Thursday, September 12, 2013

The infamous dress

The infamous dress.
This pic was from
when I first got it.
I will be SO relieved when Jerry's sister's wedding is over. I did great all week long, eating really well, and yesterday I tried on the bridesmaid dress. It was really tight, and Jerry had to pull hard to get the top hooked. Then I took a breath, and the hook flew off the dress! Awesome.

Jerry and I both got on our hands and knees looking for the hook. I managed to find it and sew it back on. I can get in the dress and zip it, but I can't take a deep breath in it. The dress fit wonderfully when I bought it, but five pounds makes a big difference at this size. When the bride insisted we buy our dresses in April, I had a feeling this would happen, and was tempted to order a size up, but felt like I'd manage to maintain my weight.

Anyway, I'm just going to go easy on the sodium for the next couple of days, and hopefully that will be enough to make the dress more comfortable. I just don't understand it, because I didn't binge, I was 100% on track, and felt great! Until I tried on the dress. What a way to ruin my mood.

At around 7:00 last night, our power went out. I kept waiting for it to come right back on, but no such luck. There wasn't a storm (yet), but it was kind of windy. We lit some candles, and Jerry and I ended up spending the evening with a glass of wine and chatting. It was actually really nice to have the TV and computers off for the night. By the time we went to bed, the power was still out. Finally, just before 11:00, it came on.

This morning, my dad was off work and wanted to walk the kids to the bus stop, so I was able to head out earlier to run. I was all ready to run on the treadmill, but changed my mind at the last minute and went outside. I was expecting it to be really hot, since it was in the high 90's the last couple of days, but it wasn't TOO bad--"feels like" temp of 72 and humid.

I felt pretty good for the first mile, getting it done in 8:32, but I slowed way down after that. I felt like I was still running a sub-9:00 pace, but I finished the second mile in 9:01. I was discouraged when I saw that, and just kind of decided to run however I felt like running, and not push too hard to get the 8:58 pace (read: be a big baby that I didn't hit my target). Miles 3 and 4 were still in the 9's, and then I ended up having to turn onto a side street to avoid a bunch of construction on the road. Once I turned, my energy seemed to pick up, and I managed sub-9's for the rest of the run.

About a week ago, there was a deer that was hit by a car on the side of the road. I dread going past it, because it stinks, obviously. Today, I thought it was gone, and I saw what looked like a piece of cardboard laying there. When I got up next to it, I noticed the "cardboard" was moving. There were millions of tiny worms crawling all over the deer carcass, and I couldn't even see the deer anymore. So gross.


I went to TJ Maxx yesterday to look for a possible marathon outfit. I wanted to get a tank top that had a wide enough back for writing something on it. I have iron-on letters, so I'll probably just use those to make a race shirt. Anyway, I found this purple and white one for $10, so I wore it today to try it out and see if it was comfortable. It felt fine, so now I just need to come up with something to put on it.





I ended my no-peanut-butter streak today :)  It wasn't an impulsive decision; I'd actually been thinking it over for a week, and decided today would be the day. I went 10 weeks without peanut butter! I never expected to make it that long. But I really missed it, and decided that if I can manage to eat it without bingeing, then I can end my streak early. I'm still not going to buy my new dishes until after the race, though.

I had peanut butter twice today. For breakfast, I made my old favorite of oatmeal with peanut butter, chocolate chips, caramel, and coconut; and for dinner, I had a Fluffernutter sandwich. Yes, peanut butter is just as good as I remember! ;)

25 comments:

  1. I have that dress in purple :)

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  2. that color looks amazing on you!!! you are inspiring me to get back on track, katie!

    i blogged about it this week and hope to have good news to report on motivational monday! :-)

    http://erikafinn.com/getting-real-with-myself/

    thanks for being so inspiring!!!

    -Erika

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  3. I love peanut butter... there is no way I'd be able to go without lol...

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  4. Okay seriously? You didn't ONLY have a fluffernutter sandwich for dinner did you? :-) Tell me you had a proper healthy dinner and that was your snack?

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    1. Hey, sometimes I eat what I'm really craving for dinner, whether it's healthy or not ;) Yesterday, it was a fluffernutter (and a pear). At 500 calories, it would be a pretty hefty snack!

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  5. You look awesome in that dress! That color is perfect for you!

    You might try adding lemon to your water, the lemon is a natural diuretic and will help lose any water weight so you're more comfortable in your dress.

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  6. I had my second fitting for my wedding dress today, and was told I could not gain or lose any weight for 2 weeks or it would cost me more in alterations. I immediately went home and did some stress drinking. I need to get it out of my head and just relax. You'll be fine! Keep on plan, and be careful at the rehearsal dinner. I always am puffy on the wedding day from dining out and drinking too much!

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    1. Yes, isn't it stressful to be told not to gain or lose anything?! I do much better with my eating when I'm not under stress, so hopefully after this wedding, I'll feel better about it.

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  7. That is awesome you made it 10 weeks without peanut butter. I don't know if I could do that! I was at the mall tonight with a friend, and the yogurt place had fluffernutter frozen yogurt. It was reallllly good. I love the headband you're wearing in that photo. Where is it from? I really need some new ones. They ones I have are getting old.

    That's a pretty dress, but I hear you on wanting the wedding to be over. I was in 2 last year, and it stressed me out so much.

