Newspaper and post-op day 3

I slept in the recliner last night, and I felt so much better! I didn't have to turn side to side anymore like I did in the bed, and I actually got about 6 hours of sleep. I've been taking my meds every 3 hours as prescribed.

For those of you that asked about my incision, it goes ALL THE WAY AROUND my body, including over my spine. It stays pretty low all the way around my hips and then dips a little to the top of my butt crack (like the top of a heart) and then continues around to the front. It is literally like a belt.

...Which is why it is so hard to get comfortable! No matter what way you lie down, some part of the incision is resting on the bed. I don't think that the incision is the part that hurts so much though--it's definitely the abdominal muscles!  When you get a tummy tuck, they will do a "muscle repair" where they stitch your abdominal muscles together where they may have separated from pregnancies or other reasons.

See the lower-left picture? That shows where the doctor sews the muscles together with absorbable sutures. My doctor said my muscles were pretty far apart--she had to bring them in 2 1/2 inches!! Doing THAT is what causes so much pain from the surgery and why you have to walk and stand hunched over. I don't think I could stand upright if I tried right now. Turning over in bed was excruciating, but the recliner is much more comfortable. The doctor said it'll be about two weeks before I can stand upright and sit upright.

Jessica just brought me some curried chicken salad with apples and raisins--yum!--and a loaf of roasted garlic bread  from a local bread company. I hadn't tried their bread before, and wow--it was amazing!  The one positive thing about having surgery (for me anyway) is that it reduces your appetite. Right now my sole focus is on protein, whether I enjoy it or not, because I want to heal as fast as possible.

My mom told my Dr. Oz story to the local paper. We live in a very small town, so it doesn't take much to make the paper! The reporter called yesterday right after I woke up from a pain-medicine-induced sleep, so I hope I at least sounded a little coherent when I spoke with her. She said the story would run in today's newspaper. Jerry and I don't even get the newspaper, so we had to go buy one.

ETA:  I was SHOCKED when I saw it--it's HUGE! I cringed and covered my eyes when Jerry showed it to me, because it takes up about 2/3 of the front page. I had no idea this whole story would get so BIG.

I really AM excited to see the show tomorrow--my curiosity is killing me!

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RECIPE: Monster Cookies

My friend Renee gave me the recipe for these--they're SUPER delish and pretty healthy for a cookie!

Here is a printer-friendly version!

Monster Cookies

1/4 cup unsalted butter
1/2 cup natural peanut butter  (I used natural creamy pb)
1/2 cup brown sugar
1 large egg
1 large egg white
1 tsp. vanilla extract
2 Tbsp. ground flax seed
3 cups old-fashioned oats
1 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp. salt
1/2 cup mini chocolate chips  (make sure you use the mini ones, so you get a little chocolate with each bite!)
1/2 cup raisins

Preheat oven to 350 degrees.  Combine butter and peanut butter in a mixer. Beat until smooth. Add brown sugar, egg, egg white, and vanilla extract. Beat until smooth.

Add oats, flax, baking soda, salt, chocolate chips, and raisins. Mix well.

Drop spoonfuls of dough (I used 1.5 Tbsp each) 2" apart on cookie sheet. Bake 11 to 12 minutes, until lightly golden (I did 10 minutes). Let cool a few minutes on a baking sheet before removing to rack.

Makes 30 cookies.

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Day 2 Post-Op (with a pic)

I wanted to write more, but it's so hard to do this while lying down...

I barely slept last night--I just cannot get comfortable! My abdomen hurts SO BADLY. My mom came over at 4:30 this morning to help me out when Jerry left for work. I spent most the whole morning lying in bed watching TV. Renee and Jessica were going to come visit me today, but I had to tell them to postpone it because I just didn't feel up to it.

Everything completely exhausts me. Just getting up to go to the bathroom felt like I had run 10 miles. After lunchtime, I decided to try to recline in the recliner in the living room. That was much more comfortable than the bed. The doctor said I can reline, but I have to keep it very low--she doesn't want me to SIT for 10 days.

