I know firsthand just how debilitating depression can be, and how hopeless it can make one feel. It's a terrible thing to go through, even when you have all the resources to help. Whenever I hear about a suicide, it just makes me feel so sad for that person, and that they had lost hope. There is nothing worse than feeling hopeless.
Anyway, the world lost a great comedian and actor yesterday, but I really hope that it brings more awareness to what depression can do to people--even people who seem to have everything going for them!
A few weeks ago, I got a notice in the mail from my bank stating that soon, they were going to start charging a $7 monthly service fee for their "free" checking accounts. That did not fly well with me! I have two checking accounts and one savings account there, and I've been a customer for about 15 years, but I decided to switch banks so that I could have a truly free checking account.
I had no idea just how much work it was going to be to switch banks! I decided to use a local credit union, so I went there to open the accounts, but because Jerry wasn't with me, I had to open the accounts in just my name (later, I'll have to take him with him to add him on). We have a lot of automatic deposits and withdrawals, so I have to notify all of those companies and change them all over to the credit union.
This afternoon, I had to go to the bank (which is actually now 20 minutes away, because the branch nearest to us closed a year or two ago). I closed out my savings account, but had to leave the checking accounts until everything is switched over, which could take a few weeks. I ran into several other issues, but won't get into the boring details here. Basically, changing banks takes a lot of work!
I'm still doing well with intuitive eating. Last night, I ate too much, but rather than beat myself up for it, I used it as a learning experience. I'd had a couple of glasses of wine (one glass was just fine, but I shouldn't have had the second), and then I started thinking I was hungry (logically, I knew I wasn't). So I snacked on a few random things, which ended up being too much.
On Weight Watchers, if that happened, I would have used up way too many points, and then I would have tried to restrict my eating today so conserve what points I had left. That's a slippery slope, because it's basically a set-up for a binge. Instead, I just went right back to intuitive eating today--I ate breakfast when I was hungry (a couple of hours after I woke up), and followed my hunger cues throughout the day. It felt nice to just move on without much thought at all about it.
Because of all the running around I did for the bank, I didn't have a chance to go to the store to pick up anything for dinner. At around 4:30, I was starving. My stomach felt like it was going to eat itself. I thought about taking the kids out to dinner, but nothing really sounded good (which was odd, because I really was hungry). I was at the point that I really didn't care what I ate (Cereal? Sure! PB&J? Great!). The kids weren't thrilled about the idea of cereal for dinner, so after some digging, I found the stuff to make meatball stroganoff.
Stroganoff always looks so gross, but it tastes so good!
When I first started the intuitive eating, there were very specific cravings that I had, so it was easy to choose what to eat. For the past few days, though, I've had such a hard time deciding, because nothing really calls out to me. It's not a bad thing, but just something interesting that I noted.
I've had a hard time getting outside to run lately, because of Jerry's work schedule. I've done a lot of treadmill running, but it's been hard to make myself do more than three miles on the treadmill. Jerry's schedule is going to change again soon, so I should be have more free time to run outside. I want to get in at least one more long run of 10-12 miles before going to Punta Cana.
Speaking of Punta Cana, we leave in less than two weeks!! I'm getting SO excited :)