April 05, 2018

Family Vacation Photos, Part 2: Boston (continued)

(continued from Part 1)

To recap: We had quite a whirlwind trip! I have a trillion pictures, so rather than bombard you all with them in one post, I'll just post over the next few days with them. Since I haven't felt like writing much lately anyways, this will be a good way to ease back into (trying to) write regularly.

In a nutshell: Jerry, the kids, and I flew into Boston on Wednesday, and spent three nights there; we drove to Salem and spent one night there; then made a road trip south and back north and then south again, winding up in Portland, Maine. We flew out of Boston yesterday and are home now.

I have a ton of pictures from the trip, so I'll try to narrow it down to my favorites. I have to say, I'm very self-conscious about posting these pictures. It could be the depression making me feel bad about myself, but I feel fat and "exposed" in them, if that makes sense. I almost didn't post most of these for that reason, but one thing that I regret about being 250+ pounds was that I avoided pictures like the plague.

So, even though I'm not thrilled with how my body looks right now (I was up to 143--10 pounds over my goal weight--when we left for the trip. Today, I was up another 5 pounds from vacation weight. I'm hoping to take that off over the next week, since vacation weight is usually temporary water fluctuations, but it still makes me feel bad.)

Here goes Part 2...

After the failed whale watching, we went to the aquarium, which was right next door. I was super impressed with the aquarium! It was one of the best I've seen. We started with a "hands-on" sting ray exhibit. The sting rays were so cute--they kept coming right up to us and bumping their heads against us. I had expected them to shy away, annoyed that we were even there, haha.


I didn't take many pictures in the aquarium. One thing I learned over the last several years (especially while going through photos on my computer and organizing them) is that I only really want the photos with people in them. Looking through photos of my trips, the pictures of scenery doesn't really interest me unless there are people in them. So, I stopped taking pictures of "things", unless I have a reason to, and I try to include people in all my pics.


After the aquarium, we went to the original Cheers bar for dinner. Again, this was another touristy thing that Jerry wanted to do, and the kids were all for it. For being a tourist attraction, I was very impressed with their food! I was expecting subpar bar food, but it definitely exceeded my expectations. The atmosphere was fun, and Jerry was able to get a souvenir beer glass.


On the way back to the hotel, we walked through Boston Common (the large park in downtown Boston).


As we stopped to take a couple of photos, we ended up chatting for a long time with a man we saw nearby.

His name is David Pogue, and he "takes care of" the squirrels in the park every day. He's a local college professor with a love of squirrels, and I was amazed at how the squirrels were like magnets to him. He set down his bags on the ground to talk to us, and instantly, there were a couple of squirrels digging around in his bag.

As he was talking to us, squirrels were coming up to him and literally climbing up his leg and arms to see if he was holding nuts in his hands (he brings almonds and walnuts for them). He even taught the squirrels to sit on his head for a walnut (a special treat)!

(I've already heard from several readers how horrible it is to feed squirrels, so I don't need to hear it again; but that isn't what this is about--we simply met an interesting man in the park who happens to love squirrels, and we enjoyed watching him interact with them.)


He told us that someone had made a very short film of him last year, which we could find on YouTube. I looked it up later, and here it is:


We were sitting on a bench, and we didn't know it, but David told us that it was the bench that was in a famous scene in Good Will Hunting. I'd seen the movie, but didn't know the scene he was referring to; regardless, he offered to take some photos of us on the bench, which was nice of him.

(Eli bought the shark hat at the aquarium. Clearly, it made for good family photos.)


As David was taking this photo (similar to the one in the movie), one of his squirrels literally climbed up my leg and started digging through my purse! Hahaha, unlucky for him, I didn't have any treats in there.


 The buildings are my favorite part of downtown Boston. I love how unique they look!


We went back to the hotel to prepare for Day 3.

On Friday, we got breakfast and headed to Fenway Park for a stadium tour. (Again, something I've done before, but I knew the boys would all like it). Since we didn't have a car, I was excited to show the kids how to use a subway. Boston's system is SUPER easy compared to NYC, but since I didn't learn (or even go on) a subway until I was in my early 30's, I loved that I was able to show them how to get around.

As you can see from the photo, they were clearly very interested in learning, hahaha.


Family photo op at Fenway...


Noah took this picture, and I love it!


Jerry was having the time of his life, of course.


The tour was SO much warmer than it was last year when I went with Caitlin and John. It wasn't sunny, but it was nearly 60 degrees outside, so I was happy.


