I decided to take today as my rest day instead of tomorrow, and it's thrown me off all day! My friend Jessica has been flirting with a sub-2:00 half-marathon all year, and she's really hoping to reach it at the Detroit Free Press Half-Marathon next month. But she's had a hard time hitting her paces in her training lately, so I told her that I would pace her during her six-miler tomorrow. Since tomorrow is normally my rest day, I just decided to rest today instead. Tomorrow, we'll run 6 miles at a 9:05 pace. (At least, that's the plan.... I hope I don't screw it up!)
I felt so guilty for not running today, which was stupid--I'm just swapping days, not skipping my run altogether! I spent most of the day just trying to keep my hands and mind busy so that I wouldn't binge :/ I don't know what the heck has been wrong with me this week, but I've had the hardest time staying on track. There isn't any reason for it, and I have no excuses. It just is what it is.
I took an hour or so today to write out a meal plan for the entire week, starting tomorrow. I wrote out all of my meals and snacks, with PointsPlus values, and printed it out. I'm hoping that having the structure of a meal plan will help me to stop the eating out of boredom or for emotional reasons. I've gone through periods like this before, and in the past, it's lasted for weeks or months... I'm just hoping I can nip this NOW, before it gets out of control. Usually, I do really well in the fall!
I had a thought the other day as I was running: I never slack off on or skip my runs. Running is just a part of my daily life, something I do whether I want to or not. And even during runs, when it feels really tough and I just want to quit, I somehow dig really deep and find the determination to continue. So why don't I use that same determination on my diet? I did when I was losing the weight in 2009-2010. I wouldn't have let anything stop me! But now, I am just having a really hard time getting back to that mindset. So it's definitely something to work on.
I started playing my favorite solitaire game again as a way to keep my hands busy without eating. It worked today. I really don't have any reason to be "bored", because I have lots of housework and blogwork and stuff like that I can do all day. But when the house is quiet, the kids are at school, and Jerry's at work, I tend to gravitate toward the kitchen. So this afternoon, I probably played 10 games of solitaire. I've still NEVER won that game, and I've been playing it since I was a child. I wish I knew the name of it. Maybe I'll make a YouTube video of it one day to see if anyone else knows what it is! ;)
My books finally came in at the library, so I have something to read, now, too. I've been hooked on Lisa Gardner all summer. I read all of the D.D. Warren series, and now I'm on the second book of the Quincy and Rainie series. My local library system seems to be going digital for older books like these ones (you can download digital copies, but they don't have the hard copies anymore), so I had to request them from another library system, which took a couple of weeks. I am just not into digital books; I can't imagine reading from a screen instead of holding a paperback. I like to hold the actual book! But I imagine that some day, I won't have a choice.
For Taste Test Tuesday, I bought this fat-free hummus:
It's Oasis Zero Fat Roasted Red Pepper Hommus. I was a little skeptical about how it would taste, because of it being fat free--usually the tahini is a main ingredient in hummus, and wasn't sure how it would taste without that. The ingredients were very simple, though, which I liked: chickpeas, water, roasted red pepper, lemon juice, fresh garlic, sea salt.
I love red peppers, so I bought a red pepper to slice and dip into the hummus. This hummus is definitely a calorie-bargain... there are only 24 calories in a 2 Tbsp. serving! When I entered it into the Weight Watchers calculator, I saw that I could have 2 servings for 1 PointsPlus.
I wish I could say that I loved this hummus. It was good--not great--but I definitely like hummus with fat in it, because it feels creamier. The texture of this was like baby food. It was very smooth, but you could tell there wasn't any fat in it, because it didn't have that creaminess you get from something with fat. But, for mindless munching without a lot of calories, this would definitely do the trick!
I'm trying to finalize plans for Chicago, and I'm going to be in the city on Saturday and Sunday night (October 12 and 13). A couple of people had asked me a while ago about a meet-up of some sort. Is this something that would interest any of you? It's hard to plan, since Chicago isn't my city, but I'd love to try. Feel free to send me an e-mail if you'll be around then, and want to meet up!