September 09, 2014

Wedding weekend

My brother's wedding weekend was so much fun! It didn't start out that way, however, because the flight out to Minnesota was terrible on Friday. It's been all over the news about the power outages in southeast Michigan right now--well, that was caused from the weather we had to fly through to get to Minnesota. I didn't know anything about it until we were in the plane and the turbulence was so bad I cried.

After flying several times over the past few years, I thought I'd pretty much gotten over my fear of flying (I was still scared, but nothing that a couple of pre-flight glasses of wine couldn't help).



But after the flight Friday, I feel like I'm back to where I was a few years ago. The turbulence was really bad, and the plane dropped altitude a couple of times, which made me panic. I gulped down wine on the plane, but I still embarrassed myself by crying actual tears. The turbulence lasted about an hour, with the worst of it being for about 20 minutes.

But once we made it to Minnesota, everything was great! My parents had rented a house for all of us to stay in. The only people going from Michigan were my parents, Jeanie and Shawn (my sister and her husband), Nathan (my younger brother), and Jerry, myself, and the boys. Everyone else at the wedding was from Becky's family (Becky is Brian's now-wife) and their friends.

On Friday evening, my mom had invited Becky's whole family to the rental house for a non-rehearsal rehearsal dinner (there was no wedding rehearsal, so we just had the dinner). Brian asked me to help him with a project--he wanted to make a sign to hang under his quadcopter that said, "Just Married". He'd bought paint and fabric at JoAnn's (he actually called me from the store a few weeks ago to ask about what to buy). I had no clue, but when I saw what he bought, I did my best to make the banner ;)



Friday night was my first time meeting Becky's family, and they were fantastic--very laid back and fun. We had dinner and drinks, and I was so exhausted that I went to bed at around 10:30 (which was 11:30 Michigan time).

On Saturday, I had been planning to go for a run with Nathan around this amazing trail system close to the rental house. Nathan had to do 13 miles, so here is his route--how awesome is this?


I hadn't gotten any sleep that night, even though I was dead tired, so I chose not to go for the run. I really regretted it when Nathan got back and said it was amazing! (All of us were SHOCKED at just how many people were out running or biking at any given time throughout the weekend. Just staring out the window of the house for 10 minutes, we'd see at least 10 people go by. In Michigan, I'm lucky to come across just one runner in a 10-mile span!)

Anyway, us girls had to be to Becky's parents' house at 8:00 in the morning for hair and make-up. After our vacation and the trip to Minnesota, and some other stuff going on, I couldn't justify spending so much money to get my hair and make-up done right now, so I just went along for chit chat and to watch the other girls get beautified. Becky had gotten me a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks to sip--yum!!

After the girls were done with hair and make-up, we went back to rental house where I got ready. I pulled my hair into a side chignon and clipped a hot pink flower in it (the dresses were gray, and Becky gave us pink jewelry to wear). I did my make-up, and put on some hot pink heels that I bought at the thrift store (for $4!) a couple of days before. I was pretty happy with my hair and make-up, and I'd saved $130 by doing it myself! I wish I had better pictures, but things were really busy and I didn't think to get any good ones. Hopefully, I'll get some from the photographer.



The ceremony was at Minnehaha Falls Park. I have to say, I wish I could go back in time and redo my ceremony to be like theirs! They only invited their immediate families to the ceremony (Brian, Becky, their parents, siblings, and spouses). We took photos before the ceremony, and then when the photos were done, the officiant told us all to gather around closely for the ceremony. It was very small, informal, and intimate, and I loved that. It was less than 10 minutes, too!




After the ceremony Brian wanted to practice flying the "Just Married" sign with the quadcopter. It was a little heavy, but he did get it to go airborne for a few seconds.



Then we headed to Becky's parents' house, where the reception was being held. The reception was very informal (I even brought jeans and a sweatshirt to change into later). They had about 200 people come, and they had a pig roast for dinner. The food was fantastic, and the decorations looked like they were straight off of Pinterest.

Brian had the idea to home-brew beer and bottle it with cute labels as wedding favors



Becky's mom surprised them with this adorable decoration! (Brian is a pilot)

My parents said they would take the kids back to the rental house that night, so Jerry and I could take advantage of the open bar. Becky had set up a tent for us to stay in that night (several other people were staying in tents, also). Normally, I don't dance at weddings, because I am so self-conscious; but after wearing the bikini in Punta Cana and gaining some self-confidence, and some liquid courage from the bar, I actually danced quite a bit--and it was SO fun!



