"Get it over with!"

There is something I've been wanting to write about ever since Andrea was here, but things were busy, and I never got a good chance to.

Like me, Andrea (who has lost 130 pounds) gained back a little bit of weight last year. And like me, she spent a lot of time thinking about and worrying about getting back down to goal. When she talked to her Weight Watchers leader about it, her leader told her to "Get it over with!" so that it stops taking up so much space in her head. "Why are you dragging this out? Just do it and get it over with."

When Andrea told me that, something really clicked for me. I've spent nearly an entire year now talking about getting back to goal, working on getting back to goal, making plans to get back to goal, etc... but I'm still not there. A year was PLENTY of time to drop 20 pounds! The amount of time and energy I've spent toward this simple (not to be confused with "easy") task has been astronomical.

What Andrea's leader meant when she said "Get it over with!" is that the sooner we get back to goal, the sooner we can stop worrying about getting back to goal. I make light of it a lot on my blog, but being over my goal weight causes me a ton of unnecessary anxiety and stress. I think I look okay where I'm at, and I feel okay; but I also know that I looked and felt a million times better when I was at my goal weight (nearly all of 2013).

This is probably my favorite picture of me at goal. Not necessarily because
of how I looked, but because I also felt very confident.

I don't feel like the same person I was a year ago--that person was super confident and determined not to get derailed. Since then, I gained some weight back, and along with the gain, I lost a lot of the confidence I used to have. I used to accept compliments and believe them; but now, when someone tells me I look good, I automatically think, "Why are they saying that? I've gained weight." (This is a self-confidence issue that started when I gained some weight, and not necessarily related to how I actually look.)

It's not that I haven't been trying to get back to my goal weight--I wake up every single day with the plan of doing what I did to lose the weight in the first place (measuring portions, counting points, logging food). But something derails me, and I just think, "Oh, well, I'll just write it off and start over." And that attitude tacks on another couple of days to the amount of time it will take me to get back to goal. If I keep doing that, I'm obviously never going to get there!

Here is a recent picture of Andrea, Rik, and me. My confidence in this photo was the complete opposite of the photo above. I was awkwardly standing there, worried about my size, wearing a baggy sweatshirt instead of something fitted. "The old me", basically.

I love the idea of "Just get it over with!" because it helps me to imagine that when I'm at goal, I can stop worrying about getting back to goal. It's not a "finish line" per se, because I will have to work just as hard to maintain my weight when I get there; but at the very least, the anxiety of being over my goal will stop taking up so much space in my head. This is really hard to explain, and I'm not sure it makes any sense, but hearing that from Andrea was a big "Aha!" moment for me.

I wrote "Get it over with!" on a piece of paper and posted it on my fridge, so that I see it every time I'm in the kitchen. My goal is simply to stay on track with my eating so that I can get back down to goal, and stop worrying about getting back to goal. Thinking of it this way has certainly changed my attitude toward "going a little off plan" or "just starting fresh tomorrow". Going off plan will take me even longer to lose the weight, which is all the longer I'll be worrying about it.

Andrea also told me that she does best when she plans out her food for the day. In the mornings, she puts all of her planned meals into the online Weight Watchers tracker, so she knows how many points she may have to play with if she gets hungry. If she changes her mind about what to eat, she can always just change it on the tracker. I loved the idea of using the tracker that way! When I was losing the weight, I used a dry-erase board to plan out my day, and it worked really well. So this week, I've been planning out my day on the tracker in the morning, and it has definitely helped me.

On Sunday, I went to the fruit/veggie market and bought a TON of produce for the week. I forgot just how much stuff I can get for super cheap when I go there. I spent $30, and got all of this:

I've been eating fruits and/or vegetables with every single meal and snack for three days now. Gotta use them up! :)

I bought a ton of bell peppers! When I buy them at Kroger, the red ones are usually $1.50+ each; these were four for $1. I love bell peppers for soup, stuffed peppers, fajitas, etc. For Taste Test Tuesday, I decided to use some of the peppers. I wanted fajitas, but since I'm supposed to be taste testing a new recipe, I searched Pinterest and came across Chicken Fajita Stuffed Peppers. Sounded good to me!

The prep for this recipe takes a while, and uses a lot of dishes, but I hoped it would be worth it. The only change I made to the recipe was that I used 2 teaspoons of oil instead of 2 Tablespoons. (Also, my peppers were very small, so I got 11 pepper halves instead of 10 out of the batch.) They didn't look very appetizing when I took them out of the oven, but sometimes the best food isn't very pretty.

I added a little sour cream and diced avocado, and they were really good! When I tasted the filling by itself, I thought it was kind of bland; but when eaten with the pepper, it was delicious. My only complaint about the recipe is that the peppers were too soft after cooking them twice (you cook them before stuffing them, and then bake them with the filling). Next time, I won't cook them before stuffing them. But other than that, I really liked this recipe and will definitely make it again.