She told me I could shower, but I was terrified to take off the binder. The doctor called me to see how I was doing and I told her I was scared to shower, but she explained it to me again and so I decided to try it. Getting the stuff off was easy--but holding the drains while showering was impossible, so I had my mom reach into the shower and hold the drains up so that I could wash myself.

I changed into the fresh compression garment, which was easier than I expected. The doc agreed with me in that I might want to buy a small--the medium will do for now, because I'm swollen, but in a week or two she thinks I'll want to wear a small. So I have to order that today.

I was a little shocked when I looked in the mirror at my incisions today. I know (from looking at others' post-op pictures) that it's going to look really bad for a while, but I was still in shock. My back is really bruised, and she has dressing packed into my belly button. I'm worried that my belly button looks asymmetrical, but I've read that can be caused from swelling and everything heals at different speeds.

I really like the shape of the incision line--she kept it very low, even on my hips. When she was marking me for surgery, she said that she doesn't do those "french cut" hips from the 80's, where the scar goes up over the hip bone. Remember those panties that had really high cut lines on the sides? She said she does the incisions to hide underneath a boy-cut panty instead, which is much more my style.

I'm actually going to show you a picture today, since you've all been asking. Please don't critique me! This is just two days post-op, so of course everything looks pretty gross right now. I still have gauze packed into my belly button, so it looks weird, but I think I can take that out tomorrow. The orange you see on my thigh is from a tape that is holding my pain pump in place.

"Before" (obviously)

I'm not ready to show my butt yet! ;)  I cannot believe I'm even posting this "before" picture, because I'm SOOOO self-conscious of my belly!  Once I get the drains out (and the belly button gauze and stitches) I'll probably start taking more post-op pics. It just looks ugly right now, but I think that the incision looks pretty good compared to a lot of other pics I've seen.

For those of you that asked, the doctor ended up removing about 2-3 pounds of skin--not much! She said that I didn't have a lot of fat attached to the skin, so the number isn't very impressive.

Anyway, I am feeling much much better now than I was yesterday or even earlier today. I've been eating tons of protein. Taking my meds as prescribed. Emptying my drains. Doing everything by the book.

Most importantly, I want to thank you all SO MUCH for your e-mails, comments, and support through this. When I told my mom today about my online "friends" she was really touched that complete strangers have become so close to me.

I really do consider you my friends, and it makes me feel so good to know that you are thinking of me!  I'm going to try and respond to everyone, but I haven't been spending much time on the computer (it's hard to type lying down!)  So please bear with me if it takes a while. Just know that I really appreciate it!

My Dr. Oz Show airs on Friday!! I saw a preview on TV for it today :)

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My lower body lift surgery

Well, I'm home.

I'm in quite a bit a hell of a lot of pain, so I don't know how long I'll be able to type this, but I wanted to update you all. Yesterday, I woke up at 3:00 in the morning, and took a shower. I had to wash with a special soap to prep for surgery. Blew my hair dry and dressed in big comfy clothes. Jerry drove to the hospital, which was about an hour away.

I knew it was going to be a tiny little hospital (mostly outpatient procedures and a small emergency room). We were the only people there that early in the morning. The security guard let us in, and we sat in the OR lobby until the nurse called me back to pre-op.

The nurse called me back while Jerry stayed in the lobby. She took some blood and inserted an IV; checked my vitals and all that. Then she gave me a gown and told me to take off EVERYTHING (including my nose ring). I put on the gown and laid in the little bed. Then Jerry came back there with me:

Getting reeeally nervous

My surgeon came in and answered some more questions I had, and then she used a marker to draw all over me for surgery. I layed back in the bed and the anesthesiologist came in at about 6:20. He was super nice and made me feel very comfortable--first just mentally, and then he put something in my IV that helped me to calm down, but still be coherent. I kissed Jerry good-bye, and they wheeled me off to the OR. That is actually the last thing I remember before surgery.