It started sprinkling on the way back into downtown Boston. We stopped at Faneuil Hall, because I knew the kids would love shopping for souvenirs there, but it was closed for renovation! Such a bummer. We grabbed a quick lunch in Quincy Market, and then walked back to the hotel in the rain (luckily, we had umbrellas).

It was rainy, everyone was tired, and we just weren't in the mood to go explore--we had planned on going to the Science Museum, but we just weren't up for it at that point. At dinnertime, we walked a block or two to a place called Intermission Tavern. It wasn't on our radar, but that was probably our favorite meal on the trip! Jerry and I shared a barbecue burger which was delicious, and Eli had the best nachos I've ever tried. (Noah got a burger, too)




On the way back to the hotel, we stopped at 7-11 to get a snack for later, and ended up meeting the most amazing man. He was homeless, and holding the door open for people who were entering and exiting 7-11. When Eli was paying for his snack, with his own allowance, he said he wanted to give the man his change on the way out. 

Well, the man thanked us profusely, and while it was difficult to understand him, I could tell he was telling Eli to be good and listen to his mom. It was then that I realized he was deaf, which was why it was hard to understand him.

Side note: I have always been fascinated with the deaf community, and started trying to teach myself American Sign Language when I was just eight years old. (On a school trip to Washington D.C. in high school, we had a free day to roam the city. While everyone else explored the typical teen attractions, I spent my day at Gallaudet University, an exclusively deaf college.)  I've taken several classes through the years, but never enough to really learn the language.

Anyway, I started signing a little with him, and he was so nice! His name is Daryl, and we learned that he was born deaf. He was one of seven siblings, and was raised by his dad until his dad died when he was very young. He wasn't able to get a good deaf education or opportunities, which led to his homelessness. He kept telling Eli to make sure that he learns and listens to his mom who loves him so that he doesn't end up homeless like him. 

Interacting with Daryl was probably the highlight of the entire trip for me. And the kids loved it, too. They wanted to learn how to sign their names, so I taught them that at the hotel later. They also said they wanted to learn ASL, so I think I'm going to look into a way for us to learn it as a family. They even talked about Daryl a few more times during the rest of the trip, so he certainly made an impact on them. 

Being in a city is great--I love that I have met some of the coolest people simply by chance!

To be continued... next up is Salem!

April 04, 2018

Family Vacation Photos, Part 1: Boston

Well, I am home from Boston/Portland!

I brought my laptop with me to write while I was gone, but I never even opened it. It's much harder to get any time to myself when I'm traveling with my family. It was nice to focus on just the family instead of worrying about everything else.

We had quite a whirlwind trip! I have a trillion pictures, so rather than bombard you all with them in one post, I'll just post over the next few days with them. Since I haven't felt like writing much lately anyways, this will be a good way to ease back into (trying to) write regularly.

I'm still not feeling great mentally (I was actually very close to having a full blown panic attack yesterday, which was scary), but I'm hoping it will pass soon. The depression I'm feeling is not nearly as bad as it was before my bipolar diagnosis and new meds, but it's there. And it's hard to think positively about it.

But, other than that stuff, here are some photos and a few written tidbits about the trip.

In a nutshell: Jerry, the kids, and I flew into Boston on Wednesday, and spent three nights there; we drove to Salem and spent one night there; then made a road trip south and back north and then south again, winding up in Portland, Maine. We flew out of Boston yesterday and are home now.

I have a ton of pictures from the trip, so I'll try to narrow it down to my favorites. I have to say, I'm very self-conscious about posting these pictures. It could be the depression making me feel bad about myself, but I feel fat and "exposed" in them, if that makes sense. I almost didn't post most of these for that reason, but one thing that I regret about being 250+ pounds was that I avoided pictures like the plague.

So, even though I'm not thrilled with how my body looks right now (I was up to 143--10 pounds over my goal weight--when we left for the trip. Today, I was up another 5 pounds from vacation weight. I'm hoping to take that off over the next week, since vacation weight is usually temporary water fluctuations, but it still makes me feel bad.)



Becky, my sister-in-law, picked us up at 5:00 on Wednesday morning to drive us to the airport, which was SO nice of her! If we drove ourselves, parking would have been $150, so it saved us a lot of money. In return, I told her I'd babysit Luke this Sunday overnight--so I totally got the better end of the deal ;)

I wasn't at all nervous about flying, which was awesome. I've gotten so exposed to it over the last several years that I don't even worry about it anymore. I chose window seats for the boys, and Jerry and I each took the middle seat next to them. I sat next to Eli, and Jerry sat next to Noah.