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Motivational Monday #94

Happy Motivational Monday! I was thrilled to see how full the MM inbox was this morning--apparently lots of you had a great week :)

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Last January, Marcie started running for my Runs for Cookies Virtual 5K. Fast forward a year later, and she just completed her first half-marathon! She is super proud for being able to run the entire distance, and it's looking forward to doing another one.

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Theresa has been on a mission to lose 60 pounds by her 60th birthday, and she is happy to report that she is halfway to her goal, with 31 pounds lost! Even though it is coming off slowly, she's been steadily losing since last April--even through the weddings of her two sons, and a move that was 3,000 miles away from her family and friends. She said the keys to her success include: walking at least four times a week, logging her food on My Fitness Pal, trying new recipes, reading health/fitness blogs, and a very supportive husband. Her next endeavor is a half-marathon walk in May! (Theresa's blog)

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In April 2014, Leona and her husband set a lofty goal: to complete the Disney weekend 10K on January 9, 2015. At the time, the couple could barely walk three miles, and had to keep in mind that Disney had pace requirements to finish the 10K. Come race morning, Leona is proud to share that she ran the entire 10K--no walking or resting!

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After losing 60 pounds (and maintaining that loss!) Celeste went from not being able to run a block to being on the cover of a digital running magazine! It came about when she posted the photo on Instagram, and "Marathon Running" magazine saw it--they asked her for more info, and viola--here she is on the cover. They even included her story inside!  (Celeste's blog)

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Beth (on the right) started her weight loss journey in 2012, and met her goal in July 2014. She lost 70 pounds, and gained a love for running. When she ran/walked her first 5K in 2011, she thought it would be a "one and done" deal. She ran her first half-marathon in 2013, she was hooked. Last weekend, she and her sister Ashley ran the Dopey Challenge in Disney World--a 5K, 10K, half-marathon, and full-marathon over four days!

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Jennifer just completed her first half-marathon! She ran the Winter Warrior half-marathon in Rochester, New York, which started at 4:00 pm--finishing after sunset. The temp was in the teens, but the windchill was sub-zero! She was hoping to finish under 3 hours, but nothing could have prepared her for that cold weather. Her legs cramped up and she had to walk the last three miles, but she never quit (although it was tempting!). Thanks to a volunteer's encouragement, she pushed herself and got it done, finishing in 3:18!

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Cherie set a goal to complete three 5K races before her 50th birthday in May. The first one was on this past Saturday, and her goal was to not finish last. She did great! She completed the race, and wasn't even close to being last. She's going to do another 5K next month, and is going to set a time goal to aim for.

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Tracy had an awesome 2014 as far as running goes. She ran 15 races, including 4 full marathons, and she set PR's in the 5K and 10K. She was even pushing a stroller during the 10K that she PR'ed! She finished off the year by doing the Hansons Marathon Method to train with her mother-in-law for the Carlsbad Marathon. It paid off big when her mother-in-law finished in 3:59, qualifying for Boston! For 2015, Tracy has a goal to run a marathon distance once a month (either a race or a training run). Yesterday, she completed her first of 12--waking up at 4:45 AM to run 19 miles on the treadmill and 7.2 outside!

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Erin set a 2015 goal of participating in a race once a month for the year. She just completed her first race of the year, the MEC Calgary 5K! She's not running yet, but is working toward it. She and her best friend walked the 5K in 55 minutes and had a blast!

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Katie took up running last year, and then sort of put it on the back burner during the summer. She is now back to working on her weight loss/running goals, and is very proud of how's she's done so far this month. She's lost weight for three weeks in a row, and yesterday, she did her first hill training run, which definitely gave her a runner's high! She's now training for her first half-marathon in May. (Katie's blog)

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If you have a Motivational Monday photo you'd like to submit, you can email them to me anytime during the week.

For the 100th MM post (in about 6-8 weeks from now) I'm planning to share before and after photos/stories of anyone who has lost 100+ pounds--so if that's you, please consider sharing! Just use the subject "100" when sending the email to motivationalmonday (at) runsforcookies (dot) com.

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A visit to Grand Rapids

Oh, boy. While I wish I was writing this post from sunny Phoenix as planned, I am actually still in Michigan.

On Friday morning, I got up at 4:00 to get ready to head to the airport. I was using a buddy pass to fly to Phoenix, and all week leading up to the flights, my brother said the flights looked pretty open. He was very confident I would have no trouble getting on. I had been planning to take a noon flight, but on Thursday, Brian said I should take the earlier 8:30 flight, because the flights were filling up quickly.

Anyway, the weekend was all set--my parents were going to watch the kids while Jerry was at work, I'd stay at Sarah's in Phoenix, and arrive home Monday. Jerry drove me to the airport at 6:15, and I went through security and found the gate. I told the gate agent I was flying stand-by, and she checked the list for me--she said I was last on the list, and the flight was pretty full. She also said if I did get on, I would likely be at the back of the plane (as a nervous flyer, I have severe anxiety about sitting behind the wings; I have to be as close to the front as possible).

I sat down and watched the stand-by screen, hoping that my name would pop up on the "cleared" list. It was looking less likely that I'd get on by the minute, and I was a nervous wreck! Nervous about getting on the plane (sitting in the back) and also about not getting on the plane (and missing out on this trip).

