All day today, I was trying to come up with reasons not to post my weigh-in today. I had a terrible week (I probably only stayed on plan for two days total), and I watched my weight climb all week long. Even when I opened this blank post to start writing, I was planning to say something like, "I'm going to take a pass for my Wednesday Weigh-in today..."
Is it okay to take a break from the scale once in a while? Of course. But I know me ;) I know that it would be the start of skipping many more weigh-ins just because I gained a lot, and didn't want to show the internet. When I got to my goal weight in December, I said I was going to weigh in every single week, no matter how badly I didn't want to.
So today, I really really really didn't want to. But I'm going to, because I don't like breaking promises to myself.
Two weeks ago, I was at my goal weight of 133. Today, I was eight pounds heavier. Am I surprised? No. I ate very poorly this week. Am I totally devastated? No, because I know that if I get right back on track, it will only be a short setback. I actually think seeing that number on the scale was sobering enough to make me realize that every day really does matter. I have to log my food every day, even if I eat way too much (there were a couple of days where I didn't this week).
I've been doing this long enough now to know that I can take the gain off just as quickly as I put it on if I get right back on track. I also know that if I don't get right back on track, by next week, I could be up another five pounds. So even though I am going out to La Pita for dinner tonight (!), I am back to measuring and counting.
Jerry kind of fell off the wagon this week, too; we both got in that "But it's summer!" mindset that I've talked about before. I'm not putting any blame on him in any way, but when he's off track, it's easier for me to fall off, too (and vice versa, I'm sure). We had a long talk about it yesterday, and we are both totally committed to not letting this one week turn into two or more.
Anyway, it was hard to post the gain, but I'm glad I did. Did anyone happen to watch Extreme Weight Loss last night? The man on the show started manipulating the scale to make it look like he'd lost weight when he really was gaining. He was lying to Chris Powell for weeks (maybe months) about it. When he finally told Chris about what he was doing, he said that he felt so much pressure to lose the weight, he lied about it, and then planned on actually losing it so nobody would know. But instead of losing it, he kept gaining, until it was obvious that he had been lying.
So I think, in a way, "taking a pass" for my weigh in would feel dishonest in that way. For anyone who wants to know what life is like in maintenance, this is a reality. It's happened to me lots of times over the past few years, and I'm sure it'll happen again! The key is just getting right back on track and taking care of it right away, instead of continuing to eat poorly and say, "Just one more day".
Considering all of this, it was perfect timing, then, when I got this bracelet in the mail yesterday:
Brandi, one of my readers, had this bracelet made for me--it says "determination always trumps motivation". That is something I said over and over in my head the whole time I was losing weight and feeling unmotivated. Motivation is very temporary, and can help get through a tough moment or day. But determination is for the long haul, and that helped me to chug along through the whole weight loss/maintenance process, good and bad. (I wrote a post a while ago about the difference between motivation and determination).
Now, about La Pita... I'm very excited about going tonight. Stephanie and I are going to meet up with Kelly from Sublurban Mama! I only know her through her blog, and since Steph "knows" her too, we thought it would be fun to meet up for dinner. And what better place than La Pita? ;)