I certainly made the right choice, because Jerry was in the perfect spot to massage my shoulders! hahaha


Surprisingly (to me), Eli was nervous about flying. And because I know what a horrible feeling that is, I knew just the right things to say to him. I didn't quote all the stupid statistics that people love to say to a nervous flyer--I just told him the things that I wanted to hear when I was nervous: the plane gets a little (or sometimes a lot) bumpy when going through the cirrus clouds (thin and whispy ones), so you know to expect that, particularly after take-off; that the noises the plane makes during the flight are usually from altitude changes in order to find a smoother ride; if you lift your feet off the floor when it's bumpy, you barely notice the bumps; and some other things.


Also, the napkin I was given with my coffee was made just for me:


Caitlin, very good friend from Boston, generously picked us up from the airport and hung out with us for the day! She even brought us this amazing gift basket that I forgot to take a picture of before my kids started inhaling it--lots of snacks, including homemade cookies and Rice Krispie treats.

The first thing we did (mainly to get it out of the way, because it was really just Jerry's thing) was go to Sam Adams for the brewery tour. Jerry loved it, and it was only an hour, so we were cool with that. Then we went to Doyle's for lunch--Eli and I are both obsessed with fried pickles, and Doyle's has some amazing ones, so I wanted him to try them.


After that, we walked the Freedom Trail. Our hotel (the Revere Boston Common) was just about two blocks from Boston Common, so we had a fantastic location to walk the city. It was fairly cold outside, but definitely not as bad as I was imagining it would be. Thank goodness!


Funnily enough, our favorite site along the Freedom Trail was the cemetery. I've always loved walking through cemeteries, and could literally spend all day reading the gravestones. The kids loved it, too, so I was glad that I didn't feel rushed.


A couple of years ago, my older brother, Brian, gave Noah a nice Nikon camera that he didn't use anymore, and Noah has LOVED using it. He took it with us everywhere, and got some very nice pictures. I thought it was cute to watch him find the perfect photo ops ;)


This was actually his photo, not mine, but I found it interesting to see that this was a very common figure to be found on headstones. It looks creepy to me, but it was on a LOT of them--there was also a variation of it, with a skull instead of a face.


Another of Noah's pictures. I was very impressed by this one! It looks awesome in black and white.


I totally forgot to get a picture of our desserts from Mike's, but of course we stopped at Mike's Pastry along the way so I could show the family what all the hype is about. We sat down at these benches to eat, and Noah took some pictures of the birds.


The Freedom Trail took up the better part of the afternoon, and we were exhausted by 6:00. We went to the hotel so that the kids could swim in the hotel's pool. It was a nice first day!


On our second day in Boston, we had reservations for a Boston Harbor Cruises whale watching tour at 10:00. We were so excited for this! I have always wanted to see a whale in the ocean, and I couldn't wait for this tour. We got a quick breakfast of bagels at Panera, and then walked to the waterfront.


On the way to the dock, Noah kept exclaiming how much he loves the city--not just Boston, but "city life" in general. He thought it was so cool that we could walk wherever we wanted to go. I can totally see him moving to a city when he's older!


It was COLD on the boat. The boat traveled at 35+ miles per hour, and when it's already cold outside, the open ocean makes it feel twice as cold. I'm wearing three layers here: a long-sleeved warm turtleneck, a windbreaker jacket, and then a heavy sweatshirt on top. A hat, gloves, and even a Buff around my neck. It was super windy, so we had to hold on tight. And here, Jerry was blocking the wind for me, hahaha.


Noah is now at the age where he is "too cool" to smile and act goofy like his parents (he says he hates his teeth, so he won't smile showing his teeth at all).


The whale watching tour was a big disappointment, because we didn't see a single whale! From all the amazing reviews I read on Trip Advisor and Yelp, I was SO sure this was the perfect thing for us to do, and that we would see whales. But no such luck. Since whale sightings are "guaranteed" for the company, they gave us passes to use in the future--they never expire, so if we should go back in 20 years or so, we can try again ;)

... to be continued. There are way too many photos to post in one go!