Brian called me and said that the noon flight was even worse. The gate agent told me there was pretty much zero chance of getting on that one. So I could have tried for a late flight (which also didn't look promising), or a flight on Saturday morning, but that wouldn't have given me much time with Sarah. I decided that if I didn't get on the 8:30 flight, I'd just reschedule the trip (and buy a confirmed ticket!).

Long story short, I didn't get on. I was so bummed. Sarah was disappointed, but she understood, and we decided to reschedule.

I started trying to think of somewhere else I could go. I already had a packed suitcase, and Brian could list me on a flight with a moment's notice. But I imagine that nobody would appreciate me just showing up on their doorstep, so I just called Jerry to pick me up ;)

While I waited for him, I had the idea to go with Jerry to Grand Rapids. Grand Rapids is a city in Michigan about 2 1/2 hours from home. There are a lot of breweries there, including Founder's, which is Jerry's favorite craft beer. Jerry's been talking about going there for a long time, and neither of us had ever been there (surprising, considering it's so close).

So we checked with my parents about the kids, and Jerry got a friend to fill in for him at work (thanks Steve!) and as soon as we got home, we packed a small bag and headed out the door. We weren't going for the whole weekend--just for Friday night.

We got a hotel in downtown Grand Rapids, so it was within walking distance of the breweries. First, we walked to Founder's. Jerry was giddy with excitement.

I'm not a beer person, but there are a few beers I like. Unfortunately, I've never tasted a Founder's beer that I liked! Jerry ordered a flight, and I decided to take a sip of each of those, just to give them a whirl. Haha, my face looked like this after each taste!

After a sip of "Big Lushious"

We planned to have lunch there, but I wasn't very hungry, so I just had a few chips and guacamole. Jerry said Founder's felt very touristy, and I agreed, so we walked about a half mile to Grand Rapids Brewery. They had a whole wall of wine, so I ordered a glass of Pinot Grigio, and Jerry tried another flight of beer. Again, I took a tiny sip of each of his, but didn't care for any of them. The menu at Grand Rapids Brewery was VERY interesting. Jerry ordered a Scotch Egg:

It's an egg encased in sausage, and he thought it was amazing. They even had a burger with bacon, peanut butter, and pretzel bits--?! If I had been hungry, I probably would have braved it and gave it a try.

We just stayed there until I finished my glass of wine and Jerry finished his flight, and then we headed out again. We walked back toward the hotel, where there was another brewery--The B.O.B. (it stands for Big Old Building). This place was AWESOME--we ended up spending the rest of the afternoon/evening there. We got there just before 4:00, so it was pretty empty; but when I saw they had wine for $3 for happy hour from 4-6, I was definitely "happy" about that :)

We found some comfy chairs and sat there to talk.

We ordered some buffalo chicken rolls, and they were SO amazing. They were kind of like an egg roll, but with buffalo chicken goodness inside. Anyway, happy hour seemed to fly by. There was a woman and her son who came in and started playing pool at the table that was right in front of us. It was kind of evident that her son has special needs, and Jerry and I thought it was really cool that she and her son were out together playing pool on a Friday night. He went to the bar to pay her tab (doing something nice in honor of Mark!)--and then we all started chatting.

Jerry ended up playing pool with her son while she and I talked. Her son is 27, and had an accident when he was 18 months old that caused him to lose oxygen to his brain, resulting in his intellectual disability. I told her about Mark, and how sad it was to see some of the men at his group home whose families just leave them there. I loved that she was out spending time with her son. She said they were staying the night there because they were going to see the motocross show that evening.

Anyway, they were lovely people, and it was great meeting them! Shortly after they left, a couple of guys came in and started playing pool at that table. Jerry pulled up a picture of Tim Tebow on his phone to show me (I had no clue who Tim Tebow is) and said, "Look at that guy. He's obviously not Tim Tebow, but he looks so much like him!" And sure enough, they were pretty much identical!

I asked him (I learned that his name is Aaron) if anyone ever told him that he looks like Tim Tebow, and he said yes, he's gotten that before. I asked if I could get a picture. Check out the resemblance!

Jerry and I went to a comedy show upstairs at 8:30, and then headed back to the hotel after that. It was SUCH a fun night! We didn't do anything crazy--just mellowed out at the bar--but we met some great people and laughed a lot, which was a blast.

I was bummed about missing out on Phoenix, but maybe it'll work out better this way. Since my ankle is injured right now, I wouldn't be able to hike in Sedona, which is something I wanted to do. If we reschedule, hopefully my ankle will be good to go. So while Grand Rapids wasn't exactly Phoenix, Jerry and I had a great night!

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I will be doing a Motivational Monday tomorrow after all, so if you have something to submit, please email it to me as soon as  you can. Hope you all had a great weekend!

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My first deep water run

I slept so good last night! I really needed that. It's very rare that I sleep through the night without waking up five or six times. I had a bunch of weird dreams, and when I woke up this morning, I was totally confused for a minute.