I woke up to a bunch of people tugging on me, and realized they were putting my compression garment on. I was kind of dozing while they were doing that, and I remembered that I was there for surgery. The doctor came in and told me that the surgery went perfectly, and I have a teeny tiny waist (yay!)

I was taken to my recovery room and since I was staying the night, I got to stay in there. They put a foley catheter in me during surgery, and it stayed in the whole time I was in the hospital, which was nice--I didn't have to get up to go pee!

My abs were hurting SO BADLY, despite the dilaudid in my IV and some other pain meds. They gave me some medicine for nausea, too, but it didn't work at all--I felt SO SICK. I even started dry heaving, which hurt like a bitch because of my muscle repair on my abs. I ordered tuna salad for dinner (protein) and it took me about four tries to eat it. My mouth was super dry, and they said it was because of the anesthesia--they give you meds to stop saliva production. It's so hard to eat without saliva!

The staff there was SO NICE and helpful. I've never felt so attended to. I was literally the ONLY overnight patient there! It was strange, but fun! That was why it took forever to confirm my surgery date--they had to make sure they had an overnight staff for me. Totally worth it! They even let Jerry spend the night with me, and there was a couch that folded out into a bed right in my room:

They had me get up and walk a few times, which was excruciating. The pain is terrible! So much worse than I ever imagined. The doctor came in this morning to check in on me and said I looked great. She unzipped one side of my compression garment and I was able to see my stomach. I can't believe how flat it is! I still have stretch marks, so it'll never be "bikini ready" but it should look good in my clothes. I'll post pictures, but right now I'm just in a lot of pain and I don't want to mess with it.

The doctor said I could go home whenever I was ready, so Jerry and I decided to leave at about 9:00. The nurse wheeled me out to the car, and everyone was telling me they were excited to watch The Dr. Oz Show on Friday ;)  The car ride home was bad--I was in terrible pain.

I'll try to write more tomorrow. Right now I'm just watching the clock for when I can take another pain pill. Hopefully it starts to get better tomorrow!

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Things that make me happy!

Since I’m getting my surgery today, I decided to post this list I put together of 100 things that make me happy. Even reading this list makes me happy! :)

