I've done a lot of thinking this week, and I decided to make a change in my weigh-ins. Since I've been going to therapy, I've been working on discovering what contributes to my anxiety--and one of the things that I hadn't realized was having a big effect was actually my weigh-ins. I like the weigh-ins, because they help me feel accountable, and I think that if I stop doing them completely, my weight might get out of control again.
When I was trying to lose weight, I loved weighing in on Wednesdays, because it was fun to see the losses add up each week; but now that I'm trying to maintain my weight (my goal is to stay at or below my "goal weight" of 133), the actual number itself isn't really anything to look forward to. Each week that I stay under 133, I feel like I'm successful, and I am happy with the weigh-in.
Now, in maintenance, even though I'm still five pounds under my goal weight, I was starting to let the weigh-ins affect my attitude on Mondays and Tuesdays, even if it wasn't a conscious effort. If a friend wanted to go out to lunch on Tuesday, for example, I would have anxiety about it because I knew I had to weigh in on Wednesday, and restaurant food always makes my weight go up a little (just from sodium).
Last week, Becky (my sister-in-law) came over for wine on Tuesday night, and I was worried about what that would do for my weigh-in the following morning--when I really shouldn't have been worried about that, because the wine fit into my calories just fine. Calorically, I can fit restaurant food and wine into my week, and it won't affect my overall weight; but the morning weight following those things reflects the previous day or two. (By the way, I am not saying that I have a *reason* to feel anxious over it--I know it's unreasonable. But that's what I'm working on.)
So, I started trying to think of a solution that still keeps me accountable, but doesn't cause that "Monday and Tuesday anxiety" I feel about my weigh-ins. At first, I thought maybe I could switch to monthly weigh-ins, but I think that might get out of control (I'd tried that in the past). Then I thought maybe I could just write whether I was "above goal" "at goal" or "below goal" to take the focus off the exact number (I wish there were scales that would do that! You would input a goal weight, and it would simply tell you whether you are at-, above- or below-goal); but I think doing that on my own is actually too vague for me right now. I feel like I need to post a number periodically.
I have an app on my phone called Happy Scale that keeps track of my "moving average" weight--it's a little confusing, but I'm starting to understand it better. On any given day, it looks at the past 10 days of weight logged and averages those weights. That way, one particular bad day or "that time of the month" or whatever doesn't "ruin" a weigh-in.
I really like that idea--inputing my weight into the app daily, and then on Wednesday, posting my "moving average" weight, which is the average weight of the last 10 days. It will keep me accountable by posting numbers, but I won't feel that pressure on Wednesday mornings to have my best weight of the week, if that makes sense.
I don't know how well this will work, so I'll do it as a trial for a couple of weeks and see what happens. If it makes my eating get out of control, then I'll go back to posting my Wednesday weight; but I think this seems like a good solution to have that accountability I need while not causing me to stress over the Wednesday weigh-ins. And my week will be more consistent. (If I was still trying to lose weight, I think I'd want to post a weekly weight; but this seems like a much better idea for maintenance, when my weight won't have drastic changes from week to week--at least I hope not!)
This week, my weight varied from 126.6 to 130.8, but my moving average is 128.3. I weighed in at 128.4 last Wednesday, so I'm happy with today's "moving average" weight. My calories were very similar to last week, at 2,122 per day on average. I'm happy with how the week went!
Here is a graph of this past week (the blue dots show my weight on each day, and the blue line is the average. I like that it shows my "maintenance weight" at 133 (the orange line), so I can visually see that my weight was under my maintenance weight all week. That makes me feel like I am on track with what I'm doing.
I don't really understand how this stuff is calculated, though. Below, it says my "lost all time" is 123 pounds, but at my current weight today, it should be 125. And it says I gained 0.2 in 7 days, which is calculated based on the average moving weight and not current weight, so it's kind of confusing. It will take some getting used to, I think, but I do like being able to see the trends--I'm up almost 4 pounds from 90 days ago, which isn't too terrible, but being able to monitor that can help keep it from getting out of control.
I do have to pat myself on the back, though, for doing so well with maintenance this time around! I'm very close to where I was 90 days ago, and also to when I reached my "official" goal in November, so I'm thrilled with that.
I like that I can set my objective to maintain, and I can choose a "high weight" that I want to stay under (in my case, it's 133). This is a nice idea for maintenance! If you are trying to lose weight, the options are a little different.
Anyway, this is a cool app that I think will be helpful, if I can just get used to the moving average idea. I like that it takes the focus off of one particular weigh in, and shows the full picture instead.
I think I mentioned that in therapy, I'm working on focusing on the present and not on the future so much. Since I always tend to make big goal and focus on the end (like a race or a goal weight or something big like that), I miss out on all the things going on in the present. I also feel kind of lost once the goal is over with, so focusing on the present will help me from feeling the "let down" that I get after a big goal.
Instead of working on an end goal right now, I'm trying to come up with things that I can focus on today. I ask myself, "What can I do today to make me feel good?" And as far as my health goes, that involves running per my schedule and keeping my eating in check. I'm not worried about tomorrow, or next week, or the fact that I'm in "maintenance" mode for the forseeable future--but just today. I'm going to do what's best for me today, and if I continue to have that attitude daily, then my future should look pretty good. (This is hard to explain! Haha, but it makes sense in my head.)
One thing that I decided to try this week may sound completely ridiculous, but I have a good reason for it--I'm going to do my hair and make-up and get dressed in "real" clothes (no yoga pants! ha) every day for a week. I always feel so much better when I take the time to make myself look decent. Instead of waiting until late morning to run, I'm doing it as early as I'm able to (depending on the kids' schedule) and then showering and getting ready for the day.
|8:00 AM this morning: post-run, -shower, -hair, and -make-up|
Over the weekend, I started a project I'd been thinking of for a long time--redecorating my bedroom! I don't have much extra money to put into redecorating right now, so this is going to be a long, drawn-out project on a tight budget, but I'm looking forward to the challenge. Over the weekend, I started by painting my bedroom furniture.
When Jerry and I got married, we used some of our wedding gift money to furnish our house. We bought a really nice solid oak bedroom set--a headboard, footboard, and rails for our bed; a dresser; and two nightstands. The furniture is extremely heavy and has held up really well over the years, but it looks outdated and frankly, I'm tired of it. Since the quality of it is really good, I decided just to paint the furniture and put some new drawer pulls on it.
I'm super bummed that I forgot to take before and after pictures of all of it! The only one I did was the nightstands. On Saturday, I hauled them out to the garage and spent the entire day sanding, priming, and painting. By the end of the day, they looked like completely different nightstands!
As I continue to do more with the bedroom, I'll try to remember to do before and after photos to share. Like I said, it's going to be a very long project, because there is a LOT that has to be done (we need new carpet, which may have to wait until next year). I've been looking through DIY stuff on Pinterest, and there are SO many great ideas! It's almost overwhelming. But it's fun to work on :)