I was kind of excited to use the AquaJogger for the first time today. It feels like I haven't run in MONTHS, but it's actually only been 11 days. I keep feeling this pit in my stomach, thinking that I'll never get to run again. I've been resting as much as possible, and have probably only gotten 4,000 steps per day max. It's like I can feel my muscles wasting away (dramatic, yes). I can't do squats or lunges or anything like that, because it bothers my ankle, so I haven't done any cross-training since I've been injured. But I'm really determined to get my ankle back to normal before I start marathon training.

And of course, I miss earning activity PointsPlus! I was used to earning about 50 PP per week from exercise, and cutting back on that much food is hard. So the deep water running will help me to earn some of those points.

Anyway, I've been reading so many great things about deep water running--people have used that to continue training for important races, and have done well (even setting PRs) in their races. So, I am hopeful that if I use this as a training method, I won't have such a hard time going back to running on ground when my ankle is better. I'm still going to ease back into running; I just hope the transition is easier. Here is the backstory to the AquaJogger:

After I got the kids off to school, I got ready to head to the pool. One of the reasons I really dislike swimming is because of all the stuff it requires--bathing suit, towel, change of clothes, hair brush (I always forget this, and then my hair is in a huge knot), lock for the locker, etc. But maybe if I start packing it the night before, I won't feel so rushed in the mornings.

I had to renew my membership at the rec center, so I'm good for another year--someone please hold me accountable to getting my money's worth this year! ;) I changed into my bathing suit, and brought the AquaJogger belt out to the pool with me. I was really nervous to give it a try, because I thought that the lifeguard would surely know if my form was all wrong or something. I had tried doing deep water running without a belt before, just for the heck of it, but it was really difficult to stay upright. So I hoped the belt would help.

There were a few people in the swimming lanes, so I was glad I wasn't the only one in the pool! I put on the belt and quickly got into the deep end of the pool. I just tried to focus on my form and then started "running" in the water. I read the workout guide book that came with the belt, and it gave some tips on form, so I was trying to make sure that I was doing that correctly.

Surprisingly, it actually felt pretty natural! It was much easier than I imagined it to be. It was easier to focus on my arms, and as long as I was doing the arm motion correctly, my legs did a natural running motion. It felt kind of like running in place, only I wasn't touching the ground. I wasn't really expecting to move forward, but as I ran in place, my body just kept inching forward.

The thing I was most surprised about was that the time flew by! I discovered that it took roughly one minute to cross the deep end of the pool; so I just kept "running" across, and then turning around and running back. I was planning to do 30 minutes, but I liked it enough that I wanted to go longer.

The hard part was seeing the people above me run on the track. I saw my friend Alicia running, so I waved to her. From the pool, it's very easy to see one end of the track, so I kept watching the people run by as I ran in place. I wanted to be up there running so badly! But I really did enjoy the deep water running.

It was a REALLY good workout, too. Occasionally, I would run hard for a minute or two, and then slow down (intervals, basically), and my legs felt so tired after the hard intervals. Another bonus to running in the water is that I wasn't dripping with sweat--the water kept me cool, which was nice. I had pulled my hair into a high bun, so it didn't even get wet (yay) and I just had to rinse off when I was done (I had taken a shower when I woke up, and I really didn't want to have to re-shower). So even though it was a little bit of a hassle to pack a bag to go to the pool, it made up for it in that I didn't have to come home and shower (again).

I was really surprised to see that Weight Watchers actually lists "water jogging" as an exercise. I had done 45 minutes, which gave me 8 PointsPlus! That's the same as if I had run outside. I don't know if I really feel I deserve that many, so I may try to just eat half of them, but it's nice to see those activity points.

I'm going to order a belt for Jerry, too. I think it would be fun for us to go "run" together, and would certainly help the time pass. Even after I'm able to run on ground again, I think the deep water running would be good cross training. Next time I go, I'll bring the kids' underwater cameras and see if they can get a video of it.

I have to say, I think using this AquaJogger belt would be awesome exercise for ANYONE--not just runners. The book shows different exercises you can do, but for anyone looking to exercise, it's a good workout without any impact. By wearing the belt, you are basically suspended in the water up to your neck. The floatation part is on the small of your back, so it doesn't impede movement at all (like a lifejacket would). I only used it for 45 minutes today, but already, I highly recommend it!

Anyway, the first day of deep water running was a big success! I'm actually really looking forward to going again. I leave for Phoenix tomorrow morning and don't come home until Monday, so I'm not sure how much I'll be posting over the weekend, if at all. Hope you all have a great weekend!

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Bullets

I love lists--especially blog posts that are done entirely in bullet points. I don't know why I don't do this more often!

• I hate raw tomatoes, but because I wanted to make that dill pickle sandwich yesterday, I bought the little baby ones called for in the recipe. The recipe was very specific in that you shouldn't change anything, so I wanted to make it as-written. I'm now obsessed with these little tomatoes! The sandwich was amazing, and it's my new favorite breakfast/lunch/dinner, but as I was preparing the sandwich, I decided to try a tomato plain. Then I kept taking a couple every time I walked past them in the kitchen. I'm going to buy some to take on the plane with me Friday.