After the DJ packed up, we had a bonfire and chatted for a few hours with several of Brian's friends before heading to the tents at around 2:00. I was exhausted from not sleeping much the night before, and I slept surprisingly well in the tent. I honestly can't remember the last time I slept in a tent before that!

Looking anything-but wide awake in the morning ;)

In the morning, we had brunch at Becky's parents' house. Our flight was at 3:30 in the afternoon, and I was so nervous about getting back on the plane. I asked Brian to check if there was going to be turbulence, and he said it looked totally clear the whole way, which made me feel a little better. The flight ended up being uneventful, which was great ;)

It was definitely a whirlwind of a weekend, but so much fun to hang out with my family and to welcome Becky to the family!

September 08, 2014

Motivational Monday #77


Happy Motivational Monday! I'm home from Minnesota, and my brother's wedding was fantastic (I'll write about it tomorrow). The past couple of weeks have been SO busy, but things are back to normal for now. Vacation and the wedding were a great end to the summer!

I think it goes without saying that my proudest moment of the past couple of weeks was stepping WAY out of my comfort zone and wearing a bikini for the first time. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done (and I realize that sounds ridiculous), but I'm so glad that I did it.

Well, I have a ton of stories to share today, because it's been a couple of weeks since I prepared a MM post. Enjoy!


Tiina just completed her first triathlon! The race consisted of a 750 meter swim, a 24.5K bike ride, and a 5K run. Despite having panic attacks during the swim, and an extremely hot day, she pushed herself hard and finished in 2:10:14! (Tiina's race report)



Katie got engaged in 2010, but didn't want to set a wedding date because she was unhappy with her weight. She couldn't bear the thought of all those pictures being taken when she didn't feel good about herself. Last September, they finally set the wedding date, even though Katie wasn't at her goal. She put off wedding dress shopping until the last minute, and when she saw the pictures of her in the dress, she was really disappointed in her appearance. She joined Weight Watchers, and committed to exercising daily (exercise videos on YouTube, and training for a 10K race). By the time her dress came, she had lost 25 pounds and her dress had to be taken in! She is currently down 45 pounds and went from a size XL/14+ to a S-M/8.  Even after the wedding, she's still working on getting to her goal weight and improving her fitness!



Felicia just recently PR'ed one of her favorite races--a 10-miler as part of The Crim Festival of Races in Flint, Michigan (they offer a 1-mile, 5K, 8K, and 10-mile race, along with a Special Olympics run). In November, 2011, she lost weight by eating better and exercising. Then in 2012, she started running. She beat this year's Crim time by about 5 minutes, finishing in 1:58:35!



Two years ago, Lesleigh ran her first race--a local 5K. She finished in 43:30, was very happy with her finish time, and developed a love for running. Since then, she's run several more races, including two half-marathons. Recently, she ran the same local race that started it all--and this time, she opted for the 10K. She finished in 1:03:30, exactly what she'd hoped to finish in! She's was thrilled that her 10K time was just 20 minutes more than her 5K time, showing just how much she's improved as a runner over the past couple of years.



Laura recently completed the We Glow Run 5K--and is proud that it was the first time she was able to run the whole race! She finished in 35:30, an 11:25/mi pace, which is faster than she's ever run that distance. She's also lost 65 pounds since she started running a few years ago!



Megan is a Family Medicine intern, which means she basically works 12+ hour shifts, 6 days per week, so she doesn't have much (if any) "free time" to train for a race--but she just completed a half-marathon! The long work shifts have made eating well and exercise difficult for her, but she managed to carve out the time necessary to train for this race when she really just wanted to go home and sleep. The race took place after her second month as an intern, so it was a crazy couple of months with the training and the working, but she did it!



In February, Melinda received some devastating news--her mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She didn't want to just sit back and see what happens, so she decided to do something that she thought was an impossible task--train for and walk the Susan G. Komen 3-Day Walk for the Cure. The walk consists of 60 miles(!) split up over 3 days, so roughly 20 miles of walking per day. She raised the donation money, and started training in early March. She completed 570 miles of training before the weekend of the walk. And last weekend, she did it!! She walked 60 miles over 3 days, and when she crossed the finish line, the tears started rolling at the feat she'd just accomplished. (By the way, Melinda's mom is doing great--she's been through chemo and a mastectomy, and now she's got about five weeks of radiation left, and she should be in the clear.)