1. When my kids are playing nicely together.
2. When my husband does housework without me asking him to.
3. Wearing a pair of brand new socks.
4. Losing weight.
5. Wine.
6. Having a clean house.
7. Getting a massage from my husband.
8. Waking up in the middle of the night and realizing I’d only been asleep for an hour or so—which means I have a LOT longer to sleep!
9. Knitting.
10. Completing a project that I’ve started.
11. Autumn.
12. Spending time with my siblings.
13. Chatting over wine or coffee with my girlfriends.
14. Watching my favorite TV shows.
15. Wearing fleece pajamas when it’s cold outside.
16. Reading a book that’s so good I can’t put it down.
17. Cooking (as long as I’m not starving when I’m cooking)
18. Feeling good about how I look.
19. Shopping for things for the house.
20. Spending time with old friends.
21. Listening to interesting people tell their life stories.
22. Sleeping on my Tempur-pedic mattress.
23. Accomplishing a goal.
24. Listening to Maxwell.
25. Beer that smells like skunk.
26. Playing Guesstures with friends.
27. Giving a really cool gift to someone.
28. Paying off a debt.
29. Eating fresh pineapple in the summer.
30. Grocery shopping.
31. Watching cats play.
32. A hot bath in the winter.
33. Being able to look up answers to my questions on the Internet.
34. Lifetime Movie Network.
35. Having a positive number in my bank account.
36. Being able to stay at home with my kids.
37. Looking at pictures from my childhood.
38. Scary movies.
39. Garlic sauce from La Pita.
40. Spending time at home.
41. Rearranging furniture.
42. Clearance sales.
43. Finishing a half-marathon.
44. Organizing a closet or cupboard.
45. Playing board games.
46. Playing solitare on my computer.
47. Thinking of the funny things my kids do and say.
48. Browsing through patterns on ravelry.com.
49. Making “To Do” lists.
50. Getting a sincere compliment.
51. Getting “real” e-mail (letters from people, not automated e-mails)
52. Feeling refreshed after a hot shower.
53. Going to the zoo.
54. Surprising someone in a positive way.
55. Eminem’s “Lose Yourself”
56. Learning something new and interesting.
57. Chopping vegetables (celery and onions in particular)
58. Hot tea on a cold night.
59. “New Car” scented air freshener.
60. Putting on a sweatshirt fresh out of the drier.
61. Spending Halloween at my parents’ house and celebrating Mark’s birthday.
62. Reverse engineering a knit or crocheted item.
63. The color green.
64. Corn on the cob.
65. Romantic kisses in movies.
66. Spending the evenings outside during the summer.
67. Reading comments on my blog.
68. Having a good/funny/interesting status update on Facebook.
69. The smell of my kids when they just get out of the bath.
70. When Jerry laughs a genuine laugh from something I say.
71. Getting a refund for something.
72. Home-cooked meals.
73. A genuine hug from a friend.
74. Hearing a baby laugh.
75. Freshly vacuumed carpet.
76. Listening to my kids hold a conversation with each other.
77. Having a $0 balance on my credit cards.
78. Candlelight.
79. Playing badminton.
80. My nose piercing.
81. Getting pictures developed.
82. A super-crisp, sweet apple.
83. Being able to get just about any book I want from the library.
84. Feeling zoned out to the world when I run.
85. A nicely-made bed.
86. Wii Fit Plus.
87. Praying when I feel insecure or worried about something.
88. Really old photographs.
89. Trying new foods.
90. Barbecuing with friends.
91. Having the windows open on a breezy summer day.
92. Riding on The Raptor at Cedar Point.
93. My dad and brother coming home from Iraq safely.
94. Spending gift cards.
95. Men who play the piano.
96. Riding on a train.
97. Chivalry.
98. Sharing memories with friends.
99. Getting a hug from my kids “just because”.
100. Sitting in front of a fireplace.

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The Dr. Oz Show preview! (I am only in it for a split second)

Thanks to a heads-up from a blog reader, I just rushed back to my mom's house to see the Dr. Oz preview on her computer (our internet at home is still down). So I decided to post it here for you!  You can only see me for a split-second.

Here is a screen shot:

Don't blink, or you'll miss me! Haha ;)  Thanks for the good wishes and prayers for tomorrow!

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Less than 24 hours until surgery!

I’m so irritated right now because my internet has been down since just after I wrote yesterday’s blog. I can’t stand not being able to check my e-mail and blog comments and all that! Oh, and yesterday morning, Jerry was driving to work when the van overheated, so he came right back home and had to use a vacation day (there wasn’t enough time for him to get the Jeep and make it to work on time). I just came to my mom's for a minute to post this with her internet.

My surgery is less than 24 hours away as I write this—I’m SO excited!  Yesterday, I had Jerry take a whole bunch of “before” pictures of me and my saggy belly. I’m not at all sad to see it go, but I just want to make sure I get all the pictures I want before it’s gone. I can’t wait to compare photos a few weeks and months from now.

Here, you can see why I don't wear form-fitting clothes! I had to tuck my skin into my capris, and it bulges out).

Last night, Renee, Jessica, and I went out to dinner at La Pita. It’s an AMAZING Middle Eastern restaurant that I love, and Renee and Jessica had never been there.  I ordered my usual chicken kabob, which comes with hummus, warm pita bread, salad, rice pilaf, and my favorite—garlic sauce. It’s a pure white dip that has the texture of mayonnaise, and tastes like pure garlic heaven. LOVE that stuff! My kids asked me to bring some of it home, so I bought a 12 oz container of it for home.

Renee and Jessica really liked the food, which made me happy—since it was my idea to go there, and because it was kind of far to drive (40 minutes). I wish we had taken a picture of us there! Totally forgot about it. We were too busy inhaling garlic and hummus and pita bread!