March 26, 2018

Weekly Wrap-Up: Week 10 of Half-Marathon Training

Thank you so much for the kind comments on my last post. My mood has been all over the place, and it sounds like a "mixed state" of bipolar--having symptoms of depression and hypomania at the same time (of course, it's only the bad hypomanic symptoms that I'm experiencing right now). Mine is depression dominant right now, which is basically meeting the criteria for depression while having some hypomanic symptoms as well.

It's not been fun! It's been difficult for me, but also difficult for those around me--not sure what my mood is going to be like. The hardest part right now is the insomnia. When I'm depressed, I have terrible insomnia. But when I'm hypomanic, I have no need for sleep. And there is a big difference! Insomnia makes me SO SO tired, but I cannot fall asleep for anything. And I'm constantly exhausted from the lack of sleep. To the contrary, having "no need" for sleep due to hypomania means I am wide awake and perky with just a few hours of sleep, and I don't feel the effects of not sleeping.

Over the past couple of days, I've started feeling a little better as far as the depression goes. I'm hoping that once we get home from vacation, I'll be able to relax because I'll stop worrying about everything having to do with the trip. (It seems like vacation is relaxing for everyone except the person who does all the planning!)

The weather is looking pretty "eh" for Boston. No snow, but lots of rain... it has rained EVERY single time I've gone to Boston! I've been to Portland, which is known for being rainy, five (six? five?) times in the last three years, and it has rained just ONCE. But for each of the three times I've gone to Boston, it has rained significantly. So, the rain part doesn't surprise me. Thursday looks decent--55 and cloudy--for the whale watching. That's the one thing that I really hope we'll have good weather for.

The kids and Jerry are very excited about going, and that's all that matters. Maybe once we get there, I'll relax a bit and enjoy it!

The kids are doing sports for school (Eli is running track and Noah is playing baseball) and I've had a trillion forms to get done with tomorrow as a deadline. I only received these papers on Wednesday! They had to have a physical (thankfully, my doctor was willing to see them on such short notice), and today I have to go get some forms notarized. Isn't that crazy? I have to sign a "consent to play" paper (saying that I give consent for my child to participate in that sport) in front of a notary public! So, it has been stressful trying to get all this done before we leave, on top of getting ready for vacation.

But, like I said, I am starting to feel better. I have some cool things to look forward to over the next couple of months, and I'm going to be staying super busy with the boys' sports schedules. They've never really done schools sports before (cross country is with a running club), and I was so surprised when I saw the schedule for their sports this spring. Practice or games/meets every single day. It's going to be a big change of pace for the whole household. Fun, though!


I've had an exhausting weekend, so I put off writing this until today. We are officially done with 10 weeks of half-marathon training! 

Like I mentioned before, I ran into a little trouble with my IT band. It wasn't terrible--just a little nag that I noticed and was concerned with. The last thing I wanted was to get injured this far into training. I had been working on it with a foam roller, and Jerry "massaged" it (I put that in quotes because it was NOT a nice massage--it hurt like a bitch). I think the massage helped the most, actually.

I was worried all week about whether I'd be able to get in my 11 mile long run before going on vacation. I worked out our schedule so that we wouldn't have to do a long run on vacation (trying to run 12 miles while on a family vacation is crazy).

I knew if I could just get through the 11 miler, I would be able to get through the half-marathon, even if I don't get in another long run. It wouldn't be fun, but I could do it. (I do have a 12-miler scheduled for when we get back, though.) I was just very worried that I'd have to quit training altogether and/or drop out of the race.

Anyway...

Our training week looked like this:

Tuesday - Tempo Run (25 minutes + 5 min warm up and 5 min cool down)
Wednesday - 3 miles easy
Friday - 4.5 miles easy
Sunday - Long Run (11 miles)

Here is how it actually went...

Tuesday - Rest

My knee had been bothering me after our long run on Sunday, and then again on Monday. I decided to push this run to Wednesday, and hopefully squeeze in the rest during the week. I would rather be cautious than worry about getting it in on Tuesday.

Wednesday - 30 minute easy run

This run was the planned tempo from Tuesday, but once I started running, I just wanted to make sure I got through it without having any problems with my IT band. So, instead of doing the scheduled tempo run, I decided to run for 30 minutes. Toward the last few minutes, I started getting that nagging feeling in my knee. *Cue catastrophic thinking*



Thursday - 4.5 mile easy run

I ran outside. It was nice running weather, and I just couldn't stand the thought of the treadmill. I was supposed to do 4.5 miles, and I just hoped I could do it without IT band issues. I didn't pay any attention to my heart rate or pace (I didn't even look at my watch, actually) and I just ran easy. I couldn't stop focusing on my knee, but I didn't have any issues with it. I was so glad!