Angela recently ran her first 5K! She and her husband had a trip planned to Calgary, Canada (her hometown) and she noticed that there was a race the day after she arrived. She and her best friend, Shannon, signed up to do the race together, and she trained for two months (in the Alabama heat). They set a goal to finish under one hour, and she ended up finishing it a full 15 minutes faster than that! She said it was great to share this experience with her best friend, because they live so far apart.



Denise has always been into fitness, doing DVD's, Body Pump, Zumba, kickboxing, etc, for the past 20 years, which has kept her in shape. Feeling tired of the usual routine, she decided to give running a try about a year ago. She was surprised to find how difficult it felt, despite being in good shape! A few months ago, a friend suggested signing up for a half-marathon, so she agreed and started training right away. The race was very tough, being hilly with six miles of trails, but she did it! She felt very strong through the race, and despite her pace being slower than expected (due to the tough course), she had a great time. She's even planning to do another half in December!



Crystal is training for her second half-marathon. Her first was in March, and was very difficult because she wasn't sure how to fuel properly. Yesterday, she tried using ShotBloks and fizzy tabs of Gu for water, and it made all the difference. She planned to run 11 miles, but was feeling so great that she ended up running an impromptu practice half-marathon. Her goal for the half-marathon is 2:30, and she actually finished this one in 2:25!


Amber recently made some changes that she is very proud of, and she's lost 29 pounds! She had lap band surgery, but prior to the surgery, she made some dietary changes and lost 11 pounds. Once she was cleared to exercise after surgery, she started walking on the gym at the treadmill. At first, she was just able to go 2.0 mph, and now she's up to 3.4 mph after a month!



Erin just started a new healthier lifestyle a week ago, and she was thrilled to see that she was down 7.4 pounds in her first week! She used a nutritionist, My Fitness Pal, and her Fitbit as tools to keep her going, and she was very happy with her results so far. She feels very motivated to keep going!



A huge congrats to everyone! Make sure you check out the Motivational Monday Facebook post for more stories :)

September 05, 2014

The Evolution of a First-Time Bikini-Wearer


As promised, I am dedicating this entire post to the most uncomfortable (but exciting) thing I've done in a very long time... wearing a bikini for the first time in my life.

I've always wanted to wear a bikini, because all my friends did, but even when I was young, I felt ashamed of my body. My weight went up and down several times through the years, but I never felt like I was worthy enough to wear a bikini, for crying out loud.

When I was losing weight, I knew that even after the weight loss, I wouldn't have a "bikini body", because I'm pretty loaded with stretch marks--both from the excess weight and from having two large babies. My surgeon told me that even after my skin removal surgery, my stretch marks would still be visible, because of how high up they went. I was okay with that--I hadn't expected the surgery to give me the perfect body.

Every summer, when we go to the beach or a pool, or even a hotel pool, and I'd see women in bikinis,  I would briefly entertain the idea of possibly wearing one, despite the stretch marks, scar, and loose skin. When I was at my thinnest, just under 130 pounds, I still didn't feel "worthy" enough of wearing a bikini.

Recently, however, I've started to feel more confident in my body--which is very strange, because I've gained quite a bit of weight this year (15 pounds on a good day, 20 pounds on a bad day). But I've been trying to step out of my comfort zone a bit, and when we planned our trip to Punta Cana, I thought it would be the perfect time to wear a bikini in public--because nobody would know me, and I'd never see any of them again.

There were very slim pickings at the store, because I went in late August, but I found a couple of tops and a pair of bottoms that were shorts (bearing my stomach was hard enough, so I wanted to cover what little of my thighs that I could!). I was going to return one of the tops, because I only needed one to wear for a single day before wearing a one-piece bathing suit, but Jeanie, my sister, convinced me that I'd need more than one bathing suit. She said I should bring it, and if I didn't wear it, I could return it when I got home.

We stayed 7 nights in Punta Cana, and before we even got there, I was chickening out about wearing the bikini. I figured I'd put it off, and hopefully feel okay in wearing it for just one day toward the end of our trip. When we got there, Jeanie told me I should wear it the first day, and just get it out of the way--that way, I wouldn't be worrying about it the whole trip. That made a lot of sense.