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  8. One of the things that continues to surprise me, Katie, is that even though you're now a tiny little peanut who runs in preparation for marathons, you still struggle with your eating and can feel disappointed when your dress is too tight. I still think of thin people as not having weight baggage, but I guess those of us who have weight issues will always, on some level, need to combat the mental part of it. I have a long way to go in my weight loss, but I find that a month into Weight Watchers, I am starting to fall back into old bad habits. I am just beginning to understand that this is a forever process. Thank you for sharing your triumphs and vulnerabilities. They help me understand myself better.

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    1. A "tiny little peanut"... hahaha, I love that! But you're right, the issues don't just go away with the weight loss. It's a struggle for me every single day, but I do learn a lot in the process!

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  9. I really like your picture from today, you look skinny and you glow. I an surprised that you have power failure in America too. It's so very common here.

    I have a question(s) and hope you can address to them one of these day(when time permits)

    1. I have been eating 1300-1500 calories but I am at a stall. My weight is swinging from 64-65 kilos, since June.
    Now I think somehow I have gone into maintenance. I'm not sure on how to start 'losing' again. Do you think I need to eat fewer calories? I'm unable to figure out what to deduct from my meal:(

    2. I read you lost your 60 lbs without walks. And, when you started walking (thrice a week then) it was 3 miles. I have been doing about 25-30 minutes five times a week. Do you think that is good enough?
    Also, now you run almost daily, how did that transition happen if I may ask.

    3.Will you count 1/2 cup of bran-flakes with 1 tbsp choco-chips as a dessert? I have been 'addicted' and that is my bed-time snack.

    Except for today, I have not binges in days.

    Sorry, about this longish comment. I started this journey after reading your blog, and I lost 15 pounds(only) in 16 months.

    Appreciate, your reading and taking time. Thanks
    Zainab

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    1. Zainab, from what you've said, it sounds like you're doing great! If you've hit a plateau, I would try changing something up--maybe try increasing your calories for a week, and if that doesn't work, try increasing the intensity of your walking. I had to experiment quite a bit over the year and a half I was losing weight to find what worked best for me.

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  10. Hang in there girl. Drink tons of water, watch your intake and you'll be good to go for the wedding!

    Good on ya for eating peanut butter in a controlled manner that you fit into your calories. Life is about enjoying those little indulgences whether it's "proper" or not. ;)

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  11. The dress is beautiful. I'm sorry you feel too snug in it. I'm sure you'll be fine.

    ewww...the deer, but kind of funny.

    Thanks for your daily posts. You're a real source of encouragement for me as I finish up my weight loss journey and am running. Have a great weekend!

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  12. Maybe once the humidity breaks, you will find the dress is more comfy... I know I swell up when it gets too sticky out there.
    You look great in it, cant tell you are uncomfy at all!

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  13. Hi Katie, I've been reading your blog every so often over the last 2 years and I wanted to point out something I noticed, that maybe you do not. You mentioned the issues with the bridesmaid dress and how you struggle with weight during the summer but come fall and winter manage to stay on track... what I've noticed is that you began a no-PB streak (over the last 10 weeks) but once you added the 5lbs and the dress didn't fit the way you'd hoped you didn't binge per-say but gave up on the no-PB till the marathon and caved, thus ending your streak. I know this is your decision and you mentioned not binging but a binge doesn't have to be a full-on gorge fest. For me, binging can sometimes mean baking cookies and having to lick the spoon. It's something I might not necessarily want to do but given my mood I might just do it. Just something to think about...

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    1. I think I understand what you're getting at, and if I had been impulsive with the peanut butter, that may have been an issue. But I had been thinking about ending my no-pb streak for over a week, and had picked Thursday as the day several days before I tried on the dress again... so eating the peanut butter wasn't a reflection on my feelings over the dress :)

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  14. The dress is really pretty and should photograph beautifully. I bet it will be a lovely wedding and you should have a great time.
    I'm thinking the perfect words on the back of your shirt for the marathon would be "Runs for Cookies." It's such a great name for a blog and so appropos to you. Plus good advertising for the blog!

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  15. Just have to tell you that dress is beautiful. You look amazing!!

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  16. Carolyn KirchenstienSeptember 13, 2013 at 11:06 AM

    You look fabulous in that dress! I love reading your blog and your struggles/successes! It helps me to try to focus, i too gain in the summer, for some reason nice weather makes me want to eat more, so now i gained 10lbs from the weight i lost in the spring and i still don't have the motivation to get rid of it! Ugh! So impressed that you keep finding your motivation, hopefully i will soon! Running ft wayne 1/2 marathon this month, and i refuse to let myself walk in it!

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  17. Oh I completely feel you on the whole bridesmaid dress thing. I went and got fitted this weekend for a bridesmaid's dress...the wedding isnt until APRIL. I'm scared to death my dress isn't going to fit then. Well I know it isn't going to because I'm gonna be soooo much smaller then :) HOPEFULLY. But I guess alterations aren't so bad afterall if it's going to be like that. I just WISH I was your size and didn't fit in my dress! LOL! Have a good weekend! :)

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  18. You have to put on "runs for cookies" don't you think??

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  19. Not to be ugly because I love your blog, but I notice a trend with you. You say your not binging, but you don't really seem to make healthy choices. Just because you kept it under 500 calories doesn't mean that it was the smart choice to make for dinner.

    You can't really complain about not fitting into the dress when you are drinking wine every night, when eating out you don't make good choices, and eating Fluffernutters for dinner... Come on, you can't seriously think that you are on the right track.

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  20. TEN WEEKS WITHOUT PEANUT BUTTER???
    are you insane ;-)

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