I didn't know much about her, but from what I did know, it seemed we had quite a bit in common. After she committed to our Ragnar team, I learned she was going to be running the Chicago Marathon; so naturally, I suggested we meet up!
Caitlin and I at the Chicago Marathon expo |
"In August 2009, I weighed close to 400 lbs. Not many people in my life know just how heavy I was; looking at me, they could tell I was big, but I never let anyone know the exact number. Even now I really don't want to write it: 383 pounds!
For as long as I can remember I had been overweight. I remember feeling self conscious about it starting in 4th grade. I played sports when I was younger, so even though I was heavy, I was not obese. I stopped playing sports in middle school when some of my friends told me that I ran "funny", and would never be able to make the cut for the high school sports teams. So I went from being somewhat active to pretty much totally sedentary, other then the dreaded gym classes at school.
There was no medical reason for my weight; I just ate too much, and didn't move enough. I have always enjoyed cooking, especially baking, and loved to eat the fruit of my labor. In high school I went on my first diet--a self created one of far too few calories and way too much exercise. I dropped over 30 pounds but quickly gained it back as I was miserable and hungry all the time.
Throughout high school, I tried different diets and had a gym membership I used sporadically, but I continued to gain weight. When I graduated high school I was a size 22/24. I couldn't tell you what I weighed, because I refused to get on a scale.
I went to my college orientation and remember being so embarrassed about my size. I have always been shy and more of an introvert, so I had trouble meeting new people, and my weight made it even worse. I overheard one of my roommates saying something about how she knew she would be stuck with the "fat, pathetic girl". I decided not to attend that college and took a year off.
In that year of staying home, while all my friends from high school were away at college, I gained even more weight. I didn't know what to do with myself outside of a part-time desk job. I attended a college closer to home, so I could commute and avoid a lot of the social situations that made me so uncomfortable.
There was no big "Ah-ha" moment for me, and no health crisis, but in August 2009, I decided I had to change my life; otherwise, I would never change. I changed my diet, but rather than a radical overhaul, I decided to make gradual changes. I set my daily calorie limit to 1400 and stuck to it. I totally eliminated soda--I had been drinking 4+ cups a day. I did not want people to see me exercising so I bought the Biggest Loser DVDs, and would walk in a cemetery near my home. I knew working out at the gym did not work for me.
Over the first five months, I lost over 60 pounds and had worked my way up to walking 8 miles every single day. I wanted to incorporate more vegetables into my diet; I ate a salad every night at dinner and had lettuce and onions on my sandwich for lunch, but thought I could include more. I starting cooking (and still do) things like Quinoa Zucchini Casserole, Farro with ground turkey and vegetables or homemade chicken vegetable soup with healthy grains like wheat berries, brown rice and farro rather than pasta.
I came up with a rotation of healthy meals that I loved--I cook a big batch, divide it into servings, and have my meal ready all week long. Throughout 2010 I continued my daily walking, DVDs, and added weight lifting routines I had found in various fitness magazines. I also started to incorporate brief bursts of running in my walking--making sure the no one was around when I did, because the comments from my friends still echoed in my head.
I fell in love with running, and kept increasing the distance until I had run a full mile. Once I hit 170 pounds, I plateaued; I could not get my weight to go down. I was running a couple miles at a time, and working up to more, but my weight would not budge. My brother suggested I try P90X, and while I did not think I would be able to keep up with it, I committed to the 90 day routine.
I fell in love with P90x, and although it was the hardest thing I had ever done I stuck with it. By December 2010, I had hit what was my goal of 155 pounds; but I was still miserable, because I had loose skin on my arms, stomach, chest, and legs. I felt like a giant deflated balloon. I refused to wear t-shirts or shorts because I was so embarrassed of the excess skin.
I also still could not see myself as a "normal weight" person; with all the skin hanging off my body, I still felt huge. I looked into skin removal surgery, but it was expensive, and I was nervous about having surgery.
I continued running. My older brother convinced me to enter a 5K, and I finished in just under 30 minutes and fell in love with racing. In September 2011, I ran my first half-marathon, and loved it! I decided to try again in November 2011, and after learning more about half-marathon running, managed to shave 16 minutes off my time.