Today I’ve been trying to get my house ready for when I come home on Tuesday. I want to have everything clean and ready for me to just relax for the next 10 days. I still have to get a few groceries, but I have no car today (Jerry had to take the Jeep to work, and my dad is going to fix the van later today). I have to pack overnight bags for the kids, because they are going to stay at my parents’ house for 3-4 days.

The kids were invited to a birthday party this afternoon. I feel so rushed to get everything done, but I already told them I’d take them to the party. After the party, they’ll go to my parents’ house for the night, and I’m going to bed at about 8 PM tonight. I have to leave at about 3:45 in the morning! My surgery starts at 6:30, and it’s supposed to take about six hours. I showed Jerry how to write updates on my blog. I apologize in advance if he updates a little too frequently! I am going to have him take lots of pictures and a video or two and I’ll post them as soon as I can. Maybe Wednesday?  I’ll be home on Tuesday evening, but I don’t know how I’ll be feeling.

Don’t forget to watch my Dr. Oz episode on Friday!! As soon as it airs, I’m going to publish the posts I wrote about the whole 24 hours I was in NYC for the taping.

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One year

A year ago today, I was feeling like crap--physically and mentally. I was struggling to get back on track with my diet and I had just gotten over a cold. My weight was up about 7 or 8 pounds from a couple weeks prior, and I was feeling like it was the beginning of my gaining all the weight back.

Instead of doing the logical thing of getting myself together, I went to Kroger and bought a container of Chocolate Peanut Butter ice cream. Not a small container; the size that is just under a half gallon. I brought it home and thought about it all afternoon. After Jerry left for work, I dished out a (large) helping of it and started eating. After that bowl was finished, I went back for more. And more. And before I knew it, I had finished it off.

I was so full and lethargic after eating that. I hadn't binged like that since before losing over a hundred pounds. I felt so guilty--about eat like a cow, and about lying on the couch afterward because I felt so full and sick. I felt like the world's worst mother, and I decided to ask the kids if they'd like to watch a movie with me. I let them choose the movie, and they chose Wall-E.

I so badly wanted the ice cream to hurry up and digest because I felt SO FULL. I was lying on the couch, and Noah was lying next to me; Eli was sitting by my feet.  At about 7:45 pm, I noticed that Noah had fallen asleep. I remember it was the part of the movie where the space ship tilts, and all the people start sliding down to the bottom. I decided to take Noah to bed and tuck him in. Eli was still awake.

I picked Noah up (at 6 years old, he was about 50-55 pounds).  I carried him to his bed, and set him on the top bunk. I tucked his covers around him, and he woke up. Sleepily, he asked if I would turn on his TV. I said sure, that I would turn on a movie for him. I turned on his DVD player, and was overcome with nausea.

I started to feel light headed, and my mouth was watering really badly like it does before you vomit--I thought, "Oh no, I'm going to throw up this ice cream! I better get to the bathroom."  And I started walking toward the door of Noah's bedroom, nauseous and with tunnel-vision.

The next thing I remember was feeling disoriented, confused, and my head felt extremely heavy. I realized I was lying on the floor face-down, my arms at my sides. I realized I had fainted, landing flat on my face. I started moving my limbs to make sure nothing was broken. I lifted my head and my vision was kind of blurry, but I finally recognized where I was. My face felt wet, and when I looked down, there was a big puddle of blood on the floor.

I panicked when I realized it was coming from my mouth, because I thought maybe I lost some teeth. I started feeling my teeth with my tongue to make sure they were all there, and then it hit me: I realized I had broken my jaw. I couldn't bite my teeth together, because the center of the lower half of my mouth felt like it had collapsed. My teeth were so misaligned, and I kept trying to bite them together, thinking maybe it just popped out of place and I could pop it back in.

