I know I said I wasn't going to mention my weight until the end of this challenge, but I really must do something to avoid gaining any more. My weight is climbing almost daily, and I'm past my "panic weight" of 137. This morning, I was 139.5. Fucking pistachios. And dates.
I used to snack on a piece of Ezekiel bread with nut butter; now I've been snacking on dates (way more than a serving) and nuts (again, more than one serving). They're just so small and not-filling that it's easy to get carried away. But I'm afraid to take them away, because then what will I eat?!
I know that common sense would tell me to just limit my portions of those foods. I've tried that, and I just seem to be incapable of stopping. I was actually thinking of counting my calories for the next two weeks of this challenge. I was browsing around SparkPeople today, and it made me miss logging my food in the nutrition tracker.
On the other hand, I've been doing really well maintaining my weight range without counting calories that I'm afraid to screw that up. I think I'll try counting tomorrow and see how that goes.
So today is Valentine's Day. Jerry and I have never really celebrated it, simply because I'm too cheap ;) I get mad when he wastes money on flowers or cards (on ANY day, not just V-day). When we were watching Grey's Anatomy on Thursday, though, all the characters kept eating chocolates--and I said to Jerry, "I want Valentine's Day chocolates! I'm always on a stupid diet for Valentine's Day, and I've never in my life gotten chocolates like that."
Then this morning, when Jerry got home from work, I said, "Thanks for the chocolates" (teasingly, because I knew he didn't have any). He said, "What chocolates?" And I replied, "You know, the ones that husbands are supposed to buy their wives for Valentine's Day." So he went into the bedroom and brought out a huge, tacky, heart-shaped box of chocolates and a card. Hahaha, I was surprised--and so disappointed that I couldn't eat any of them!
They are going to sit unopened on my dresser until March 1st, when I'll probably eat all 14 oz. of them for breakfast ;)
Tomorrow, Jessica isn't able to do our usual interval run, so I think I'll do it alone. It's hard to run fast outside when the ground is covered in snow, so I'm going to use the indoor track at our high school rec center. It's great for sprints, because you have to go around the track 12 times for one mile. So I'll sprint for a lap, then jog for a lap--18 times.
I'm going to bring my Garmin foot pod with me and see how accurate it is. I might even be able to calibrate it--not sure if I need a 1/4 mile track or if any measured track will do.
The last time I used that track was the only time I used it--on the first day of softball tryouts in the tenth grade. I decided to try out for softball, and never would have done that if I realized that we would have to run laps. I was horribly embarrassed, because I was extremely out of shape and couldn't run. After one lap, I made an excuse to the coach that I had a dentist appointment and had to leave. I never went back.
My food log was all out of whack today, because I was basically snacking all day without real meals. But it's safe to say that the majority of it was dates and nuts. I think I'll go on SparkPeople right now to plan out tomorrow's meals!
I did make a yummy breakfast worth sharing--whole-grain blueberry pancakes. They were so good that I posted the recipe on my recipes blog.