I managed to finish the run, and I was very surprised to see my pace under 11:00. My heart rate was high, though, because I hadn't been paying attention to it. Anyway, I was happy to have finished.


The next day, my knee was bothering me again. It was so frustrating! Jerry spent a long time massaging it, and I just hoped it would help me to be able to run on Saturday for our long run. (Jerry had to work on Sunday, so we decided to do our long run Saturday instead, in order to run together).

Friday - Rest

Because of the IT band irritation from Thursday, and the impending long run on Saturday, I decided to rest on Friday instead of trying to squeeze in a fourth run this week.

Saturday - Long run (11 miles)

This was the moment of truth. If I could get through this run, my confidence would be very high that I would be able to finish training and run the half next month. My knee felt okay while I was getting ready to go, but I was still completely pessimistic.

I decided to park near the Metropark and we could do two out and back routes from the car--one through the park (7 miles) and one the opposite direction (4 miles). That way, if my knee started acting up, I would have a chance to quit. We chose the 4-miler first, because the 7-miler through the Metropark would have bathrooms and water at the turnaround point--when we'd likely need it most.

Again, I didn't watch my heart rate, but whenever Jerry noticed we were running too fast (under 11:00), I told him to slow us down. I wanted to make sure I got through this run!

I made it through the first out and back (four miles) no problem. We stopped at the car for a second to drink a little water, and then we headed toward the Metropark. This is where it got cool for me. I had run this route so many times with Jessica while marathon training, and I knew all the landmarks that were significant.

So, instead of focusing on running seven more miles, I just focused on the next landmark. (From the car to the traffic light; going from the woods to the fields; the random grassy hill; the wooden bridge (which was exactly one mile from the turnaround point); the marina (bathrooms/turnaround); then, all of it again in reverse).

Focusing on getting to the next landmark instead of on mileage and/or time made the run go by so much faster! We had good conversation, too, especially the last four miles or so. We made it back to the car, and I couldn't believe I'd actually done it--11 miles!


I didn't have any trouble with my knee (I'd worn a brace, just in case). It was a huge confidence booster as far as the race goes. That was definitely my favorite of our long runs together. Again, I was kind of shocked at our pace--sub 11:00! I had been planning on 11:15-11:30.

We each got a long run treat on the way home, and I picked out tiramisu. It was SO good!


So, I only got in three out of four runs this week, but I'm glad I skipped the one I did; if I hadn't, maybe I wouldn't have been able to finish the 11-miler. Yesterday, I woke up feeling slightly sore from the run, but no issues with my IT band at all. We're going to be doing a lot of walking in Boston, so I'm grateful that I won't be limping!


I penciled in a few short runs for our trip, so that we can use the hotel treadmills to run 3-4 miles on a few days. But even if we don't run at all while we're gone, we'll still have 11 days left of training before the race.



We went to visit my nephew, Luke, yesterday, and he LOVES playing with Noah and Eli. Eli especially adores Luke, so he spent the whole afternoon letting Luke chase him around the house. (Luke is walking now!! It seems like just yesterday that he was born.) He is the cutest baby! I love watching him laugh with my boys.



March 21, 2018

Best week ever!

Just kidding. It's been a terrible week, which is why I haven't been writing. I always have a hard time writing when I'm feeling down.

My depression and anxiety have been pretty bad over the last week. Usually, it's one or the other that dominates my mood; but this week, I was blessed with sky-high anxiety and a sadness funk that I just can't shake (not that I was able to "just shake it off" before).


My meds haven't changed recently or anything, so it could just be a "normal" bipolar episode. I'm just really hoping that I get back to the "other" normal soon. This past week, I've been feeling super overwhelmed with stuff to do, but I can't get the motivation to just DO it. We leave for vacation next week, and I would love to feel better before we go.


I wish I could say I was looking forward to vacation, but I made a bad choice of destination for an early-spring trip (Boston). There have been Nor'easter storms hitting pretty much every week, so the weather is up in the air (ha ha). I spent SO much time planning this trip, and I just hope that we get good weather to enjoy the things I planned.

However, I do keep reminding myself of when we went to Virginia Beach a couple of years ago and were hit with a tropical storm. We ended up having a blast! The kids loved that vacation, despite the weather (or maybe because of the weather), so hopefully Boston will be fun regardless.


Right now, I'm just having such a hard time thinking positively.