To spoil the ending, I never even took the tags off of my one-piece suit--I wore a bikini the entire week! It was funny to see just how my attitude changed throughout the week, so I'll share that with you here:

Day One: I was SUPER nervous to put it on. My hands were literally shaking, and I decided to go next door to my sister's room to ask her very honest opinion about whether I should wear it. I felt super self-conscious just standing in front of her, and we weren't even in public yet! She assured me I should wear it, so I put on a cover-up over it, and we went down to the pool. I thought maybe I'd just avoid the pool the whole day, and stay in the cover-up, but it was hot and I wanted to cool off.

Taking off the cover-up for the first time was SO hard. I was sure everyone was looking at me. Finally, I just yanked the cover-up off, and beelined down the steps of the pool before anyone could see me. I was so surprised at how the water felt on my bare belly--it was strange! Once in the water, I felt okay, because the water came up to my chest.



When I got out of the pool, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me, and then as soon as I was semi-dry, I pulled on the cover-up again. There was no way that I was going to sit on the lounge chair without covering myself, and that's how it went for day one.

Day Two: When deciding what to wear, I almost put on my one-piece, but then I realized that I actually wanted to wear the bikini again, because it's less fabric to dry off (important when you're in and out of the pool all day). Again, I wore a cover-up over it.

At the pool this time, when I got out, I dried off with the towel, and then laid on the lounge chair just covering my stomach with my hands. I was getting a little braver!



Day Three: Didn't even think of wearing the one-piece. Wore the same suit as the day before, because it was very comfortable. At the pool, I didn't even hesitate when taking off my cover-up, and I took my time walking down the steps into the pool. When I got out, I didn't hurry to cover myself up again.

Eli wanted me to walk with him to get fries on the beach. Instead of drying off and putting on the cover-up, I walked to the beach and back in just the bikini. I was sure everyone was looking, but nobody paid any attention--it was awesome!

Jerry and I spent probably an hour in hysterics, taking pictures of each other under water. It was so fun!



I love this pic, because you can see the kids in the background watching us ;)




Day Four: Wore a bikini again. We were going to go snorkeling, and Jeanie said we would just wear our bathing suits on the boat. I couldn't imagine that--walking to the beach, then to the boat, riding in a boat, getting in and out of the boat... in a bikini?! I was going to bring a towel, but at the last minute, I ditched it. We walked to the beach to sign up (the warning flag was up, however, so we couldn't go snorkeling--but I walked to the beach and stood there at the scuba shop for about 15 minutes in just my bikini.

Day Five: Jeanie went home, but I still wore the bikini. By this point, I had no problem taking off the cover-up, lying on the lounge chair with my belly exposed, etc. I even sat in one of the floats we brought, which isn't a very flattering position, but I did it anyway.



This day, when I walked to the bathroom, I didn't put my cover-up on. That meant walking all the way around the huge pool, to the bathroom, and inside where there were mirrors and women looking into the mirrors. I tried not to look at my belly (at least not judgmentally) in the mirror, but I did see it and notice the stretch marks and imperfections. But, I did not feel bad about myself. There were tons of women at the resort in bikinis, and they were all sorts of different shapes and sizes. Some with stretch marks, scars, loose skin, wrinkles, etc. If they could do it, I could, too... and at least fake being confident!

Day Six: The final day before our travel day home. There was one thing I wanted to do all week, but I was nervous to do it. It seemed so silly! I wanted to get a picture of Jerry and me on the beach, and I wanted to wear just my bikini--no cover-up. It just seemed like the perfect way to finish the week of the bikini.

So we went to the beach, and Noah snapped a few photos of Jerry and me. They aren't fantastic pictures, and I'm not going to photoshop out the stretch marks or anything. I like the photo because it reminds me of how I went from my hands trembling at the thought of wearing a bikini to wearing one all week long, and actually feeling confident in it by the end. When I look at the picture, I don't immediately look for my stretch marks, loose skin, and extra pounds. Looking at the picture makes me feel confident, and happy that I stepped out of my comfort zone. It wasn't nearly as scary as I'd imagined it would be!


If you've always wanted to wear a bikini, but you don't feel "worthy", I highly encourage you to do it--regardless of your size, shape, or imperfections. This was a HUGE confidence booster for me! And I guarantee it won't be the last time that I wear it ;)


September 04, 2014

New size, new attitude

This has been such a busy week for us! Tomorrow, we head to Minnesota for my brother's wedding (we're just going Friday through Sunday, so it's a very quick trip). I didn't think of it when I planned our vacation--Punta Cana until Monday, kids started school Tuesday, Minnesota on Friday, wedding on Saturday. Crazy, right? But fun-crazy!