• My AquaJogger arrived today! I'm going to take it for a spin swim run? tomorrow. There is never anyone in the pool when I go to the rec center, so it's going to be totally embarrassing to have the lifeguard watch as I try and learn how to do this deep water running! 

• I started a new puzzle today. As you can see, I didn't get much done on it. But I love working on puzzles, because I don't want to stop to eat! I like that puzzles come with a mini poster of what the puzzle will look like. It's really helpful when putting it together.

• I was so bored last night that I took a quiz on BuzzFeed called "What's your drunk alter ego?" I'm not sure if I'm happy to be a "Momma Bear". That just sounds lame! But sadly, the description is pretty true ;)

• I have a pretty great prize for the Virtual 5K... I'll announce later this week, but here's a hint: It rhymes with "barman" (I just now learned that that's another word for bartender). I need one more prize and then I'll announce them.
• I impulsively bought a rice cooker shortly after Thanksgiving, because it was half off, and I wanted to give it a try. I had a rice cooker years ago, but I hated it, because my rice always burned to the sides and bottom. I'm glad I tried a new one, because I LOVE IT. It makes absolutely perfect rice every time (I've made several different types of rice in it, too). It doesn't get burned, and it's not mushy; it's just very fluffy and perfectly cooked. Mine is this Black & Decker Rice Cooker.

• CLIF Bar sent me a couple of samples of their new bar flavors: Nuts & Seeds, and Berry Pomegranate Chia. I liked the Nuts & Seeds one, but my favorite flavor is still the Trail Mix one (with a smear of peanut butter on top!).

• I leave for Phoenix on Friday (well, hopefully... I'm flying on a buddy pass, so if the flight is full, I won't even make it on the plane; but my brother said it looks good). I feel totally unprepared for this trip! I wish I was able to do the half-marathon, but it'll be fun to just be a spectator. I'll try and be the best spectator out there! I'll also be able to see a couple of my Ragnar teammates (Meredith from my From Fat to Finish Line team, and Martha from my Strangers to Sole Mates team), as well as Angela (the producer of the documentary From Fat to Finish Line). And of course, it'll be fun to celebrate birthdays with Sarah!

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Dill pickles

I didn't receive any submissions for Motivational Monday yesterday, which is why there was no post. I leave for Phoenix on Friday, and won't be home until Monday evening, so I likely won't have a MM post next week, either. But if you have a submission, feel free to send it! I'll just save it for later.

Yesterday, Jerry was off work and the roads weren't all that great, so we stayed home and had a really lazy day. We had about six episodes of The Blacklist on our DVR, so we finally watched those (well, five of them). I drank a ton of hot tea yesterday, trying to stay warm.

My parents are dog-sitting for Bailey, my little brother's black lab. My mom was going to be gone all afternoon, so she asked if we would want to take Bailey for a walk. Even though I'm not much of a dog person, I really like Bailey, so I was excited to walk her.

Jerry and I drove over there, and she was thrilled to see us, especially when she saw me pick up her leash. As soon as I got her outside, I knew it was going to be a challenge to walk her in the snow/ice. The roads were completely covered in packed snow, which was REALLY slippery. Bailey isn't the greatest on a leash (she pulls), and I almost immediately biffed it into the snow.

I was worried about messing up my ankle (which was feeling really good!) so Jerry took the leash and I walked next to him. I hoped Bailey would calm down a bit as we walked, but she almost pulled Jerry over several times, so we decided just to walk the perimeter of the neighborhood (one mile) and call it quits.

When we got home, I was walking from the garage to the house when I slipped and fell. I landed on my hands and knees, and not my back--otherwise I'm sure it would have been worse! But all evening, my bad ankle was nagging me again. I don't know if it was the fall or the fact that I walked on it for a mile, but I'm so bummed. I didn't have any issues with it for a few days, and I hoped that meant it was healing. This morning when I woke up, it was still causing me problems while walking.

I can't get into the doctor for at least a month, so meanwhile, I'm just going to have to continue to rest it. My AquaJogger belt is supposed to be delivered on Thursday (slowest shipping ever!), so as soon as I get that, I'll go renew my membership at the rec center and get started with the deep water running. (Well, probably Tuesday, when I'll be home from Phoenix.)

For Taste Test Tuesday, Eli asked me to make something that I'd pinned on Pinterest a LONG time ago. It's not a super healthy recipe, but Eli really wanted to try it, so I agreed. The recipe is for Dill Pickle Soup. Eli LOVES dill pickles (and dill pickle flavored foods). While I was looking at the recipe, I noticed another recipe on that site for a dill pickle sandwich. I bought the stuff to make that as well, because it sounded SO good.