My knee, for example. I mentioned that I was having some IT band soreness after my 10-miler. I was very careful about rolling it out and stretching it for two days (I pushed yesterday's run to today to give myself an extra day before I tried running on it). I felt good for the run today, but afterward, this afternoon, I keep feeling twinges here and there.

Ordinarily, I probably wouldn't think anything of it. But I tend to have catastrophic thinking (one of the cognitive distortions I mentioned recently), so right now, every little thing feels like a really big thing. And so my mind immediately started going to, "I'm injured. I can't run. I can't finish this training. I can't run the half-marathon next month. I'll never run again."

Dramatic, much?

Even though I haven't been feeling great mentally, I've been proud of myself for getting my training in. I haven't missed a single run in nine weeks. I only have three weeks to go until the half-marathon.

I would like to write more here, but like I said, I find it hard to write when I'm feeling like this. So, I just popped in to say that I'm trying. And hopefully I'll be back to the "good normal" soon.

March 18, 2018

Weekly Wrap-Up: Week 9 of Half-Marathon Training

Nine weeks of training... done!

When I started this training for the Martian Invasion Half, I honestly didn't really have much confidence that I'd stick with it. I'd had a hard time getting back into running after taking so much time off, and considering that running was much more difficult than it was a year ago, I was a little worried that I'd bitten off more than I could chew.

However, I knew that I had to make a bold, public statement of my goal, and write/talk about it frequently so that I would feel embarrassed if I chose to quit. If I hadn't been so public about my goal, I can honestly tell you that I would have quit the first week. The power of saving one's pride is strong! haha

The training continues to get better and better, and the running has gotten easier. I still have good runs and bad runs, but that is true whether I'm in the best shape of my life or the worst.

Today was a big milestone--double digit miles! Jerry and I had our first 10-miler together. But, I'll write about that later. Here is the recap for the week of training...

Our schedule for the week looked like this:

Tuesday - Speed work (intervals)
Wednesday - Easy run (3 miles)
Friday - Easy run (4 miles)
Sunday - Long run (10 miles!)



Tuesday - Intervals
5 minutes easy
5 x (3 minutes hard, 3 minutes walk)
5 minutes easy

I always dread intervals; and then afterward, I feel fantastic and I'm glad I did them. The last time I did intervals was February 20th, and I had 6 x 2 minutes hard. I had run the hard parts at 7.2 mph on the treadmill, and when I was done with that workout, I was COMPLETELY spent. I honestly felt like I couldn't have done anything more.

So, this workout was similar, but the hard intervals were 3 minutes each instead of 2. That's a pretty big difference when you're running really hard. But, I decided to try and do the intervals at the same speed as the 2-minute ones a few weeks ago. That meant 3 minutes at 7.2 mph, and repeat that for a total of 5 times.

Somehow, I managed to do it! It was very tough, but I stuck it out. And honestly, when I was done, I didn't feel as "spent" as I was last time. I don't think I couldn't have done it much faster, but I definitely had a little left in the tank. So, I'm certainly improving.



Here are the intervals stats. I completely forgot about this app on my phone, and I like it better than Garmin Connect. It shows my heart rate along with all the other stuff, which I liked a lot during heart rate training.




Wednesday - Easy Run (3 miles)

This run was not as planned. I did not run 3 miles on Wednesday. Hell, I didn't even run on Wednesday at all! I had a rough day as far as my anxiety and even depression goes, and I just couldn't bring myself to do it. I knew that I couldn't skip it altogether (when I started my training plan, Thomas said that if I didn't skip any of my training runs, he would come visit--a huge incentive).

So, in the 11th hour, I decided that I'd just run on Thursday instead (which is usually a rest day).

On Thursday, I was feeling much better. The weather was gorgeous, and I really do enjoy running in the evenings (which I've been doing a lot lately). Almost as soon as I started running, I decided to do my 4-miler instead of my 3-miler. When I'm feeling good, I try to take advantage of it!

This was one of the best runs I've had in a long time. I ran at what felt to be a super easy pace, keeping my heart rate under 150 (ideally, it would be 144 or less, but recently, I'm happy to keep it under 150). I felt really happy to be outside and doing a nice, easy exercise.

It was exactly what I needed after the crappy day I'd had before!


Poor Phoebe loves being outside, but we don't let her wander. There are coyotes and foxes and eagles in the state land across the street that would love to get a hold of her. So, I bring her outside with me sometimes and let her sit on my lap. She (clearly) loves it.