In late 2011, after maintaining my weight loss for almost a year, I met with a surgeon, and scheduled my surgery for January 2012. I had the surgery (the doctor removed 12 pounds of skin from my body!!!) and after a long recovery, resumed my running in April of 2012. I ran two more half marathons that year, and entered a lottery for a full marathon, figuring if I was selected, then it was "meant to be".
I was selected, and ran my first marathon in October of 2012. After completing the marathon, I wrote Katie to tell her how inspirational I found her. I had originally found her blog when researching skin removal surgery, and continued reading. I was following her marathon training while training for mine.
I am so glad I sent that email, because she invited me to join the Ragnar SoCal team--getting to know 11 new amazing people! I love to enter and run races. I ran my second marathon in Chicago last month, and have done mud runs, half-marathons and 10Ks. I am trying to get up the nerve to do a Tough Mudder but jumping into dumpsters of ice water and possibly being shocked by live wires has deterred me so far!
Update: Caitlin has written an updated post in November 2017 about how her maintenance has been going, which you can find here.
Congratulations Caitlin! I think your weight loss and maintenance is amazing. Keep up the good work! I have a friend who ran a Tough Mudder - he got shocked by one of the wires, but said the others didn't shock because they had to recharge. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteWow Caitlin, you have an inspiring story!!! Thanks so much for sharing. You have no idea how your story has touched me and I'm sure many others!!
ReplyDeleteVery inspirational! Thank you so much for sharing.
ReplyDeleteYou are both an inspiration to all of us who are on our own journeys. Thank you for sharing your story.
ReplyDeleteAmazing!! You are awesome! Thanks for sharing your story!
ReplyDeleteInspiring Caitlin! Thank you for sharing
ReplyDeleteThank you for being willing to step outside your box and share your story. Your journey has changed your life hugely. Thru sharing that story you will no doubt encourage others to start their journey. Congratulations on all you have accomplished! Run on!
ReplyDelete"Congratulations" just doesn't seem like a strong enough word, Caitlin. I read this entire post in awe. You are beautiful, poised, and humble...what an amazing inspiration you are! I am sure it took a lot of courage for you to share your story, but I'm glad you did! :)
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Amazing story! Just amazing. I just kept saying "Wow!" the whole time I read it. I think you need to share this story more. It shows people it can be done even if they don't think it can.
ReplyDeleteYou are a total inspiration! Thank you for sharing your story and being so open about it!! I loved meeting you in Chicago & look forward to getting to know you more!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for sharing your "secret" to success. You have worked hard and I am so happy for you. By the way, you and Katie look like you could be sisters!
ReplyDeleteWay to go Caitlin! :)
ReplyDeleteI am in AWE! Thank you so much for sharing your story. YOU are an amazing woman!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations Caitlin, your story is so inspiring! I love the details you've shared, especially around changing your diet and cooking healthy meals in batches, It's something I'm going to try!
ReplyDeleteAn amazing story from an amazing person. I am so humbled and excited to be your Ragnar teammate in April. Your hard work is so inspirational. Looking forward to meeting you in person ... and whatever other shenanigans we are in for :)
ReplyDeleteCaitlin, thank you so much for sharing! When I'm having a tough day and struggling to stay on track, it helps so much to read stories like yours and Katie's. You ladies are so amazing!
ReplyDeleteAmazing story Caitlin. Thank you for sharing it ! You are very inspiring.
ReplyDeletewow Caitlin, what an inspiration. I'm not a runner but I am on a weight loss journey with about 80lbs down and another 40lbs to go. It's amazing to see the transformation, I have so much admiration for you for doing it on your own and for sticking with it. Ladies like you and Katie who are generous enough to share your experiences help others like me so much, so thank you.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations!! i have 80 to 90 pounds to lose. was very motivational for me. i don't like to workout at the gym either! You are very pretty! great job again. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing! You are such an inspiration and had me all teary-eyed for a minute!
ReplyDeleteAmazing. Congratulations on your success and determination and finding your passion for running. So amazing.
ReplyDeleteCaitlin! Congrats! Commenting because the comment from the college roommate really hit home. I transferred to a school as a sophomore and was in an apt with 3 girls i didnt really know. One day i answered the door to a guy friend of one. As i turn around to leave the room he say to her 'shes not THAT fat'. I wanted to die!
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Thank you so much, Caitlin, for sharing your story! You are a wonderful person and a real role model!
