May 2, 2018

Week 0

Like I said in my last post, I'd like to get back to doing Wednesday Weigh-ins. I tend to stop doing them when I am continuously gaining weight, because it just makes feeling bad feel even worse. I have no idea if I'm actually going to be successful at dropping this extra weight right now, but I figured I'd start with a Week 0 weigh-in.

I wrote the post with my plan to get back to my goal weight just three days ago, so I wasn't expecting much of a drop today on the scale. I've been doing really well at getting back to calorie counting and eating four times a day. It actually feels nice to get back into it--I always felt in control and my anxiety wasn't bad at all.

On Sunday, it was really nice outside, so I went for a run outdoors instead of on the treadmill (my go-to lately). I overdressed, and was HOT during the run; when I got home, nothing sounded more appealing to me than a popsicle. So, I had a watermelon Outshine bar (sooooo good!) and sat on the porch for a while.


Last month was a bad month for me because I've been feeling depressed. When I am depressed, I have the classic symptom of losing interest in things that used to interest me. And when I lose interest, I stop caring and lose that sense of control.

Lately, my house has been messier, I was eating too much, and disregarding our budget. We spent too much money last month, and we only had $9 leftover to pay down on the credit card! I had been hoping to pay it off completely last month, but it's going to take until June to pay it off now (as long as we stick to our budget).

I've been feeling really bad about myself for all this--the not caring, I mean. So, I finally decided to work on caring again. I really miss how good I felt last year, which is what inspired me to start working on things again (and making my "40 Goals by 40 Years Old" list).

It's kind of amazing what just a few days of eating well, running, sticking with our budget, cleaning the house, etc. can do! Even if the weight itself doesn't come off, I still feel happier and in control by working on it.

Anyway, today's weight was down just a hair from a few days ago. Like I said, I didn't expect much, because my last weigh-in was Sunday. I was at 147.6.


So, at 146.8, I'm down just shy of a pound since then. I'm considering this my official starting weight of my new plan.

I started documenting my "40 Goals" list on Instagram, so that I don't bombard my blog with pictures of my bullet journal. (I'll still include them occasionally, if they're relevant.) But if you're interested in following along, my goals account is @runsforcookies_bujo. Let me know if you have a bullet journal account so I can follow you! I love looking through others' journals.


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6 comments:

  1. Thank you so much for writing these Katie! You give me so much encouragement without even knowing me and I love you for it!

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  2. Katie! I swear our bodies are on the same schedule. I was 146 this AM and of course want to get back to my comfortable 133. Good luck to you! Let's do it together!!!!

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  3. Yeppers, I'm at 147 and should be around 133...same height as you. I'm not happy and confident at this weight but geese I dread the daily struggle it takes to keep my body at 133. Some days I don't know which is worse, feeling awful about my size or the controlled and meticulous calorie deprivation.

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  4. So grateful for your honesty in all your posts! You are awesome and genuine! JD

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  5. This school year has been rough on me and I already needed to lose about 60 lbs. I'm going to "reset" with you and actually start putting some effort into it. I'm a newer reader and I'm loving your posts! Also a fellow Michigander :)

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  6. As a weight loss coach, i find clients have a hard time being as vulnerable as you are in your posts. I know it's helpful to those who read you and am sure it's really powerful to put your struggles out there for others.

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