I ran to the bathroom and started spitting out blood into the sink, and rinsing my mouth out. There was a hole through the skin under my lower lip, and another hole on the bottom of my chin, and that's where the blood was coming from. Once I realized that this was not something I could fix myself, I looked for my phone. I frantically called my mom (who lives just 2/3 of a mile away) and she heard the panic in my voice. She rushed over.

And that would begin what would become six nights at the hospital, including two surgeries and having my jaws wired shut for the holidays.  You can read the rest of the story and see all the pictures on my "The Accident" page.

I don't know why this became such a defining moment of my life. Lots of people break bones and it doesn't consume their thoughts. I think about this accident every single day of my life. Every time I'm tempted to eat too much sugar; every time I eat ice cream; every time I look in the mirror and see my scars and my jaw that isn't very proportioned anymore.

And as weird and creepy as this is going to sound, there is a small speck of blood on the backsplash of my bathroom sink. It's been there for a year. And when I clean, I clean around it. I cannot bring myself to wipe it off. I know--I realize this sounds ridiculous. 

If I could go back to a year ago today, I wouldn't change anything, as strange as it sounds. I learned who my true friends were, and that my family would do just about anything for me. I learned not to be afraid of surgery--which gave me the courage to seek out a plastic surgeon for my lower body lift. I learned that my body really missed running when I had to take a few weeks off. I learned that my body does NOT like it when I eat too much sugar--I get severe anxiety, shakes, and a racing heart. I learned how to make a smoothie/protein shake at least a thousand different ways ;)  And I think the accident was a cruel way of getting my ass back on track.

The best outcome from the whole ordeal was spending so much time with my family!

So, friends, eat something hard and crunchy today, for me--just because you CAN!  :) 

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Spoke too soon

Last night, I was getting undressed for bed, and I noticed a sprinkling of red spots across my chest, shoulders, and upper back. It's the same damn rash/breakout thing that happened when I was drinking the whey protein last year. I quit drinking it in the early spring, and the spots went away after a month or so. Then a week ago, I started having a shake every day to get ready for surgery, and I thought I was in the clear... until last night.

I'm 100% sure it's from the whey. I've eliminated everything else that it could be (including laundry detergents, shampoos and soaps, different foods) and slowly added each thing back in over the past year. I suspected it was the whey, but now I'm sure.

So I returned the big 5-pound bag of chocolate whey protein to Sam's Club today, and went to a few different stores looking for pea protein--no luck. I've tried brown rice protein, and it tastes just like brown rice, which is gross when you're making a Snickers shake! I have egg protein in the pantry, but I haven't tried it yet. I won't use soy. So my options are limited. I think I'll order some pea protein from Amazon.

Noah was coughing all night long, so I kept him home from school today--and it kind of threw off my whole day. I took him to the doctor at 9:30, and I was TERRIFIED of catching whatever all the sick kids have--if I get sick, I'll have to postpone my surgery. I put my sweatshirt up over my mouth and nose and left it like that the whole time I was there, as ridiculous as I looked. I actually ran into Renee as we were going into the exam room--one of her boys is sick too!

We stopped at the mall to go to GNC and see if they had the pea protein. While we were there, Noah I suggested we get a cookie from Mrs. Fields. We each ordered a peanut butter dream bar, and the girl who works there said, "Those are buy 2 get 1 free, would you like another?"  Do you even have to ask?! So I had a peanut butter dream bar for lunch, and it was delicious--and it kept me full until dinner!  Which it should, because it has 670 calories. At least I didn't have it in addition to lunch--I had it INSTEAD OF lunch.

I didn't get to run my 11k outside today, like I planned. Since Noah was home, I was stuck with the dreadmill. I had to look up how far 11 kilometers was...it's 6.835 miles. So I watched TV, tried to come up with a legitimate reason to quit early, and ran the 6.835 miles. My body feels great now (a little sore, meaning I haven't been running as much as I should have been lately!) but I think that was my final run for 2011. Unless I get some crazy idea to go for a run this weekend.

