It was a year ago today that I reached 100-lbs lost. The time has absolutely flown by, and I can't believe it's been so long. This video is similar to my weight loss video, only it covers my first year of maintaining 100+ pounds lost.
In the last year, I've learned a lot about myself:
- Maintenance is HARD. I was expecting it to be hard, but it's ridiculously hard sometimes.
- Don't get too cocky. When I reached my lowest weight in December, I felt invincible. My weight was decreasing rapidly, and I wasn't counting calories. Well, DUH--I was on a liquid diet for a broken jaw!! Of course I was going to drop weight. I got too cocky thinking I had it all figured out, and when my jaw healed, I gained back some weight.
- The fat girl in my head is still there, probably even louder than before. I still think I look fat, I still see all my imperfections, I still feel "unworthy" of wearing cute clothes or shopping in athletic stores or calling myself a runner. The fat girl is always telling me that I'll never keep the weight off and that I'll let everyone down.
- I've also learned that there is a skinny girl in my head, too! She tells me it's okay to eat ice cream, because I'm thin now. She tells me it's okay if my size 4 jeans are tight, because a size 6 is thin too.
- Old habits are hard to get away from, but there are some habits I used to have that completely disgust me now. I cannot imagine eating some of the things I used to eat--even on a horrible binge day, I am too far removed from my former fat-self to eat that way.
- I'm still a binge eater :( I went a YEAR without a single binge. Then I started doing it again, although I'm not sure why.
- I still eat for emotional reasons, particularly stress.
- I ran a Ragnar Relay, my first 5k race, two 10k races, a half-marathon, and an 8k race.
- I went on (I think) 5 different trips/vacations--some of which I gained weight, but I lost it after.
- I made it through the most trying time of my life (so far) when I broke my jaw. As horrible as it was, I learned a lot about myself. I also became so much closer to my family, and learned just how great my true friends are.
- I faced some fears--flying in an airplane, dancing, zip-lining.
- Find a happy weight and maintain that within about 3 pounds. I've been bouncing up and down with 10-15, and that is way too big a range.
- Run a sub-2:00 half-marathon.
- Work on my emotional eating and binge eating.
Possiblystart a food journal that focuses less on calories and more on how I'm feeling when I eat.
- Live more actively. Not just intentional exercise, like running and cycling. But enjoyable activities that involve movement, like walking to the mailbox daily (my mailbox is about 1/4 mile away), yard work, etc.
- Step out of my comfort zone a little more--join a club or some activity that makes me overcome my shyness. When I was fat, I always said that I would be outgoing if I got thin. Well, what am I waiting for?! ;)