noticed a difference for sure since I started using it a few weeks ago. The exercises aren't nearly as hard as they were on Day 1, so I must be getting better at it!

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A Little of My History

I don't have any Q&A's to post, so I decided to do something a little different today and write about my history with my weight. I don't know that I've ever really written it all out in one spot before (other than in a memoir, and who knows if anything will ever happen with that!).

Since my Ragnar team has all shared their stories, I will go ahead and share mine (in a nutshell). I'm a little nervous to post this, because it's pretty personal, but I feel like I share everything else, so I might as well!

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Cliché of all clichés, I was overweight or obese my entire adult life, and most of my childhood. The first I can recall of someone calling attention to my size was in the fourth grade--a boy named Richard gave me the nickname "Shamu" (and he was probably 10 pounds heavier than I was!). That is when I remember going on my first diet.

I experimented with all kinds of diets, usually some form of whatever diet my mom was on (Slim Fast, counting fat grams, Weight Watchers, etc.). I don't remember ever losing much weight on the diets, however. I do remember being very ashamed of my weight, and it was around that time that I started binge eating.

I would sneak Kudos bars from my grandma's cupboard and eat them very fast, so nobody would catch me. I don't know why I worried about it, because I'm sure my grandma would have given them to me if I'd asked.

I didn't know what depression was at the time, but in retrospect, it was around that time that I started feeling depressed. I didn't want to go anywhere, or do anything, and I just wasn't happy. I remember finding a book in my mom's dresser titled, "Helping Your Depressed Teenager". It was then that I started reading about depression, and realized that I had it.

I never made excuses for my weight, knowing that it was because I was eating too much. My family (all "normal" sized) never said a word about my weight, good or bad, but I was teased in school. In high school, my family moved (my parents found their "dream house"), and I started at a new school in 10th grade. I loved it, because I wasn't teased anymore for my weight, and I made some great friends.

In 11th grade, I was writing a story for the school newspaper, and I had to go to other schools in the county to interview randomly selected students for the story. At one of the schools, a boy caught my eye--I thought he was cute, and he was very funny. I was at a friend's house many months later, when I saw the boy again. I learned his name was Jerry, and we exchanged phone numbers.

He called me the next day, and we went out. I knew on our first date that he was the boy I was going to marry (again with the clichés!). I had never even had a boyfriend before, but I was sure he was "the one". We fell into the habit of eating lots of fast food and watching movies, and as a consequence, we both put on some weight.

Then I went to college, and with the freedom of living on campus came the freedom of eating whatever I wanted. There was food everywhere, and I had a prepaid card that I could use to buy anything I wanted. I gained a lot of weight in college, thanks to the food on campus and lots of alcohol.

Jerry and I got engaged when I was 20 years old, and I was determined not to be a fat bride. I dieted my way down to 160 pounds for my wedding day (actually reaching an all-time low of 152 for one day, then gaining 8 pounds before the wedding). The day after the wedding, I started eating and just couldn't stop.

I was gaining weight very quickly. I became pregnant with Noah just a couple of months after the wedding, so I used the pregnancy as an excuse for my rapid weight gain. I kept telling myself that I would lose it after the baby was born, because breastfeeding burns tons of calories (or so I'd read).

I weighed 228 when I delivered Noah. And ironically, my milk never came in--I wasn't able to breastfeed, which I was banking on to help me lose some weight.

I started Nutrisystem and got down to about 180 when I became pregnant with Eli. I tried so hard not to gain so much weight, but I weighed 271 the day I delivered Eli (a 91 pound gain!). I couldn't believe I had let myself get that big! And again, my milk never came in (despite the fact that I even took a lactation drug to help), so breastfeeding was out.

My depression got worse and worse, especially after I had Eli. I was too embarrassed to let my friends see me, and how much weight I'd gained, so I quit talking to a lot of them. For a couple of years, I was a homebody, avoiding any social situations. I went to see a therapist, but the therapist knew absolutely nothing about binge eating disorder.

Literally... the therapist asked if I had an eating disorder (going down the list of medical questions) and I said yes, binge eating disorder. She looked confused, so I explained. Then she said, "Oh, but you don't have a real eating disorder, like making yourself throw up?" Needless to say, that was the last time I saw her ;)

My weight settled around 250 pounds for a couple of years. Being obese like that was extremely difficult--physically, mentally, and socially. One day in August 2009, my sister was visiting, and we decided to take the training wheels off of Noah's bicycle and teach him to ride. He wanted me to run up and down the street next to his bike while he learned.

I'd barely moved at all when I was huffing and puffing and felt like I would collapse. I couldn't believe how out of shape I was, even though I was 253 pounds at the time, and I felt like the worst mom ever. I had to ask my sister to take over, and I sat and watched as she taught my son to ride a bike. I was so mad at myself, and I vowed that when it was Eli's turn to learn to ride a two-wheeler, I was going to be the one to teach him. (And I did! You can see that video on this post)

That was my turning point, and over the next 16 months, I lost 125 pounds. I'd never been so determined in my life to finally reach a "normal" weight. The only thing that was really different this time is that I started running--and I set running goals to keep me motivated. When I lost weight before, I never exercised. This time, I got hooked on running, and that is how I'm able to keep the weight off. Here is the video of my transformation:

I still struggle with binge eating, and I hope to someday overcome it. I tend to binge when I get really stressed or anxious. I also still struggle with depression--I have good days, and bad days; good weeks, and bad weeks. But I've learned that as bad as I may feel one day, I will almost surely feel better in a day or two. If I'm feeling really down, I know that going for a run ALWAYS makes me feel better.

Starting this blog has done wonders for my self-confidence. I'm still very much an introvert, but I've "met" so many amazing people because of this blog, that I'm feeling more confident in social situations. It has also opened up a lot of opportunities for me (The Dr. Oz Show, The Ragnar Relay Project, being named a Fitterati for Fitness magazine, and tons more). Those are all things the "old" me never would have done!

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