ReplyDeleteWow! What an amazing transformation you have accomplished! You have every reason to hold your head up high. Absolutely incredible. Thank you for sharing and encouraging so many of us.
ReplyDeleteAmazing story! So inspiring!
ReplyDeleteWhat a great story! You look amazing and have accomplished so much. :) I have lost well over 100 pounds and am in a plateau. It's very frustrating. I got down to 168 earlier this year and to do it I had to decrease my calories and workout twice a day. Over the summer I gained about 10 pounds back, and I haven't lost it, even with half marathon training. Anyway, I liked reading your story. :)
ReplyDeleteTruly awesome and inspirational story! I'm so glad you chose to share it, and I can't wait to hear your story conitinued in the Ragnar!!
ReplyDeleteYour story made me cry and smile and cry more. You freaking rock, enough said.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story! You are amazing and an inspiration. Thank you!
ReplyDeleteWOW!!! You are such an amazing person! Congratulations on all of you accomplishments. You are truly and inspiration.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful story, Caitlin! Can't thank you enough for sharing your honest and inspiring story! Keep up the amazing work! We'll be rooting for you!!!
ReplyDeleteWow, Caitlin, you are such an inspiration! You look amazing! Thanks SO much for sharing your story!! I wish you the best in your continued journey!
ReplyDeleteWow is right!! What an amazing story you have. I'm so glad you decided to share it with us! You proved that anyone can do it if you stick with it. You started slow and ended up a rock star! Woohoo!!!
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you! I thought taking 40 pounds off was hard! I thought running 11 miles this morning was hard! You are a rock star. Please don't ever forget that. Job well done.
ReplyDeleteINCREDIBLE ! she's stunning! this was just what i needed! i've lost 50 pounds and got stuck, not great when you have 100 to go! amazing story!
ReplyDeleteWow, Caitlin, thank you for sharing your story. DETERMINATION, amazing determination! So fun that you and Katie started your journey the same month, same year, faced surgery around the same time, and now will be running buddies and friends who truly understand each other. Your stories encourage and inspire many of us deeply! Maybe Katie could guest post a few of your favorite week-batch go to recipes of foods you loved that you made up in advance for a week of meals. a little "Caitlin series" in the recipes section :)
ReplyDeleteWhat an inspiring story! Caitlin, you are amazing. Thank you for telling your story.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful story Caitlin. I can relate to a lot of it and it had me in tears and smiles as well. Congratulations on all your hard work paying off. You are truly inspiring.
ReplyDeleteWay to GOOOOO Caitlin!!! You are a doll and such an inspiration to everyone. Your story is amazing. Thank you for sharing it. I hope those "friends" who told you that you "run funny" are not friends any longer :) You go GIRL.
ReplyDeleteCrazy Cool !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing!! Loved reading this, such an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you shared your story. You are proof that it can be done. I have some family members who are very overweight (one almost the same weight you started at) and they talk about losing the weight all the time but they just don't think they can do it so they give up. I wish they could read your story.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story, Caitlin. May everyday bring you continued goodness!
ReplyDeleteAmazing transformation, Caitlyn!
ReplyDeleteSo inspirational! Good for you. Sounds like you did it the right way and are enjoying the benefits!
ReplyDeleteSpectacular story.
ReplyDeletegreat job
What a great success story!! Thank you so much for sharing - glad to 'meet' you through Katie's blog :)
ReplyDeleteAmazing story Caitlyn! Sorry to hear about the crappy roommate, some people aren't worth listening to, and she was definitely one of those. Glad to see you persevered and succeeded!
ReplyDeleteWOW! With just 70 lbs to lose I feel so overwhelmed most of the times and I read your story and think wow! she lost over 200 lbs! You are an inspiration !
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing your story. Very Awesome! You will never know, just like Katie, how much you touch other's lives! - Tammy
ReplyDeleteThank you, Caitlin, for sharing your story. It was a powerful wake up call to me to not give up even though the end goal seems unreachable.
ReplyDeleteWOW! Thank you for sharing your story, it's such an inspiration.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing Caitlin! It always helps to have more people telling their stories so we don't feel so alone tackling major weight loss! - Jess
ReplyDeleteWow ! Thanks for sharing. Incredible!
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