Friday - Easy Run (4 miles)

This run, as I mentioned, wasn't what was planned. Since I ran 4 miles on Thursday, I only had to run 3 miles on Friday. On this run, I decided to consciously try to keep my heart rate at or under 144 bpm. I like having a focus that has nothing to do with pace. I only looked at my watch every quarter mile or so, though. I didn't want to constantly check it.

Also, I had to stop at my parents' house to feed their cat, so I chose the 3-mile route that includes going past their house a mile in. Again, I felt really good during this run--the evening runs are fantastic for my mentality!





Sunday - Long Run (10 miles!)

This was the big milestone--10 miles. Double digits!

I definitely wanted to do this run with Jerry. We've done all of our long runs together so far, and will continue to do so when we can. (Although, we only have a couple left before the race.) He slept until 12:30, and we planned on leaving at around 1:00. I was shocked when I looked at the weather--it was 62 degrees outside!!

I dressed in my Heat Gear capris and a performance t-shirt. With as cold as it's been, I was super skeptical that I wouldn't freeze to death, but I'm starting to learn to trust the weather app. I'm always so cold on a regular basis that it's hard to trust when it's supposed to be warmer.

We wanted to go to a park that is about 30 minutes away, but Noah had to be at his piano lesson at 4:45, so I wasn't sure we'd have enough time. Ultimately, we decided against it, and played it safe--we planned to do two of the 5-mile loops at the State Park, which is less than 10 minutes away. In retrospect, I really wish we'd chosen differently.

The State Park has some really gorgeous scenery, and it would be the perfect place to run--if not for the paved path itself. It REALLY needs to be repaved--there are tree roots that have pushed the asphalt up and caused it to crack and crumble. It has a slant throughout the entire path, which is not good when it comes to causing injuries. (That's actually how I developed a stress fracture in my fibula.)

We did our 7-mile run at the State Park a few weeks ago, but only 5 miles of it was on the rough path (2 miles were on the newly paved path), so I didn't have any problems then. Today, doing all 10 on the bad path was a different story.

Halfway through the run today, my ankles were really feeling all the bumps, cracks, and slopes of the path. I stopped and stretched twice in the last couple of miles. My left IT band was bothering me, too, especially on the very sloped parts of the path. I told Jerry that if it started to feel like it might be injured, I was going to walk the rest of the way to the car. The last thing I want is to get injured going into week 10 of training!

We finished the run, and our legs were definitely feeling it. We stretched, and we had to get home to take Noah to his lesson, so I planned to use the foam roller on my IT bands later. By the time I got home, I wasn't hurting, but I definitely feel like my legs will be sore tomorrow. My hamstrings feel tight, so I'm going to stretch those really well, too.

Anyway, we did it! We hit our 10-mile long run, and I kept my heart rate at 145 bpm (so close to the ideal 144!). My cardio felt great today--if not for the bad pavement causing problems with my legs, it would have been a near-perfect run.

The good company and conversation made the run go by pretty quickly. I've said it several times, and I'll say it again: training with a parter has made such a big difference in my attitude. It's so much nicer than running those long runs by myself!





And there we have it! Nine weeks of training. Now just four weeks until the race :)


I've been thinking quite a bit about what my next venture will be as far as running goes once the race is done, and I made a decision that I feel pretty excited about. I'll write about that soon!


March 15, 2018

Selling more stuff (and some sad family news)

Thank you for the support on my last post! My anxiety has still be sticking around the last few days, but on a scale of 1 to 10, it's probably only about a 5 right now. It's interesting--before I started my bipolar meds, my anxiety was either a 1-2 or a 9-10... it was never in the middle. While anxiety is NEVER fun, it's nice that it's not nearly as bad as it used to get.

I was debating whether I should call this a Weight Loss Wednesday post or not, because there isn't much to report in that department... but then Jerry reminded me it's actually THURSDAY today. I can't believe it! This week has been very whacky.

So, I'll just write a mishmash of what's been going on lately. Here are some Thrifty Thursday things...

On Friday, I cleaned out the boys' closets (to help relieve my anxiety) and I came across their Nintendo DS game systems (those little handheld games from around 2005-ish). We had two DS's, 8 games, both chargers, a couple of cases for the games, and a carrying pouch.


I asked Jerry if he thought I could sell it on the local Facebook garage sale site, and he said he doubted it, but I could give it a try. He suggested $20, but I decided to list it at $40 and see what happened.