Today, I started packing, and the weather is supposed to be pretty cool--a high of 67 tomorrow, and 76 on Saturday. So I started trying on my fall clothes, particularly my jeans...

And they don't fit. There are only about two pairs that I can wear publicly.

I did have a bit of a moment, though. I had been feeling really good about myself all morning. I've been binge-free for a while, I've been eating intuitively, I even wore a bikini on vacation (that post will publish tomorrow). The scale was down again this morning, meaning my weight is up only two pounds since I left for vacation, which I am thrilled with. The point is, I was feeling confident and good.

Until I tried on my jeans.

When I got to my goal weight, I donated every pair of jeans that was even slightly too big. All of the jeans I own fit me comfortably at my goal weight (with the exception of two stretchy pairs, which are the ones that fit me now).

So when I tried on the jeans today, my mood immediately changed, and I felt like crap. I was feeling really down on myself, and feeling fat even though I felt rather thin just an hour earlier. And it was then that I realized just how stupid the whole thing was! It's not my weight that was making me feel fat and bad about myself. It's my clothes, because they're not the right size for the weight I am now.

Like I wrote recently, of course I want to get back to my goal weight (I felt the best and ran my fastest at that weight)... but right now, I'm feeling happy with what I'm doing. The intuitive eating is working, and I feel better than I have (in regards to food) in a long time. I am thrilled that I'm binge free, and that I can eat what I like without worry. If I was to stay at this weight, where I am right now, I can honestly say I'd be okay with that. I don't think I look bad, I'm healthy, and I feel confident--so it's really dumb to let some clothes ruin that!

I started to beat myself up about the clothes incident today, but stopped myself almost immediately. Instead of letting it ruin my day, and probably my trip, I decided to go to the thrift store to get some clothes that fit. I used to love thrift shopping, but since gaining the weight, I've avoided it. I kept telling myself, "When I get back to goal, I'll go again..." I really didn't want to go to Minnesota this weekend feeling bad about myself, so this afternoon, I went to the thrift store and bought a few things--a couple of pairs of jeans, and about five tops.

The jeans are very comfortable, and I was a little stunned to see they were a size 10 (the jeans in my closet are size 4). But the strange thing was, I was not at all upset by the size. Sure, I hope that by intuitive eating, my size will get back down to a 4, but for now, I am okay being a size 10. I feel good when I have these jeans on, and I don't have to squeeze into them.

I just found the whole situation today to be eye-opening. I can remember many times, at many different sizes, when I've tried on clothes and it brought me to tears. I even skipped a couple of big events when I was at my heaviest, because I just couldn't find anything to wear that fit me. When I went to the thrift store today, I decided to buy whatever was comfortable and made me feel good about myself, regardless of the size. When I got home, and I tried on the stuff I bought for Jerry, even he could see the change in my attitude. (He's heard ALL the moaning and groaning in the past when I've tried on clothes--poor guy!)

Tomorrow, I'm going to confidently wear my size 10 jeans, and medium top, and I won't give a single thought to feeling fat... because I feel good!


September 03, 2014

Tomatoes

The kids' first day of school was yesterday, and so far, it feels kind of strange. Noah is now in middle school (!!), so our routine is definitely different than it used to be in the spring, when the kids went to the same school at the same time. Noah has to get up at 6:00, and out the door at 6:45. Eli has to be out the door at 7:45, so there's a whole hour gap between their bus arrivals.

Yesterday and today, I walked Noah to the bus stop, and then realized I had the perfect amount of time to squeeze in a three-mile run between taking the kids to the bus stops. So I ran three miles (Jerry was home with Eli) and then got Eli and walked him to the bus stop. I kind of like having that gap in there, because rather than sit around and twiddle my thumbs for 45 minutes before taking Eli to the bus, I can get in a run. Then after dropping off Eli, I can shower and start my day.

I was actually pretty excited to run today, because I got a new pair of shoes from Altra Running to try out. They sent a pair to all of the bloggers who are doing the Runner's World Half & Festival next month, because they are a sponsor of the race. I am a huge nerd for pretty much everything to do with running... except for shoes. I don't know diddly squat about shoes! I'm partial to my Brooks Adrenalines, because I've never had an issue with them--I just wish they came in prettier colors for wide feet!