First--the sandwich. I made it for lunch, and it just has four ingredients: an English muffin, two long pickle slices, some tiny sweet tomatoes, and real mayonnaise. The recipe was very specific about the brand of English muffins, pickles, and tomatoes. So I made sure to make it as specified. And I was not disappointed. It truly was The Best Dill Pickle Sandwich ever! I can see myself making it for lunch every day. And the recipe is right on with the ingredients' brands--I wouldn't change them.

I'm not normally a fan of raw tomatoes, either, but I think they really worked with this sandwich.

As for the soup, I had no idea what to expect. I'd never heard of dill pickle soup! But it looked good in the photo, and like I said, Eli was dying to try it. When I read through the recipe, I couldn't understand why it didn't use a roux. I was tempted to change it up by making a roux, but I wanted to stick to the recipe as written.

When I mixed the sour cream, flour, and water together, it was SUPER thick--a dough. I really didn't want to add that to the soup, because I didn't want to risk having clumps of flour all through the soup. So I just added a cup of the cold pickle juice to it and shook it up (in a container with a lid) until it was super smooth, then poured that into the soup before adding the other cup of pickle juice. It worked out perfectly--no clumps.

Holy yum! This soup was fantastic. Eli loved it, of course, and even Noah (who is super picky) really liked it. It was 11 PointsPlus for 1/6 of the recipe, and I have to say, it's super filling. I would definitely make this again! Maybe the dill pickle sandwiches and a cup of the dill pickle soup for a meal one day ;)

(P.S. I'm not pregnant, I promise. I've just had a bad craving for dill pickles recently!)

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Mini-reunion

This weekend was AMAZING. First of all, though, let me announce the winner of the Altra shoes. I was so excited about the weekend that I forgot to post the winner. A huge congrats to Cathy B.! I've sent you an email. I really hope that you love the Altras as much as I love them!

Friday evening, Eli had his birthday party at the bowling alley. He chose cosmic bowling, so it was dark and the music was really loud--fun for the kids. A little nerve-wracking for me, who was trying to keep an eye on 14 kids! ;) But Eli had a blast, and the party was great.

The party ended at 8:00, so I headed out to the airport while Jerry went home with the boys. Andrea made the flight (she was flying stand-by using a buddy pass from my brother, so her seat wasn't confirmed), and she arrived at around 8:45. We went to my house to drop off her bag, and then went to the bar a couple blocks from my house for drinks and Keno.

I chose my usual three numbers: 11, 25, and 33; and then for my fourth (I always choose a random fourth number), I picked 62, because there were 62 more days until I leave for Portland. It turned out to be a really lucky ticket! (A quick Keno rundown: You choose numbers between 1 and 80 (I always choose four numbers, because that has the best odds of winning). There are 20 numbers pulled per drawing, and if you match two of them, you win $1. If you match three, you win $5. And if you match all four, you win $72... on each drawing.)

I paid for 20 drawings (which cost $1 each, so it was $20 total). On about the fifth drawing, I matched all four numbers, so I won $72! After all 20 drawings were done, my ticket had won a total of $92 (Andrea's won $10, so we had won enough to cover our Keno tickets, our food and drinks, and STILL had money left over. Those kind of nights are the best ;) While we were there, we talked a lot about what's been going on the past couple of years, and it was really nice to catch up.

Yesterday morning, I got a text from Rik from my From Fat to Finish Line team. He had been hoping to drive out here for Saturday night, because Angela (the producer of the documentary) said she was going to try and send us a link to watch the rough cut of the film last night. Since the team was Rik's and my idea, we thought it would be really great if we could watch it together. So yesterday morning, Rik said that he and Cynthia, his wife, were going to head to my house at around noon (it's a six hour drive).

Andrea wanted to try La Pita, because I always talk about it. Even though I just went there for Eli's birthday, of course I was willing to go back! ;) So we went to La Pita for lunch, and it was delicious, as usual. Then we went back to my house to get ready for company in the evening. I made chili and put it in the crock pot, so it would be ready to eat when Rik and Cynthia got there. Andrea made chocolate chip cookies for dessert.

Rik sent me a text when they were in Toledo, which made Dean pop into my head. I kicked myself for not thinking to invite him to come over, too! It just hadn't occurred to me. Dean was really inspired by Rik after hearing about From Fat to Finish Line on a podcast. After hearing the podcast, Dean started running, and changed the way he ate. Long story short, he lost 140-something pounds and just ran his first marathon. So I was really excited for Dean and Rik to meet face-to-face!

I figured it wouldn't hurt to send Dean a quick text to invite him last-minute, and he promptly responded that he'd be here in about an hour. So it worked out really well.

I hadn't told Rik that Andrea was here, so when he arrived, I had Andrea answer the door. He was surprised and shocked to see her, so that was fun. When Dean got here, I made the introductions.

We ate chili and chatted for a while. Angela sent us the link for the film, and we were ridiculously excited to watch it. My mom came over, too, and we all crowded in front of the TV for 96 minutes of viewing time. This project has been in the works for what feels like forever, so to be able to see the rough cut of the film was really exciting.

