Even though I expected it (see previous entry), I'm totally bummed. I was 139.5 today. Which means, after 4 days of strict calorie counting, I'm UP by half a pound. This has actually never happened to me before. When I was actively losing the 125 pounds I lost between Aug 2009 and Dec 2010, I went 53 weeks before I had a gain.
And the reason I had a gain was because I binged for the first time in 53 weeks. Every time that I accurately count my calories, I lose weight. Except for now.
I cannot think of a bigger binge trigger. It will be a miracle if I make it through today without bingeing. I know I should not let the numbers on the scale dictate how I feel, but when I've put in this much effort (the first four days are the HARDEST to endure for me), I expect to see results. And when I don't get results, I think, "Why even bother?"
I'll update tonight.