Anyway, the Altra One Squared shoes that they sent look very different from your typical running shoe. But I was giddy when I opened the box, because I couldn't believe how light they were. And then I walked around the house in them, and I wanted to sleep with them on my feet--that's how comfy they are! The toe box is ginormous, making it look like I have duck feet, but I love that I can spread out my toes.



I was excited to take them for a quick spin, and planned to just run a mile around the neighborhood. The shoes have a zero drop platform (I had no idea what this meant, but learned that it means your heel and forefoot are the same distance from the ground), and Altra recommends just doing short runs at first while you get used to them.

They definitely felt different than what I was used to, but they were really comfortable. I didn't have any problems, so instead of just doing a mile, I ended up doing three.

57 degrees this morning! Without the humidity, it would feel like fall

Today was my first day trying the shoes, so I can't say if I'm going to switch completely over when it's time for new shoes, but it's nice to have another option. Other shoes I tried on at the store just aren't wide enough for my big feet.


I mentioned the tomato and basil bruschetta yesterday, and I still have this ridiculous craving for tomatoes--it's SO strange. I go through phases where I crave a certain food, and I eat it all the time for a while, but I've never craved tomatoes in my life. Yet, this morning, I made an English muffin with diced tomato, and eggs with cheese.


Then for lunch, I wanted the bruschetta again. So I chopped two Roma tomatoes, and added some olive oil, basil, salt, and pepper. Then I sliced the bread and toasted it, and rubbed a little garlic on it before topping it with the tomato mixture. It was SO good. I think I actually moaned when I took a bite.


The tomato thing is weird, but at least it's a healthy craving ;)

I was happy to see that the scale was back down three pounds this morning, so I knew that most of what I gained on vacation was water weight. I haven't been very hungry yesterday or today, so I wonder if that's my body's way of making up for the extra calories on vacation? Since starting intuitive eating, I've really enjoyed paying so much attention to my body and how it feels, and what I'm craving, and all that. I just find it so interesting.


After taking the entire summer off of races (other than a few easy 5K's), I think I'm ready to start training again. I'm running the 5K and 10K next month at the Runner's World Half & Festival (I have coupon codes for those, if any of you are thinking of running it), but other than those two races, I don't have anything on the schedule. I was feeling kind of nostalgic looking through my old training log from when I was training for my first half marathon, and it made me want to do Hal Higdon's half training again.

The Monroe Half (my hometown race that I did last year) is on November 9th. So starting on Monday, I think I'll pick up Hal Higdon's plan on week 5, and run the race in November. I'm not going to be trying to PR, but I feel ready to follow some sort of structured plan again after taking some time away from that, and his plans were my go-to when I was a beginner. (I may be running the race with my friend Adam, depending on if he's keeping up with his training).

One of the things I miss about being a beginner is that feeling of accomplishment over a new distance. I remember feeling awesome after my first 5-, 8-, and 10-mile runs, because it was such a big deal. One day, those distances didn't seem so big, and now they've become typical, if that makes any sense. I think by following the plan, and not always doing more than necessary just because I can, I may feel that build-up of excitement as the distance increases again. And who knows, maybe I'll work on trying for a PR in the spring!

September 02, 2014

Punta Cana! Part 2

Oh, wow, what an amazing week! I'm so shocked that's actually been 10 days since we left for Cleveland and then Punta Cana. The week went by ridiculously fast. While it was amazing and I had a blast, it definitely feels great to be back home. After a long travel day, we got home at around 10:00 last night--and the kids started school this morning! I'm going to try and recap the vacation, but this post will probably be all over the place.

We stayed at Dreams Palm Beach in Punta Cana, Dominican Republic. My sister had been to Punta Cana a couple of times before at a different resort, so she's the one who told me about it. I get way too overwhelmed when trying to plan a trip, so I love that Jeanie enjoys doing it, because she basically did all the planning and research for me! She read good reviews of Dreams Palm Beach on Trip Advisor, particularly for family vacations (with kids), and it sounded great to me.

The closest I'd ever been to a tropical vacation was when I went to Key West in January 2013, and that was to run a Ragnar Relay! So this was totally new to me, particularly the all-inclusive resort. That was actually what appealed so much to me--a trip we could save for and pay off BEFORE getting there, without any hidden costs or overspending while we were there. We'd been saving for a big vacation for a long time, and I was surprised at what a great deal we got on it (it ended up costing half of what I'd been planning for).