Because it was just the rough cut, there are still a lot of changes to be made. But it was really fun to see what was there and to reminisce about the whole experience. The only thing that could have been better would be to have the entire team in one room to watch it! Angela will be in Phoenix this weekend, so while I'm there, she wants to film a couple more pieces for the interview. I can also give her some feedback about the film and see what she thinks.

Andrea, Rik, and Cynthia all had to leave this morning. We went to Cracker Barrel for breakfast first, and then I drove Andrea to the airport while Rik and Cynthia hit the road to go home. The visit was short, but super fun!

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Don't forget, tomorrow is Motivational Monday! You can check out this post for submitting a photo. Hope everyone had a great weekend!

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Spontaneous visitor

I don't have time for a proper post, because I have a very exciting (and totally spur-of-the-moment) weekend ahead. This morning, I finished up my new puzzle:

This was 1,000 pieces of confusion, but I love it. I think I may frame it and hang it in the guest bedroom.

Anyway, after I finished the puzzle, I was feeling a little bored and lonely. On a whim, I decided to text my friend Andrea to see if she had plans this weekend. Andrea is from Kansas, and was on my From Fat to Finish Line Ragnar team when we ran Key West in 2013. The last time I saw her was in Key West, so it's been a while!

Andrea and me at the Ragnar awards ceremony

We keep in touch, and I thought I'd throw the idea out there for her to come over for the weekend.

I believe I just said, "Would you want to come over this weekend? My brother will let you use a buddy pass, so you can fly in tomorrow morning--or even tonight!" and about a minute later, she said, "Sure!" Haha, that was at about 2:30 this afternoon. After my brother listed her on the flights, she had 15 minutes to pack and leave for the airport. Eli's birthday party is tonight from 6-8, and Andrea's flight arrives at 8:37. So I'll just leave the party (it's at the bowling alley) and drive right to the airport to pick her up.

I think we'll probably go play Keno or something tonight so we can talk and catch up. I'm super excited to see her! What a spontaneous trip ;)

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Thanks so much for all the kind words on yesterday's post. Not being able to run and being over my goal weight right now make me feel like I've totally lost my identity. Just when I felt like everything was getting really good again (depression and anxiety were bad last year, and toward the end of the year, I was feeling back to my old self), I got injured. It's going to be hard to deal with, but I'm glad to know that I have such great support from all of you!

In good news, I didn't feel a single twinge of pain in my ankle today. Normally, I would have thrown on my shoes and gone for a run right away, but this time I'm being super cautious. I'm going to wait AT LEAST until February 1st before I try running again. I want my ankle to be pain-free for at least a couple of weeks before attempting to run. I'm still waiting for my AquaJogger belt to get here, but when it does, I'm going to take it to the pool ASAP. I'm excited to give it a try!

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My race shirt quilt!

I almost decided not to write a post today. I feel so strange now that I'm not running. My whole identity seems to be based on running/weight loss, and now that I can't run because of my ankle, I just feel like a completely different person.

My ankle doesn't feel any better, so I think I'm going to make an appointment with a sports med doctor soon. I dread doing this, because the last time I went (for a knee injury), the doctor told me "Well, just don't run!" I need to find a doctor that is also a runner (or an athlete, at least) so he or she will understand that NOT running is not an option. I am totally fine with giving it up temporarily to heal my ankle, but I don't believe there is any reason to give it up permanently.

My days just feel so strange without having a morning run built in. Normally, I get the kids off to school, eat breakfast, do some email/blog stuff, and then go for a run. Without that, I feel like my whole day is kind of thrown off. And then, considering my blog has been mostly about my running/weight loss for four years, I feel like I shouldn't write anything if it's not about that. But considering this blog is basically a journal, I'm going to just keep writing, regardless. So I apologize if it's totally irrelevant!

Yesterday was Eli's 9th birthday. I thought it was so funny that he decided he wanted to go to La Pita for his birthday dinner! He told me he wanted to go there "for the garlic sauce", haha. Definitely his mama's kid. Jerry and I picked him up from school (along with Noah) and we went up to La Pita. My parents, along with Brian and Becky, and Nathan and Kendall, met us there, so we had a pretty big group there for dinner.

I was thrilled to see that Brian and Becky remembered to bring my quilt! I wrote about this a long time ago, but if you don't remember, I had cut up my race t-shirts and sewed them together into a quilt top. I had never done an actual quilt before, so I didn't want to ruin my quilt top by practicing on it, and I just left it alone. Then, Brian and Becky were dating, and Becky said that she and her mom loved quilting, and she offered to help me finish it.

I sent the quilt top to Minnesota with Becky, and totally trusted her to do whatever needed to be done.  She told me that she and her mom had finished it, and I was dying to see it. So yesterday, I finally got to see the finished product. It was AMAZING.

They used shoe patterns for the quilting, and I thought that was so clever! Becky's mom has a long-arm quilting machine, so she used that for the quilting, and then she did the edge binding by hand. I am just SO amazed at how perfect it turned out! I love it.