11-K on 11-11-11

I'm so glad that I backed out of the night run tonight. I really just want to get comfy in my fleece pajamas and stay warm! It was in the mid-30's today. I even drove to the school to drop off Eli's winter coat. He left this morning with a thin jacket. When I stepped outside to take Noah to the doctor, I was shocked at how cold it was, and I felt like the worst mom ever. So I grabbed his coat and took it to the school.

While I was in Sam's Club, I got a call from Eli's teacher. He got a red face on his chart today (which is bad) because he told some boy on the playground that he was going to rip his feet and head off, because the kid was being mean to him. Yikes. Is that normal boy stuff? I hope so.

I've gotten a lot of e-mails lately from readers that are worried about my surgery... I think that's funny, because I'm not even worried--and I'm always worried about something! I'm about 95% excited and 5% nervous. I know everything will be fine, I'm just nervous because I don't know what to expect. I'm going to try and answer some of your questions tonight. I read comments on the blog, then make a mental note to go back later and respond, but I always forget! I do the same thing with e-mail. Sorry.

That extra peanut butter dream bar is calling my name...... I won't eat it. I promise. But I still haven't told Eli about it. The right thing to do would be to give it to Eli, since he went to school and missed out. Right? But Eli doesn't need that crap, so maybe I should just eat it. That would be the good-mom thing to do, right? ;)

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Snowball

I was finally able to sleep in a little this morning--6:30. My boys were already up, of course. After I got them off to school, I went through our bills and paid them; Jerry has no clue how to pay the bills or even how much money he makes! So I just wanted to get as much done as possible before my surgery on Monday.

I was looking at my "snowball" spreadsheet to pay down our debt, and I got really motivated again to get a move on it. We haven't used the credit card in over a year, but the balance just doesn't seem to be getting any smaller. I really hope things keep going well with my ads on the blog, because I can use that money to pay off my surgery and then get going on the credit card debt. I recently told my mom how much we owe on the credit card, and I think she almost had a stroke. I will feel so FREE when we are out of debt!

So anyway, I refigured our budget and cut back everywhere I could (not that we haven't already done that). My not being able to go anywhere for a while is going to help, I'm sure--every time I run into the store for "just one thing" I end up buying a lot of little things that add up.

I decided to give my kids an allowance, also--just $5 per week. But I'm going to make them use THEIR money when they want something (obviously, I will pay for the necessities, but I always get suckered into buying them stuff they don't need). I'm also giving me and Jerry each $20 a week for the random crap that we want. I actually took out cash for this, so that we can actually see what we are spending, and hopefully spend less.

Chocolate Lovers Shake--so good!

I've been making different protein shakes every day, to start working on all the protein my surgeon wants me to eat.

I will probably be posting a lot of the recipes on my recipes blog--today I did a "chocolate lovers" shake that was really good; yesterday was "cinnamon roll"; the day before that was "Butterfinger".

These are all recipes that I adapted from some Herbalife recipes--I don't use Herbalife products, so I had to improvise their ingredients with something similar. I'll try and get those recipes up this weekend.

It's this time last year that I broke my jaw and was living off of shakes (literally). I got really sick of them by February, but now I really like them again.

Noah gave me a little card last night that I thought was so sweet!

In case you can't read 7-year old, it says:

My Family
1. Mama smart
2. Daddy funny
3. Noah funny
4. Eli creative
I love my family!

Noah has this knack for giving me things like this right after I scold him for something, which always makes me feel horrible.

Phoebe is recovering well. She spent the evening like this on my chest last night:

The puncture wound she has on her back is almost completely healed over. I was putting the warm compresses on it for a few days, and I really didn't think it was doing any good, but I guess I was wrong!

I'm back to square one with Paolo. It's so frustrating trying to find a home for an adult cat!! Especially Paolo, who has "special needs"--he's missing a lot of teeth, so he needs soft foods.

So tomorrow starts my final weekend with my big old belly skin. I can't wait for it to be gone, but it's almost a little sad. I might be going out to dinner with Renee on Friday or Saturday; and I want to get in a final long run; other than that, I have no real plans!

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