Wednesday Weigh-In: Week 126

Thank you for your confidence in my sewing skills regarding yesterday's post! I was SO sure the belt was going to be a nightmare to make, but I was kind of surprised at how relatively easily it came together. I didn't think I was going to be able to sew the fake leather with my sewing machine and there was no way I wanted to do that by hand. I tried a very large needle on the machine and it worked great!

I'll post photos of it tomorrow; I'm going to (try to) stain it darker. For what I had to work with, and in this time crunch, I'm pretty happy with it.

Anyway, I sound more and more like a broken record each week when I do my Wednesday Weigh-In... "I wanted a good week, I'm trying, it's hard, blah blah blah". And today is no different. I have been struggling so hard with sugar cravings, and it started so long ago (literally right after I wrote a post about how eating sugar triggers my cravings). Once sugar is out of my system, I feel great and it's easy to not eat it. It's getting to that point--which takes about four days--that is killer.

This week was particularly rough and I caved in and ate more Oreos than I care to admit. (It was that Reddit post I shared recently that got me thinking of Oreos!) I *know* I shouldn't do that. I *know* it just makes cravings a million times worse. It's nothing new to me... but I just haven't been able to say no!

I've avoided the scale and I actually chose not to weigh in today. I know that avoiding the number isn't going to change anything--it is what it is--but I just didn't want to do it. My jeans feel very tight, so I know that I've gained weight. At this size, even a few pounds is very noticeable in my clothes.

The part that bothers me the most, though, is how I feel. Even if the scale hasn't moved, I just don't *feel* good with the way I've been eating. 

What am I going to do about it? Just keep trying. I will not buy more Oreos; my main focus is going to be getting the sugar out of my system. I just want to stop craving it, and the only way to do that is to go without for a little while. And hopefully, I will have learned my lesson for good this time. (How many times have I said that?) I had no idea just how hard the cycle would be to stop.

My mood has been good, thankfully! The eating isn't for emotional reasons and I'm not binge eating; I've just been craving sweets in a horrible way. I know what the problem is and I know how to fix it... I just need the discipline to DO IT. I know it's there inside me somewhere, so now I just have to find it.

Over the last few weeks, I also stopped a few of the habits I was working on (I'm still doing most of them, though) and I want to get back to tracking those like I was before. I've still been running every morning and I think that's been helping with keeping my mood stable. I've gotten into a great morning routine.

Now, I'd like to work the other habits into the routine with a little more planning via "habit stacking". Habit stacking (which I learned about in the Atomic Habits book) is where you do the new habit either right before or right after another established habit). I found that the habits I've maintained are the ones that I've stacked.

Having a routine is super helpful with my eating habits as well, so hopefully it'll help me get though the tough parts when I'm craving Oreos (or other sweets). 

Anyway, I promised myself long ago that I wouldn't skip two weekly weigh-ins in a row, so I'm going to weigh in next week no matter what. Maybe keeping that in mind will be what I need this week ;)