Within seconds (literally) of posting it, I'd already sold it! And then I had about 12 other people within the hour asking if it was still available. I wish I'd asked more for it! I made plans to meet the buyer at Kroger for the sale in a couple of hours.

I'd also listed Noah's now-too-small The North Face down-filled puffer coat. It was in really nice condition, despite his wearing it for about three years. He LOVED that coat, and I finally insisted that he needed a new one (this one looked a bit ridiculous being so small on him).

So, I listed his coat at $25, and within minutes, someone offered $20 and I said sure (shortly after, I got a couple other offers for $25--but I was happy to get anything for it at all, and the man I sold it to was thrilled because he said his grandson would love it). I agreed to meet him at Kroger at the same time that I was meeting the woman to sell the DS's.


I was excited to have made a quick $65 on stuff that I would have just donated to Goodwill anyway. I'm definitely going to start using the site more often.

Noah really wanted to replace that coat with a new one of a bigger size, but they were SO expensive (the North Face one was bought at a garage sale).

That same day, Eli needed new shoes, and I had a gift card to Kohl's. I also had something to return there, so we went to find shoes for him. He ended up getting some Adidas ones that he really liked in the clearance section.

While we were there, I browsed the clearance racks of coats, and I found one almost identical to the North Face one that we'd just sold. I knew Noah would be thrilled with it, and it was on clearance for $40! I bought that for him, and I got one for Eli, too.

On the garage sale Facebook page right now, I have my wedding rings listed for sale. Jerry and I agreed to sell them because they've been sitting in my jewelry box collecting dust. I'm just not a "jewelry person", so they are wasted on me.


They're gorgeous rings (an solitaire diamond engagement ring and a wedding band), but I am more sentimentally attached to the cheap Fossil watch Jerry gave me than I am the rings, haha. I did have one man say he was going to buy them, and we arranged a time to meet for the sale--but he backed out the next day. Bummer! If they do sell, Jerry and I want to do something fun together with the money (I have them listed for $950).



On a somber note (that feels odd sharing here), sometime during the night on Friday, my cousin Jeff passed away. This was an enormous shock to me. He was only 45 years old! He died in his sleep, and the cause of death is unknown--there was an autopsy performed on Saturday, but the results won't be ready for weeks or even months.

Jeff and I were not super close, especially as adults, but we saw each other frequently when we were young (we lived just two blocks from each other). He was my mom's brother's son, so he was my first cousin. I felt so terrible--not just for my aunt and uncle, but for Jeff's domestic partner of over 20 years, John. He was the one who found Jeff, and he is (understandably) completely devastated.

The whole thing was just so surprising--I think I'm still a little shocked by it all. My family is very lucky in that we haven't experienced much loss, especially considering all the people on this side. So, this was tough for the whole family.

The "celebration of life" for Jeff was on Tuesday, and as sad as the circumstances were, it was nice to have so many of my family members get together. When my grandma was alive, we had a Christmas party every year with all of the family, so it was awesome that we got to catch up. We haven't done that in a while, so I was able to see several of my cousins that I hadn't seen in years.


There were several cousins missing from the photo, unfortunately, but it was good to see everyone that was there. I am the second-youngest of this generation of my family. My brother, Nathan, is the youngest. We were never really allowed to hang out with the "cool cousins" back in the day because we were too young ;)

Also, in keeping with the Thrifty Thursday theme (again, it's a little awkward to post this here)--Jerry and the boys didn't have dress clothes for the funeral. No nice pants, shirts, or even shoes. I hadn't even thought of it until the morning of the funeral, so I took the kids to Salvation Army and we managed to get everything they needed. The dress shoes, pants, and shirts (and a tie for Noah) cost $40 total! We just never really have a reason to get dressed up--and the boys grow so fast anyway.

Noah is being inducted into Honor Society next week, and he needed dress clothes for that, so he can wear the same outfit. My mom wanted to get a family photo of us on Tuesday, because we were dressed up, and I was shocked when I saw it. My kids are almost the same height as me! When did that happen?!


Eli's hair still has a little blue-ish tint to it. When he first got it dyed, it was bluer than his shirt!

Finally, Salvation Army had a huge two-day sale. All of the clothes marked with a brown tag or yellow tag were 5/$5. I spent way too long browsing the clothes, and I ended up buying quite a few things. I didn't take photos, but I will try and take photos this week of some of my favorite finds and post them next Thursday.

Hope everyone has a great Friday!


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