Last night, there was a lot of talk on Facebook that school would be canceled today. And sure enough, we got the phone call (last night, thankfully, and not at 5:00 this morning!) that school would be closed due to the cold temperatures. When I got up this morning, the wind chill was -29 degrees. I was just glad it wasn't on Eli's birthday! Last year, on Eli's birthday, it was the coldest day on record since the 1800's, and Eli told me it was "the worst birthday of [his] life". (He's a bit dramatic, haha)

Since school was canceled today, Jerry went to the store to get the stuff for mimosas (sparkling grape juice for the kids), and we had a mimosa-pajama-movie day. At first, we put the juice and wine on the porch to stay cold, but it actually froze pretty quickly, so we had to bring it in. It's so weird that last week, it was warm enough to wear a t-shirt while running!

Tomorrow is supposed to be really cold again, so I'm not sure if the kids will have school. But I hope it's not too bad, because Eli is having his birthday party in the evening!

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Deep water running

I'm really frustrated with this ankle issue I have going on. For about 90% of the time, my ankle feels completely fine, and it makes me feel like I'm overreacting. When I walk the kids to the bus stop, or I just walk around the house, I think, "I could totally go for a run right now!" But that other 10% of the time, I am very confident that it is, in fact, injured. Yesterday (and today), I took a rest day, and I also tried to come up with a plan for where to go from here.

I am registered for the Rock 'n' Roll Arizona Half on January 18th. My best friend Sarah and I were going to walk it together (she doesn't run) for our 33rd birthdays. Our birthdays are on the 22nd and 25th, so we decided to celebrate together this year by walking the race. I really don't think it's a good idea to to do the race (walking or running) because I feel like I need to focus on healing my ankle. I'm sure a 5K or 10K would be okay, but I have a feeling that doing a half marathon would really mess it up right now.

This picture is totally irrelevant to this post. But when I was looking for a picture of Sarah and me celebrating a birthday, I came across this one, and I love it. I don't know how old we were here... maybe three?

So, yesterday, I told Sarah that I'm not going to be able to do the race. I offered to cheer her on, but she admitted that she was really unprepared for the race, and so we mutually agreed to be spectators. I'm still going to Phoenix for a few days to visit, I just won't be doing the race there. And since I decided to back out of the goal of a half-marathon per month due to my ankle issue, I don't have another race lined up until March, when I go to Portland.

Because of all of that, I'm going to avoid running until my ankle is better. But I don't want to turn into a couch potato, either, so I started thinking of alternatives. The most popular alternative to running, particularly when one is injured, is deep water running (or pool running). This is basically done in the deep end of a pool, where you can't touch the bottom. You wear a floatation belt to hold you upright and keep you from sinking, and then you basically run--you do the same motion as running outside, but you're not actually touching the ground. This is really great exercise for runners who are injured, because it is a NO impact exercise.

I've read from several blogs of runners who have done it to keep in shape or continue training when injured, and it seems to be really successful. Yesterday, I ordered an "Aqua Jogger" on Amazon (the flotation belt to keep me from sinking):

When that arrives, I'm going to renew my membership at the rec center, and give the pool running a try! I'm sure it's going to be mind-numbingly boring (my "long runs" in the pool of two hours with no entertainment? Yikes!) but if I bring the kids and/or Jerry along, maybe it won't be too bad. I wish my iPod was waterproof.

If all goes well with the pool running, hopefully I will stay in good enough running shape to get back to running on the ground when my ankle is better. I'm praying that I'll be able to run normally again by February!

As I mentioned in my New Year's post, on Tuesdays I'd like to do Taste Test Tuesday again--only instead of tasting a new product, I'll try a new "real foods" recipe. My sister shared a recipe with me yesterday that she said was really good, so I decided to make that. It's called Mexican Chicken Quinoa Casserole.

I was tempted to swap out brown rice for the quinoa, because I don't love quinoa. I also wanted to use sour cream instead of yogurt, because you know how I feel about yogurt. But to be fair to Taste Test Tuesday, I figured I should probably make it as written in the recipe. When I went shopping to pick up a couple of the ingredients, Kroger was actually out of chicken breasts--strange. I used ground turkey breast instead, so that was the only substitution I made.

It wasn't a very pretty dish, but it turned out really good!

Like I said, I would have preferred rice, but when I tasted this, I couldn't taste the quinoa at all. I like the texture of quinoa (it's just the taste that I don't care for), but the spices of the dish overpowered the flavor of the quinoa. I didn't taste any of the yogurt, either. Everything went really well together, and it was so good! It was on the spicy side, so next time I'll leave out the cayenne because my kids won't eat it when it's this spicy. I'll definitely make it again, though. Jerry and I both loved it.

Tomorrow is Eli's ninth birthday! We asked him what he'd like to do for his birthday dinner, and he said he wants to go to La Pita :) I'm so glad it's La Pita and not Chinese food again! The food at La Pita is pretty healthy, no matter what you order, so I can make it work. My older brother and his wife are coming in from Minnesota, so we're picking them up on the way to the restaurant. My parents and my little brother are going as well. Should be fun! I can't believe my youngest child will be NINE tomorrow. And to think I was carded for buying wine today, haha ;)

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