Anyway, my main goal for this vacation was to relax. I've had a very tough year, between losing Sarah and Mark, and then having to put Paolo down, and I really needed some R&R time! That mission was definitely accomplished on this trip.

Basically, each day looked pretty much like this:
Wake up.
Get dressed in bathing suit and suit cover-up.
Go to breakfast.
Go to the pool.
Sit at the pool for hours, get in and out of the water to cool down, play with the kids, and sip lots of beverages from the pool bar.
Go to lunch (or just eat at the beach--they had hamburgers and hot dogs, french fries, and chips every day, and sometimes paella).
Sit at the pool some more.
Go to the room and get ready for dinner.
Go to dinner, either at the main buffet, or one of the restaurants.
Have drinks and play a board game or two in the lobby.
Try really hard to stay awake and go to the show at night (never successful at this).
Go back to the room and sleep.
Repeat.

I realize that list sounds incredibly boring--there were a TON of activities going on at the resort, and we were given a schedule every day, but I was honestly really content to just relax at the pool (which is strange, because I've never been a pool person!). It was really nice to read my book, or play with the kids, or chat with Jeanie and Jerry. Here is what a typical schedule might look like as far as the activities:


We did some of the things--we just kept the schedule nearby and made a last-minute decision when the time came for each activity. The kids and Jeanie did the scuba diving lesson a couple of times. Jeanie and I did pool aerobics, which was actually really fun (and the only real exercise I did the entire week). Jerry did horseshoes, and won a bunch of fake money to use at an auction. I did a fruit carving demo, and it was hilarious--I was terrible at it, and the girl next to me did better than the man who was doing the demo.

I have no idea what my apple was supposed to be--bahaha!

But the majority of our day was spent at the pool...

This drink was called a Tucan--so yummy!

The kids loved getting sodas from the guy who paddled around in a kayak

Jeanie and the boys with their drinks

Jerry and I used the kids' underwater cameras to take pictures of each other
We hung out on the beach a couple of times, but the kids liked the pool better, so that's where we spent most of the time.



I had been worried that I was going to get there and completely pig out on food, because it's all included in the cost of the resort. But that actually didn't happen. Most of the food was just so-so tasting, and I didn't want to eat it if I didn't really love it. Also, I was worried to eat meat or anything that wasn't kept at a good temperature, so I basically ate vegan, with a couple of exceptions, most of the week (but not to confuse "vegan" with "healthy"--I ate french fries, pasta, and hash browns and things like that). But I did eat reasonable portions, so eating too much food ended up not being a big problem for me (the drinks, on the other hand...).

A few things that we tried were really good, though! I ordered a vegetable curry at the Seaside Grill, and that was awesome. Eli and I went to a cooking demo on the beach where they made paella and sangrias, and the paella was phenomenal. Even the kids wolfed it down. The pasta station at the buffet was delicious, too--you pick out the ingredients you want (I liked onions, mushrooms, garlic, and bell pepper), the pasta shape (penne), and then sauce (I chose marinara and alfredo mixed) and then someone cooks it to order for you.

Vegetable curry at the Seaside Grill

The one food I tried that ended up being the shocker of the whole trip for me was actually a fruit. When I first saw it sitting at the buffet, I thought, "Ew! Do people actually eat that?!" because it looked like orange snot with ants in it (sorry for that gross description, but that's the best way to describe it, really). Then one morning, the butler brought Jerry and I a HUGE spread for breakfast, including a couple of plates of fruit. And on the plate was that fruit that I had no idea what it was.

Our "breakfast in bed" from the butler!

I do like to try new things, and since it was there in front of me, I did take a little taste. And I was shocked! It was SO amazing. I later learned that it's called passion fruit--I'd heard the name, but had never seen one before. After that one bite, I started eating that every day for breakfast with some toast. I made the kids take a bite of the passion fruit, too, and Eli then went up and got his own because he liked it so much. He even bought passion fruit-flavored gum at the airport on the way home ;)

Passion fruit (photo source)

I had wanted to eat intuitively while I was there, but it was nearly impossible--not because of eating too much, like I said, but because I couldn't go with my cravings. I was craving meat really badly several times, but I just couldn't bring myself to eat it (out of fear of getting sick). But I did my best to eat what I wanted and not eat too much, and I am happy with how it went. (For the record, my sister, Jerry, and the kids all ate meat and none of them got sick--it was just an irrational fear of mine).

