Wednesday Weigh-In: Week 111

This is one of the shirts I bought at the thrift store with the intention of using part of it for something else--but I liked it so much when I put it on that I decided to keep it ;)

I am currently writing this from Jeanie and Shawn's place in the upper peninsula! It was a long day of driving, but it wasn't too bad, actually. It went by quickly. The kids slept most of the time and Jerry and I listened to some podcasts. 

I'm going to keep this short (for obvious reasons) but I still wanted to do my Wednesday Weigh-In for accountability. On the scale this week:

I was at 137.6 today...

Considering I was at 141.0 last week, I'm down 3.4 pounds! I wish I could say it was due to great eating habits and exercise, but once again, I feel so overwhelmed that I haven't been able to eat much. This is so weird to me! I have never been one to lose my appetite like this--usually I eat MORE when I'm stressed--but feeling overwhelmed and feeling stressed are two different things to me.

I feel like stress is very fast-paced, kind of like a "to do" list--lots to get done and feeling rushed and just being busy. To me, feeling overwhelmed is a huge overload of things happening in a short time period--not just things to do, but also just things that are happening. When so many things are going on at once (even if it's something that doesn't directly affect me, like Brian and Becky getting divorced in February) I get extremely overwhelmed. I tend to close myself off from people (which I'm sure is the opposite of what I *should* do) and get too much in my own head. It makes me want to just go hide somewhere and come out in a year--ha!

I've had an overload of things on my plate right now and it's very much affecting my mood. I'm hoping that being up north for a few days will help me to chill and hopefully take things off my mind. It's been really hard to talk to anyone about anything lately, so I may try to find another therapist. I really liked my last one, but I didn't feel like we were getting anywhere or that there was really a plan in place. Despite a rocky start with my psychiatrist, though, I actually really like him now, so I think I'll ask him for suggestions for a therapist.

Anyway, I didn't intend to go on that tangent! Being up north, I'll probably eat more, so I may gain some of this back next week. But I'm happy to be back in the 130's for sure. My clothes are starting to feel a little less tight, which usually happens when I get to about 135 pounds.

This week, I'm going to try to take time for myself (reading in the hammock!) and playing some board games and sitting around the fire with my family. Hopefully I'll be in a refreshed mood next week. And tomorrow is Noah's 19th birthday--I can't believe it!