The thing I'm finding hardest about intuitive eating is how to fit in alcohol. At the resort, it was impossible to say no--and I honestly didn't want to. I was there to relax by the pool and sip yummy cocktails, so I didn't worry one iota about what effect that would have on my weight. At home, I obviously don't drink like that, so this was a week-long special occasion as far as alcohol goes. I tried several different cocktails, and I paced myself (most of the time...), but I definitely expected that the calories in that many cocktails would add up. This morning, my weight was up 7 pounds from when I left for vacation 10 days ago (!), but I know that probably 4-5 pounds of that is just water retention, so I'm really not worried about it.



Something that was a big change for me was that instead of seeing the gain and thinking, "Okay, back to counting calories/points, and staying strict to lose that weight", I thought, "Okay, now I can truly eat what I'm craving, and I'm definitely not craving any more cocktails!" ;)  This morning, I wanted eggs with cheese (two things that I didn't eat in Punta Cana). For lunch, I was craving tomato and basil bruschetta of all things--this was VERY strange, because normally, I don't even like tomatoes! And after that, all I could think about was vegetables, so I made a ratatouille with probably a dozen different veggies for dinner. I really do think that my body knows best, and right now, after a week of drinking and eating junk, my body is craving some healthy food.

I was worried about fitting into the bridesmaid's dress I have to wear this Saturday (yes, my brother's wedding is just five days after coming home from vacation--terrible planning on my part!). I tried on the dress last night, and while snug, it's still fits. Whew!

I will save the bikini post for another day. I wore a bikini for the first time in my life, and I felt that deserves its own post! I'll even post a few photos ;)

September 01, 2014

Motivational Monday #76


I received quite a few Motivational Monday submissions last week before leaving for vacation, so I decided to split them into two posts. As this post goes live, I am likely driving home from the airport in Cleveland after seven nights in Punta Cana! (If you've submitted one in the last 10 days, I'm not ignoring it, I promise--I just had these posts prepared before leaving for vacation).


Susan, and her sister-in-law, Sarah, just ran the Toronto Women's 10K! It was their first run together, and Susan was happily surprised to finish in 1:06, considering she hadn't run a 10K in over a year. Sarah was excited to finish in 1:01!



Amy is very proud to have completed her first sprint triathlon! She completed a 1/2 mile open water swim, a 2 mile run, and an 8.5 mile bike ride in 2:05. She had a couple of hiccups along the course--during the run, she took a wrong turn and ended up going about a mile off course. To avoid missing the cut-off time for the bike, she had to hitch a ride to the transition area, but her run distance was still correct. She had been told that there was no time limit, but the time keeper had already left when she came through the finish area. Regardless of all that, she is very proud to have finished, she felt better than anticipated, and moved faster than she'd expected!



Robin recently completed her first 5K! She was sparked to start walking following a family trip where she found herself stopping her son from doing things because she couldn't keep up with him. The very next day, she started walking 5K three times per week. She signed up for the Color Vibe 5K, and she proudly walked the whole distance. The course was tougher than anticipated, because he went though the uneven terrain of fields and horse paths, but she kept going. She was so proud that she cried when crossing that finish line! (Robin's race report)



Sarah made a goal at the beginning of June to hike every mile of the 27 miles of nature reserve not far from her house. She recently completed the final missing piece--a half-mile of trail that doesn't connect to anything. Not only did she complete her goal, she ended up hiking 65 miles, because she did some trails multiple times! She even convinced her husband and mother-in-law to do some trail time with her.



Martine has had a great summer with a lot of accomplishments--losing over 30 pounds, reaching her 10 percent at Weight Watchers, working out with a personal trainer, and attending a weekly spinning class. Most recently, she completed the Lacamas Lake Half Marathon in Southern Washington. Her husband had a conference in Portland, and she decided to tag along--her first thought being, "VooDoo Doughnuts!" haha. Instead of heading to VooDoo, she decided to see if there were any local races going on, and she discovered the Lacamas Lake Half. The course was very hilly, and a lot of it was on a trail, but she really enjoyed the scenery and the race!



Great job everyone! Keep up the awesome work! Hopefully I will write a regular update on Tuesday.

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